Ch 12 White Horse
Stupid girl, I shoulda known, I shoulda known. That I'm not a princess. This ain't a fairytale. I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet, lead her up the stairwell - Taylor Swift
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"Hey sweetheart. You have to get up for school. I'm so sorry baby but it's better to face him now. Show him what he's missing." My mom says sitting on the corner of my bed. I haven't left this spot all weekend since
daddy carried me up here. I don't want to go to school. Chris is at school. I don't want to think about Chris anymore, it just makes me cry. I refuse to let him see me cry though, or anyone at school for that matter. I
haven't talked to anyone all weekend. I've ignored all my calls and the only people I let in my room are daddy and my mom. This is dumb! I'm going to suck it up, dress really nice today and stop wallowing. I'm hot, and I
know it. Before I got together with Chris lots of boys wanted to take me to the movies, or hang out. I'm so over Chris! He's gunna be begging for me to come back once he sees how awesome I'm doing.
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"Have a good day baby girl. If you need anything call me and I'll come right over to the school all right? I love you princess." Daddy says as I pick up my backpack. "I'm not a princess. I'm not anything." I mumble sadly as I
walk out the door. My whole spurt of confidence thing fizzled out as fast as it came on. The whole time I'm driving I'm trying to keep from crying. I don't want to walk into school with my makeup running, then people
would know I'm a mess. I want them to think I'm fine. "Hey Ro-ro" Ash says using my nickname from when we were kids at my locker giving me a small frown. "Hi Ashy." I say using his nickname holding back tears. "All the
pack boys have their eyes and ears open. If that creep tries to do anything, we're gunna pummel him so hard they'll have to use dental records to identify the body." He says angrily. I just grab my books and nod walking
to my class with my head down not daring to look at anyone.
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"Um are you ok?" I hear someone ask walking into the bathroom. I couldn't hold back the tears anymore, but didn't want anyone to see, so here I am locked in a stall crying my eyes out. Chris was kissing Madison Brooks
in the math hallway. That whore! I just slept with him not even 48 hours ago and he already has his tongue in some slut's mouth! Just thinking about it makes me cry harder. No wonder she was being a bitch at the
party, she liked him and was jealous. "Are you ok? Do, do you want to talk about it? I'm sure whatever is going on I've heard worse." Someone says outside my stall. I know those shoes. Is that Reina? "Ra-Reina?" I
sniffle out. "Yes?" She says confused. I open the stall and she smiles sympathetically. "Hey Rowen. I heard Tio yelling on the phone about what happened. Lo siento. I'm so sorry." She says putting her arm on my
shoulder. "Come on follow me" She says with a smile.
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"How did you find this place?" I ask following her behind the bleachers of the gym. She just smiles softly and sighs "It's tough being the new girl". I smile sympathetically and slide down the cement wall until sitting cross
legged in front of her. It's so secluded in here, the perfect spot for skipping classes, not that I ever have before, this is my first time. "So go ahead. Vent, cry, do whatever you need to. I'm a good listener." She smiles. I
tell her the whole story. I tell her everything about feeling lonely because I'm not an imprint, how I realized I didn't love Chris too late, and how even though I wanted to end the relationship it was still a slap in the face
getting dumped right after losing my virginity to him. She never said one word; she just listens until I get it all out. The she wraps me in a hug and cries with me. "Rowen, he's such a jerk. From what Ash has said all the
pack hates him anyways. I'm so sorry that he made you feel like that. I'll tell you this though, no matter how bad things are right now, they always have a way of getting better. Sometimes going through something tough
like this is the best way to make yourself a stronger person." She says with a knowing smile. I sniffle and nod knowing she's completely right. Once I am able to pull myself together I finally break the silence that has come
over us. "So how's your brother doing? I think about him a lot. Is he ok?" I ask dying to know if he's all right. "I don't really know. He only stays on the phone for like 5 minutes before he has to go do something. He's mad
all the time, says he feels dead. It's not like him. Ignacio says he barley talks to the other guys, says he keeps to himself. He says everyone is scared of him. I'm worried about him. You sound just like him by the way. He
asks about you every time he calls. It's how are we doing, do we need anything, and then it's what's Rowen doing? Is she all right? Does she need anything? What's with you two? " She says quirking her eyebrow. It
breaks my heart he's doing so horrible, but I'm glad he asks about me. "He does?" I say lighting up. "Ya it's weird he said he knows you hate him, but he can't help but want to know if you're ok all the time. He's never
been this focused on a girl, or actually cared about them. If you ever tell him I said that he'll kill me so keep it on the low." She says with a laugh. He cares about me? Why does he think I hate him? "I don't hate him. Why
would he think that?" I say desperately needing to know. "He said he overheard you talking about him once. I guess you said he was a thug." She says shrugging. I don't hate him. I mean I think about him constantly. I
remember his sexy little smirk, or his cocky laugh, or the way his toned muscles looked the day he left. I don't hate him, I think I like him, maybe even love him?
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