he was in a coma and had six months to live. at least that was what the doctor said. unless he has a heart transplant. he had been stubborn and refused a heart transplant. well there was also no matching donors since he had a rare blood type.

until the doctor ran a test on me. it was found that i matched him and since i was a healthy person, i was a suitable candidate.

the doctor asked me to think twice when didn't hesitate when i told him i was willing to donate my heart. donating my heart means i have to sacrifice everything that i have in my life.

i told him, he has a promising future. it has been his long-time dream to sing and he is a successful singer and composer. he is known throughout many countries. he has inspired many people.

the doctor sighed and said, love is blind. he doesnt understand.

the surgery is in two weeks' time.

i told my parents about it and although she broke down, she supported me. they promised me they will look after him, as if he was their own son.

i told my friends, bosses and colleagues, they told me it was foolish of me to sacrifice my life for love. they said love is blind, well they dont understand.

in those two weeks, i tried to fulfil everything so that i will be able to leave without any regrets. there is always a regret that i will never be able to erase - no longer able to be beside him ; not being able to see his radiant smile and hear his beautiful voice.

time waits for no man, and before i knew it, two weeks has passed.

before the surgery, the doctor told me to pen down a last letter to him.

and so I did.

dear shinichi my love,

goodbye, thank you for everything. thank you for loving me.

i love you, i really do.

goodbye, keep smiling, stay cheerful as always. continue inspiring people.

though i'm no longer beside you, life still goes on.

find a good man and settle down with him. i'm sure you'll be a good wife and mother.

dont worry, although i'm no longer beside you, i have not disappeared. you will still find me in your heart.

i still have many things to say to you, but the one thing that i can repeatedly say is i love you.

goodbye, see you next time.

keep smiling.

i love you.

love,

your kaito.