Who I am Hate Who I've been
I'm sorry for the person I became. I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change. I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again, 'cause who I am hates who I've been.- Reliant K
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Diego
After two very long days of driving I finally pull into Tio's driveway. I never told Ray I was coming so this will be a big surprise. I honk the horn and the front door flies open. "ORALE" I yell with a smile and lean against
the car. Reina screams and runs towards me with little Linah stumbling behind trying to catch up. Ray jumps into my arms and I swing her around. "What? You act like you missed me or something." I say letting her go
and picking up Linah. "DIGGY" The little girl says snuggling her head into my shoulder. "Diego what the hell happened to you?" Ray says looking over my stitches and scars. "I don't want to talk about it. Let's just be
happy Si?" I say brushing off the question. I don't want to talk to her about all the things I've done. Ray leads me into Tio's house. "Diego! I'm so glad you're back! Oh my God what happened to you? Have you been
eating? Sit let me make you something. Letia told me about the call her dad made. They didn't know if they would let you out or not! I'm so glad you're away from them. You are going to stay away from them right?" Tia
says all at once pulling me into a hug. "Thank you Tia. I don't want to talk about it, and Si, I'm not going to get sucked back in. I never want that life again." I say lifelessly sitting at the table drumming my fingers against
the table. Even though I'm already a million times happier than I was a day ago, I still can't shake the anger away. "I'm glad to have you back sobrino. It means nephew in Spanish, Reina's been trying to teach us." Tio
says obviously proud of himself. "Gracias Tio." I say shaking the hand he offered me. Linah crawls up my leg into my lap. I take a second just to hold her wishing being with my family will take all the memories
away."Diggy you have an ouchie on your face and on your arm. Does it hurt? What happened? Did bad guys do it?" The little girl says. "No niña, it don't hurt. It was bad guys but you don't have to worry about them." I
say keeping it basic. "Ya cuz you're a good guy Diggy, huh?" The tiny girl in my lap asks. "Why don't you show me the picture you colored you told me about on the phone hermanita?" I say not wanting to answer the
question. The truth is I'm not the good guy. I'm just as bad as all the other guys out there. I start to shake and get up from the table. "Lo siento." I say gritting my teeth. I quickly walk out to the woods, strip as fast as I
can and phase. I used to think I was the good guy, but now its way too hard to tell the difference. I hate what I've turned into, a killer with more blood on his hands than the Red Cross keeps in stock.
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The first week I got back, Esteban made me go collect the money some guy owed him. "Do it right, or I'll go up to Washington and show you how it's done." Esteban said before I left. Pinche pendejo. I find the guy and
tell him Esteban sent me. He immediately pulls his knife out and slashes my arm. All I can think is if I don't get this money he'll come up here and kill Ray and Linah and Rowen. So I stab him over and over and take his
wallet. I had never killed anyone before. Ya I shot those Aranas, but they were still living when I left them. They could have been taken to a hospital and saved, but this guy in the alley, he was gone. I went back to the
garage gave Esteban the money and threw up. I never wanted to kill anyone, but if it comes down to my sisters and Rowen or someone else, it's going to be someone else. That was the first of many. "That's fucked up
shit dude." "Why do you care if our sister gets killed or not. I mean thanks for looking out, but NO NO YOU DIDN'T" I think Rowen's brothers say. "Ya it's fucking us. I can't fucking believe Speedy Gonzales
over here imprinted on our sister." One of them says. "Did you fucking call me Speedy Gonzales? You better watch how you talk about me vatos." I think menacingly. "What the hell is an imprint? "Come on we're
taking you to our house. Maybe dad will chew his ass out!" The other one says.
AN: Shout out to nana213 for the review! I know this one's short don't be mad. I just survived four years of college and this is my excuse for not providing you with a longer chapter :) REVIEW :)