Chapter 2!
AN: If you guys want to skip these AN you may. Unless it says IMPORTANT or something. Because I just like typing and informing you guys but I'm pretty sure it's pointless. Hehe. Well on with the story, yes? Yes!
Oh and I would also like to add that if some of my information is wrong I apologize! I haven't read the manga's and have only watched the anime. Also I am not even finished with it! I'm on episode 250 something so I'm sorry if my information is wrong, I hope you enjoy anyways!
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I've been training, that's really all I've been doing. I remember a long time when Rangiku had saved me. I was young and alone, I hadn't known of what to do with anything. All the kids strayed away from me, to this day I'm not sure why. Was it because of my gray hair? Was it because I intimidated them? Now I do not care, but it hurt me when I was a child.
I would get these odd dreams, dreams of a voice calling my name. Around that time grandma began getting very thin. I had wondered if it was a coincidence or if that too was my fault.
Rangiku is the one who saved my grandmother's life. She's the one who saved my life. She is the one that I owe everything to. I will never admit that to her, although now I do not think that really matters, but I will always be in debt to her.
She may be underneath me in command but without her I would be nothing. Before I met Rangiku the very thought of a soul reaper sickened me. I didn't understand their purpose and quite frankly I thought they were useless. But she helped me, she encouraged me, and that is what made me who I am today.
Of course who I am today, I don't think that is much to brag about. I am a powerful captain. But that means nothing to me anymore. I have lost it. The only reason I am still here, the only reason I am still fighting is because I owe myself to Rangiku.
I know it is useless to fight without a purpose. I know one cannot get stronger. But all I need to do is be there. I don't need to get better. I don't need to get stronger, I just need to train. That's all I owe because no matter of debt will force me to care. I simply do not care. I simply do not care about life itself anymore. I am just here waiting until my escape.
"Oh captain!" Rangiku shouts. I turn around to see her waving her hand excitedly. I sigh raking my hand through my light gray hair.
"Rangiku."
"How about we kick back and relax?" Rangiku asks standing in front of me. "You work too hard!"
"I have no interest," I mutter turning the other direction. She gives me a pout which has no affect on me.
"Oh captain, you're so mean!"
I shake my head and walk off in the other direction. You're so mean. You're so mean. You're so mean. You're so mean. Her voice rings into my head. Looking around I wonder what on earth that is supposed to mean to me. She has said that so many times before always in a joking matter but now I see no humor. I just hear emptiness into it.
Have I affected my lieutenant as well? Has she gotten involved in my useless pity party? Sighing I run off into the night angry at myself for ruining everyone in this world.
I'm so sorry.
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AN: I'm really extremely tired right now. I don't even know why I even attempted writing this. It sucks that bad. But I'm going to post it. Just for the kicks. No I'm posting it because it needs to be here. It sucks but it's kind of informative. Does that make sense? No? Okay.
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