Gomen-minaaaaa T_T
You know what I'm doing. School work. I can't even watch HXH 2011 anymore T_T
Disclaimer : HXH is not mine.
Note : The italics one is the memory , the normal one is the present.
"I want to know" I said to her.
"But… there are some scenes that you might not like" she said.
"I…" I was hesitated for a moment.
'There is nothing for me to be afraid of… right?' I gulped down my thought and said…
"It's okay. Everything will be okay. Moreover, there is Killua right now. I won't feel alone or melancholy anymore" I said.
"It's not about lonely or not. It's about… something that you love the most. You might hate it after you see your past" she said.
'What?' I thought that's stupid because I couldn't hate something that I love the most that easily.
"It's okay. I won't" I said.
"Your choice, Setsu" she said. She took my hand and activated her nen.
"Ready?" she asked.
"Hnn!" I said to her. Slowly, my eyes went sleepy and closed slowly. Before I knew, I was brought to see my past.
As I opened my eyes, I was in the balcony of my mansion. I saw a girl sitting on a chair with her teddy bear. The table was full of cakes and cute teacups. She was playing teatime with her teddy.
"Mr. Teddy. Do you want to drink hot chocolate?" the girl asked the teddy as she took her cup. She shook the teddy's head, which means a 'no'.
"Eh? Why? It's delicious!" then, she took a sip of her hot chocolate.
"Hime-sama, I apologize for interrupting your teatime but… have you seen a rainbow?" a maid asked the girl.
"Huh? What's a rainbow?" the girl asked.
"Look! It's a rainbow" the maid pointed to the sky. Then, the girl followed where the maid's pointing. She looked at the sky and starred the rainbow with a big smile decorated on her face. I noticed that the maid took out a little bottle from her pocket. The maid poured something white-ish on the girl's hot chocolate from the purple little bottle.
'STOP! What are you doing?!' I said to the maid, but she ignored me. More precisely, they couldn't hear me.
"La-chan! Why does the rainbow look so sad?" the girl asked.
"Eh? Is it?" the maid quickly hid the little bottle in her pocket again.
"Yeah!" the girl said.
"I don't know, Hime-sama" the maid smiled as if she was happy.
"Though there are many colors… Sigh" the girl took her teacup and moved it near her face.
'Don't drink it!' I shouted, but the girl didn't hear me. As a result, the girl dropped her teacup because of the poison that she drank.
PRANG!
"Hime-sama! Are you okay?!" the maid acted as if she was panicked.
"Cough! Cough! Cough!" the girl placed her both hands on her throat as if she was choking herself.
"I'll call the doctor right away!" the maid left her alone in the room.
As I watched the girl coughing, I felt like this has happened to me before. I felt that my chest was hurt and couldn't breathe suddenly. I tried to calm myself, but the longer I watched the girl struggling, the more pain I got. Then, the girl started to get tired of coughing and was about to pass out because of the cough. She downed to her knees and tried to call for help. However, her voice didn't come out from her throat. I placed my hand in front of my chest, hoping that someone will notice the girl. I wonder where 'that' maid went. I bet the maid didn't call the doctor.
When I was about to follow the maid, the door open and another maid saw the girl.
"Hime-sama! What happened?! Yuri, call the doctor! Sawa, bring some water!" a middle-age woman with a maid costume directed the other maids. I guessed she is the head-maid in this mansion. I felt like I must go out from the room to breathe. I couldn't stand it any longer than that. As I went through the wall, I saw the previous maid that poisoned the girl on my left. She peeked from the corner and seemed unhappy about what has happened. I went to where she was to know what she would do next.
She went to her room and locked the door. Well, I was a ghost so I could go through the wall. I was relieved that I couldn't be seen. Then, I saw her took out her phone and called someone. I tried to look who it was, but I couldn't because she already put the phone near her ear.
"It's me, Rick" she said. I remembered that Rick was my father's rival. Rick also built a chocolate company like us. No wonder he wanted me to die because I was the one who made our company's chocolates. I knew that my chocolates were way better than theirs. As this scene replayed in my mind, I realized that Rick was the one who sent Killua to assassinate my family. Rick must thought that he could charm me with, "Oh, What a pity. Your parents died and you're alone! Let me keep you and you can repay it with making me chocolates for my company. How is it?"
I was glad that I came along with Killua wherever Killua went so that I didn't end up taken by Rick.
"I failed. Sorry" I only could hear in this side. She didn't put the phone into loudspeaker.
"Yeah, but I can't disguise myself as La-chan again"
"Well, I obtained pretty much information. She will have a birthday soon. How about give her a box of poisoned chocolate?"
"Yeah, bye"
Then, I felt some pressure was going on surround me. I close my eyes slowly until the weird pressure around me vanished. I opened my eyes and saw that I was in a room full of presents and flowers.
"This is from papa's friend" and old guy handed my lil' self a big box of present.
"Wow… Barbie's house! Give him my regards, papa" the girl was amazed with the cute house in front of her.
"Let's see what's next… Hmmm…" papa grabbed a box with a red wrapping paper.
"Who's this from? There's no name on it" he flipped the box, but he didn't find any name.
"Let's open it, papa!" the girl said.
"You're the birthday girl" papa handed the box to my lil' self. She opened it right away and the smile on her face became wider.
"Chocolates!" she quickly opened the box and ate one of the chocolates.
"Hahaha… You really love chocolates, don't you Setsu?"
"Hnnn!" the girl smiled happily, but the smile didn't last long. She suddenly fell on the floor and all of her body was shaken.
'No…'
"Setsu! Nana-san, call a doctor! Quickly!" the old man was panicked. She had a seizure. My hands were trembling as I held my horrified face. My heartbeat became unstable.
'No…' I remembered how it felt.
'NO…' It hurts.
'NO!' It's painful.
'NO!' I don't want to remember this.
'Please…' I started to breathe difficultly.
'Somebody…' my tears began to roll down my cheeks.
'Help me…'
GASP!
"Hosh… Hosh… Hosh…" I woke up from the nightmare. I looked at Alluka, who was in front of me, with horrified face. I was back from the past. I felt my hands were cold and sweaty in Alluka's grip.
I didn't know I had a trauma towards chocolates before. I didn't know whether I would be able to overcome my trauma of chocolates in the future.
And I didn't know if I still loved chocolates… or not.
"So?" Alluka asked me about the journey.
"So what? You know the whole story, don't you?" I said as I calmed down my heartbeat. It's true that I had this trauma before. I remembered how it felt when I ate chocolates or even got near chocolates when I was in trauma.
"I know, but it is you who decide" she was concerned about his Onii-chan. Will I continue being his girlfriend? Should I stop? How about if I disappoint him because of my trauma? I was sure about the answer before, but after seeing my past I didn't know what to answer. Should I face it? Of course! But… I didn't think it would be possible. More precisely, I didn't think he would accept it because he loves chocolates so damn much. But still… I love him.
"I'll try" I said.
"Good!" Alluka smiled and leaded me the way to the hallway.
"Sigh…" I raised my right hand up in the air, tried to grab the ceiling with my hand.
'Is it really possible for me, who hate chocolates, to be his girlfriend, who loves chocolates?' As I thought that question, I tried to remember what happened at Sachii.
"Okay, and what would you like to drink?" Rima asked.
"Just tea" Killua said.
"The usua-" when I was about to say 'the usual', I couldn't finish my answer. Then, the flashback came again to my mind. The painful and the hurt that I had, I remembered how it felt. My hands started to shake and sweaty. Before I knew, I already bit my own tongue and my body regained its composure. I realized that biting my tongue became a habit of mine since I had my trauma because it prevented everybody to notice my shaking.
"I'll have plain water. Don't make it hot" I said finally.
"Eh? Why don't you order the usual?" Rima asked.
"Ehmm… Just in the mood. Hehe…" I tried to be as cheerful as possible.
"Hmmm… This is not like you. Tell me later, okay?" she said.
"Ah… I have to tell Rima about this" I said to myself as I reached my handbag. I searched for my phone inside the bag and found it right away. I click the contact button and searched for 'Rima'. I touched the green button and got the phone near my right ear.
TUT… TUT…
"Tell me everything!"
"Yeah…" I said to her.
"I…" I hesitated for a moment. Should I tell her? Should I…? Well, she's my best friend but… she also loves chocolates. I knew that she would accept me in every way, but… why did I hesitate for a second?
"I had a trauma…"
"Trauma?" she asked.
"Yeah… Trauma of…"
"Of…?"
"Of… chocolates" Finally, I spit it out. Now, let's just wait for her reaction.
"…" She was still shocked.
"…" I'm still waiting for her response.
"W-Why?" I felt she covered her mouth with her hand.
"It's because… I regained my memories"
"Y-You did?"
"Yeah…" I said. When I was six, when I was searching for Killua, when he left me, Rima found me on the street in front of her restaurant. Well, it was her parent's restaurant at that time. I was hungry, looking at the food in the restaurant through the big window. Then, Rima saw me and let me in. She served some food for me to eat but I denied because I didn't have money to pay her. Then, she told me she wanted to keep me. That's how we ended up as best friend. She asked a lot of things about me, but I somehow didn't know anything else accept Killua, my family, and my ability.
"Then?"
"It's my trauma. I… was almost killed by my parent's rival. They know that I love chocolates so they put poisoned in every chocolates that I ate"
"Uh… That's terrible!"
"I thought that I could overcome my traumatic, but… I realize I can't" I said it almost crying.
"I hope I was there, Setsu. I want to hug you now" Rima wanted to comfort me.
"It's okay. I will somehow find a way to overcome this"
"Okay. I'll help you search a way too"
"Thanks, Rima" I put an end to the conversation. I threw my cellphone to my right side and covered my eyes with my right arm. I replayed the scenes that made me traumatic. My heart started to race like hell. My body became cold sweat all of a sudden. I felt the pain the same as I used to have when I was poisoned. Then, I felt something wet on my right arm. It was my tears.
"I'm scared… Killua"
Killua PoV
I left the apartment and went to the near 24-hour shop. It was pretty near, just across the street. I entered the shop and went to the snack section. I didn't see something that I wanted.
'Let's see… When a girlfriend is in a bad mood… I think a box of chocolate will be the best' I thought. I searched for a box of chocolates but they did not have it here. I searched in the nearest convenient store near our apartment and found one. I quickly paid it and went home. As I was in front of her bedroom, I hid the box of chocolates behind me and knocked the door.
Tok Tok…
No reply.
"Setsu" I called her.
"Come in" I heard her. I opened the door and saw her lay down on the bed. She wore a black chemise, which made me blush right away. I closed the door behind me and walked towards her.
"Guess what? I have a present for you" I said with a happy smile.
"Huh?" she looked at me in a bad mood.
"I bet you will feel great after you see this" I pulled out the box from behind me. She sat, took the box, and saw what that is. Then, I saw her horrified face. Her hand started to shake like hell. She threw the box away and she bent her face on her knees. Her hands were covering her head like something was going to hit her from above.
"Setsu…?" I couldn't move. I just shocked as the scene was played in front of me. Setsu… hate chocolates? How could that be? My hand wanted to tilt up her head to see what's written on her face, but… I just patted her.
"It's okay if you don't like my gift" I still patted her head.
"NO!" she shouted and grabbed my right hand that was patting her. I was shocked that she shouted at me at a time like this.
"I… I really appreciate it. Thanks but… I can't" she looked up at me with her teary eyes.
"What's wrong?" I brushed her tears that rolled on her cheek with my left hand.
"I… had a trauma… of chocolates" she looked down at her laps.
"Trauma?" I asked.
"Alluka… showed me my memories in the past" she said.
"What?" I still couldn't believe what I heard.
"Papa's rival tried to kill me. He knew that I love chocolates so he tried to poison me with every chocolate that I ate. He is… the one that ask you to assassinate my family!" she shouted as she grabbed my sleeves. Still, I couldn't believe it. Alluka… did what? I thought I knew Alluka best, but… there were something that I still didn't know about her.
"I tried to overcome this trauma, Killua. But… But… I just can't!" she covered her face with her hands. She started to cry again. I didn't know what to do. Her fragile side made me afraid that I would 'break' her. But… I had to think a way. I looked at the box of chocolates on the floor. I reached it and opened the cover.
"Do you… still love chocolates, Setsu?" I asked her.
"I… I don't know"
"Tried to remember the taste" I said. She tried to remember how it taste and…
"Honestly, I still do…" she said as she closed her eyes to remember the taste.
"Then…" I picked one chocolate from the chocolate box and put it into my mouth. I moved closer to Setsu and I grabbed her face gently. I bent my head to hers and pressed my lips against hers.
"Hnn!" she forced to push me off, but I grabbed both of her hands. I pushed her down to the bed and tried to put the chocolate inside her mouth, but I couldn't get it into her mouth because she closed her mouth with her teeth. I pulled away a little bit.
"What the hell are you doing, Killua?!" she shouted at me, trying to let go from my grip.
"I'll make you overcome your trauma" I bent my head again and put my tongue into her mouth. I quickly moved the chocolate inside her mouth.
"Hnngg!" she became more violent than before. She kicked my stomach with her feet; she tried to free her hands from my grip. She threw the chocolate into my mouth again, but I quickly returned it back into her mouth. Her eyes already became teary.
'She'll cry. I had to move fast' I thought. I moved my grip up above her head and locked her hands with my right hand only. I lifted up her chin with my left hand so that she would swallow the chocolate fast. Slowly, she calmed down until she didn't try to rebel anymore. Then, I pulled away and released her arms.
"Hosh… hosh… hosh…" she tried to catch some breath. She took some napkins from the table and wiped the saliva on her cheeks.
"Are… Are you alright?" I was not sure if she was okay. Then, she glared at me.
'Uh oh… she's mad!' I thought.
Setsu PoV
"Hnngg!" the chocolate that came inside my mouth was like a poison for me. My tongue felt like it was pierced by one hundred of thorns. My body felt the same feeling when I saw my past.
'I had to get this chocolate out of my mouth' I thought. I kicked Killua's stomach with my feet but he wouldn't budge. I tried to let go my hands but Killua's grip was too strong for me. My eyes became teary. I tried to return the chocolate into his mouth again, but he blocked it off.
'Tried to remember the taste' Killua's word ran through my mind suddenly.
Then, the chocolate that melted inside my mouth slowly became sweet. Killua locked my arms above my head and tilted up my chin. I was forced to gulp down the chocolate that already melted. It was bitter, yet sweet.
'I remembered this taste' I closed my eyes. Somehow, I didn't feel pain anymore. I remember the taste… the taste of love. Bitter and sweet.
GULP!
"Hosh… hosh… hosh…" I was grasping some air after Killua pulled away. I took some napkins from the table and wiped my cheeks that were full of saliva.
"Are… Are you alright?" he asked me.
'Well, do I look alright to you?' I glared at him.
"I'm sorry, Setsu. You can mad at me. It's okay. I didn't ask for your permission first. I'm sorry" he apologized. I moved near him and grabbed his face gently.
"You know what? I think I have overcame my trauma" I wiped his wet mouth.
"You did?" he was surprised.
"Then, try this!" he offered me the chocolate box. I looked at the box that was full of chocolates with an unsure look.
'Did I really overcome it?' I thought while taking one of the chocolate of the box. I looked at the chocolate that was in my fingers for a while and then put it inside my mouth. As the chocolate melted in my mouth, I thought the chocolate was…
GULP!
"Yummy"
I will post two chapters in the next update. I promise!
Have a good day everyone :)
-animecybil-