This chapter has a small amount of violence and some homophobic language. obviously I don't agree with the violence and the words or sentiment or i wouldn't be writing a gay love story. Its there for the story and thats it. its very small.
"Prom sucks!" Logan growled watching Jean and Scott dance. Steve sat next to him, messing with his tie. He hadn't really been around Logan since being punched in the face. It wasn't a memory he was fond of and he wasn't about to apologize for calling Jean a bitch. The truth was the truth no matter how painful. Jean had been playing with Logan and Scott for years and unless Logan gave up, he would continue getting hurt. Jean was with Scott and there wasn't anything that would ever change that. Emma, Logan's date sat next to them in a pretty silver dress glaring in the same direction as Logan.
"There you are." Steve looked up at Remy and smiled. Remy was very handsome in a black suit and grey shirt, his tie was white. They didn't match but their colors were the same. Steve wore a gray suit, white shirt and black tie. He hated it; he wanted his jeans and tee shirts.
"Were you looking for me?"
"I was kind of hoping I'd get to dance with my date." Steve groaned. He didn't dance, well not very well anyway. But Remy had grabbed his hand and pulled him from his seat.
"Date?" Logan asked Emma as Remy dragged Steve away. "Did he say date?"
The last song ended and Tony sighed in relief. The night was coming to an end and nothing too bad had happened. Steve and Remy had come out but nothing had been said. Tony hadn't been able to get near Steve, which in all honesty was a good thing. He wasn't in a stable frame of mind after seeing Steve trotted around the dance floor. Tony was a jealous person; he didn't try to hide that fact.
"Damn!" Thor said standing next to him.
"Well that wasn't what I was expecting." Clint said. Tony looked up from the table he had been cleaning up and suddenly felt as if the wind had been knocked out of him. He was pretty far away from the dance floor but Tony knew what Clint and Thor were talking about. Remy had Steve pressed tight against him in a kiss that made the entire dance floor go still. From the distance Tony couldn't tell if Steve was a willing participant or not but it didn't change anything. Tony fled, he could not be in the same room with Steve and Remy and all those other people and not come unhinged. He didn't care at the point what his friends thought of his reaction.
Steve pulled away from Remy a look of shock on his face. He couldn't get mad, not there in front of everyone. He grabbed Remy's hand and dragged him off the dance floor, a few cat calls rang out after them. Steve didn't stop walking or let go of Remy until they were a safe distance down the hall, Tony's classroom was closest to the gym and Steve threw Remy in and shut the door.
Tony stood in the hallways watching as the two boys went into his classroom. The door was shut but it hadn't latched and Tony could hear the two talking, well Steve was shouting.
"What the fuck Remy!" Steve asked anger in his voice. He hadn't seen Tony but he was sure Tony had seen them.
"What?"
"You can't just kiss me like that! Remy, Jesus Christ, did you not think about what that would do to me? We aren't a couple."
"I know that, I just..."
"Wanted to make Logan jealous. That all you've ever wanted, and be damned about everyone else."
"I don't understand why you're so angry Steve. The kiss meant nothing." Of course Remy wouldn't understand, it's not like he would have any idea that he was kissing another man's boyfriend.
"I wasn't ready to come out okay! I did it for you, so that you would have someone to stand next to, and you threw it in my face. You threw it in everyone's face." Steve ran his hands through his hair, he was frustrated and angry and Remy was the one on the receiving end.
"I didn't mean..."
"I know you didn't Remy," the anger deflated a little. "I'm just so sick of this game. I'm not a pawn to be played in your fight for Logan. Everyone in this fucking school is trying to make someone jealous. Scott and Jean, Logan and Emma...You! You're all fighting over the same people and I hate it. I'm always cleaning up the messes, and I did it, willingly until today. Logan has no chance with Jean, Emma is living a pipe dream if she thinks Scott will give up Jean for her and you! You're the worst. Expecting Logan to decide he's into guys, you have no chance with him Remy." Steve's words were harsh and the pain of them was clear on Remy's face.
"You don't know that!" Remy said moving to the door.
"You're right, I don't." Remy was out the door before Steve could stop him.
"Oh Mr. Stark, I'm sorry, I didn't see you there." Steve froze.
Tony hadn't expected the door to open, "It's no problem LeBeau. Heading home?" Remy nodded looked back at Steve.
"Good, I think you have done enough damage for one night." Tony was angry, he wasn't even going to hide. Turning away from Remy, Tony looked at Steve.
"What do you want Stark," Steve's voice was hard and bitter. Tony internally cheered; at least Steve was angry enough to keep up the facade.
"Considering this is my classroom, I should be asking you that question, Rogers."
"Layoff Stark, he's having a bad night." Remy said.
"So I've seen." Steve eyes locked onto Tony's a glint of fear in them. "Relax Lebeau; I'm not going to give Rogers a hard time. Coming out isn't easy." Remy scoffed.
"What would you know about it Mr. Stark?"
"More than you would think. Go home Remy, you've caused enough problems for the night." Tony closed the door shutting Remy out.
"Tony..." Steve started but was stopped by a hand being held up.
"I'm angry Steve, Oh my god am I angry, but it's not your fault. I heard you and Remy, I'm pretty sure the whole school did."
"I shouldn't have done this! I should have never let him drag me into this."
"It's okay Steve, really. It's over and done with, you can't change it."
"Why are you being so understanding? I know you saw that kiss."
"Yeah and I heard you tear Remy a new one for it. I know you didn't plan it, or enjoy it. I'm angry because another guy had his tongue in your mouth. I'm angry that it was against your will. I'm angry that Remy thought what he was doing was okay. But Steve, none of that is your fault."
"I wish I agreed with you." Steve said leaving Tony alone in the classroom. Tony didn't follow Steve and Steve was glad. He needed time on his own, he needed to deal with what happened in his own way.
He didn't agree with Tony. It was all his fault. By going with Remy, by allowing the kiss to happen and not ending it before it went too far, by giving in to the act and kissing back. He'd cheated on Tony, even if Tony was gracious enough not to see it that way.
"Hey Rogers," a hand grabbed Steve and pulled him into the bathroom.
"Always knew something was off about you. That little stunt you and your fag boy friend pulled isn't okay. I think I need to teach you a lesson." The bathroom was dark and Steve couldn't pinpoint the voice. The punch to the gut wasn't a shock, he'd expected it from the moment he got pulled into the bathroom.
Steve wasn't about to give up and let himself be taken down. He'd experienced this before but this time he was ready. The blow came and Steve blocked it. The bathroom door smashed open breaking Steve from his concentration and earning himself a blow to the face. He felt his lip slam against his teeth and tasted blood. He hadn't expected anyone to come in, he had been pretty sure the school was empty.
Logan levelled a kick at Steve's attacker and had the man going down. Steve didn't know the guy and he wasn't given a chance to find out who he was. Logan was dragging him out of the bathroom.
The school was almost deserted, prom had ended and the clean up was going on so they could get out without being spotted. Pulling free of Logan, Steve moved away.
"I could have taken him Logan."
"Doesn't mean you should have to." Steve grunted and walked faster. Remy had left and he could hardly catch a ride with Tony so had a long walk ahead of him.
"Steve wait," Logan called catching up to him.
"What do you want Logan, I'm having a really bad night. I don't think I can handle anymore crap. It you want to rag on me for the stunt at prom, I really don't want to hear it."
"I'm not going to rag on you Steve, I think what you and Remy did was really brave. It can't have been easy to tell everyone that you two were together."
"We aren't together. It was just for the dance, I never should have done it."
"I'm confused, that kiss told a different story. Are you..."
"Yes, Logan I am gay and so is Remy. But we aren't together. I wasn't expecting Remy to..." Steve sighed, "Why do you care Logan?" Steve stopped walking. He was in a really bad mood, had no patience for Logan and while he was grateful for the rescue he wanted to be left alone. The look on Logan's face, the confusion in his eyes told Steve everything he needed to know.
"Go talk to Remy Logan; It's not me you need to have this conversation with."
When Steve got home, he discarded his suit and crawled into bed. He felt like the weight of the world had been planted on his shoulders, and he didn't want that responsibility. Steve didn't feel like he could handle everything the world was throwing at him anymore. One person could only handle so much and for once, he really just wanted to be left alone.
He never should have let Remy talk him into coming out. He should have waited, he should have said no. He should have told Remy that he would stand by him when he came out but that he wasn't ready. Because he wasn't. He didn't care who knew, but he didn't want everyone knowing in such a public way. At least not as public as a kiss.
Steve groaned and buried his head deep into his pillow. That kiss was not something he had wanted to have happen. He had never expected Remy to do that. He wasn't even sure what possessed him to believe that Steve would be ok with it.
Steve and Remy had ended things early in the summer between junior and senior year because Remy was too in love with Logan. Steve had been ok with it and they had kept their friendship intact. He wasn'tt so sure their friendship was salvageable now.
He just had to remind himself graduation was two weeks away and then he could forget the whole ordeal. He would go to NYU where no one but a handful of people would know him and he could finally be with Tony for real. He was really looking forward to his birthday. Even if that was a month away. Two weeks until he was done with the high school bullshit and one month until he could finally admit that his feelings for Tony and they could be together the way they both wanted.
Tony sat in his workshop, drink in hand sipping away his sadness. His relationship with Steve wasn't fair, it wasn't right and Tony didn't know what to do. Steve should be free to kiss someone in public. To walk down the street holding hands, to tell the world that he had someone. To be happy.
Steve was anything but happy when he left prom. He hadn't called or answered any of Tony's texts and Tony wasn't shocked. Steve had left him looking broken and defeated and Tony hadn't been able to help him.
Something had changed for them, Tony could feel it. He just didn't know what it was.
Steve's not having the best time right now. Review and cheer him up 3
