Real House
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Finally. Ikr. School sucks. Makes me sleepy and stuff. And i dont feel like writing so yeah. Thanks for the reviews and favs. All that good stuff.
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Jade's POV
It's five o'clock in the morning and I still didn't go to sleep. I've been staring at the ceiling for the past eight hours. Every time I would try to close my eyes I would see my wife's emotionless face just staring at me then it would change to her crying and I just can't take it. Her just staring at me and not saying anything scares the shit out of me. I wish she would have yelled, hit me or something. Not just look at me.
I sigh sitting up running my fingers thought my hair as I stand going into the bathroom. I turn the light on and just look in the mirror. I don't know who this person is. This isn't Jade. She wouldn't have cheated on her wife.
Fix it.
"How?" I wait for a response as I look at myself in the mirror. The question dangling from a thin line. I search my own blue eyes looking for a answer and I come up with nothing and the line breaks the question falling, smashing once it hits the ground shattering. I quickly try picking up the pieces by looking for a answer but I get cut each time blood dripping from the cuts. I keep trying to pick up the pieces bleeding more. I drop all the pieces when I fail to come up with an answer and I break down.
I fall to my knees laying down balling myself up crying.
How?
A few hours later
I finally pull myself together using the sink to help me stand up. Once I look in the mirror again; my face is red and wet. My eyes are red and puffy and my hair is a mess again.
I clean myself up before I leave the bathroom. As I head back into the living room. I hear voices; Tori's, Liz's, and Jori. Tori and Liz are singing and Jori is babbling and laughing. I listen closely.
Together:
Cause it's my favorite thing to do-o
Any treat from yellow to blue-ue, red and green so let's all sing.
Tell me all about you favorite food.
Tori: Mine is pizza!
Liz: And I like hamburgers too.
Together: I'll eat ice cream cake till my tummy aches.
Then here's what I'll do
Here's what I'll do
Share some of mine with you.
I smile leaning against the door watching as they continue to sing with wooden spoons dancing around.
I look at Tori as she smiles happily like nothing happened. I smile at my girls before I walk away. Eventually they will notice and the smile on Tori's face will go away and I don't want that to happen.
As I straighten up the living room and picking up the decorations on the floor I hear Liz ask Tori to sing the I guess you can say the remix to 'Favorite Foods.' And Tori say yes. She starts to sing and I smile remembering that day. I remember watching her up there with Andre' dancing around and singing. At the time I was with Beck and had no feelings for Tori what so ever. But secretly I liked seeing her smile. Tori as an amazing smile.
She can light up the darkest cave in the world with her smile. That's one of the many things I love about her.
"Mama?" Liz walks into the living room as I finish picking up the trash. I turn around looking at her and she's looking down.
"Yes baby?" She looks up at me and she looks scared.
"Are we going to tell mommy about me being suspended?" I completely forgot about that.
"That's all up to you baby." I tell her and she frowns.
"How come we can't do it together?"
"Liz you know your mommy is really understanding but if it makes you feel better I'll be there with you when you tell her." I think Tori is the most understanding person you will ever meet. She wont be mad at Liz for many reasons but Liz will be getting the 'You should have told us' speech again.
"Can we do it now?" I just nod grabbing her hand leading her into the kitchen. Tori is humming a song while she cooks and Jori is in her high chair eating 'Cheerios'. I kiss her head and she smiles trying to give me one of her 'Cheerios' and I just take it feeding it to her.
"Mommy." Liz's voice comes out small and shaky. I hold her hand tighter letting her know I'm here.
"Yea?" She turns around and we lock eyes instantly. Her face becomes emotionless again making it hard to read her. Her brown eyes are blank and my blue ones keep saying sorry. She looks at me for a second more before she turns her attention to the little girl who's holding my hand so tight they become sweaty and red.
"Igotsuspendedfromschool." She rushes her words out. She said it so fast Tori frowns smiling a little letting out a small chuckle.
"Liz I didn't understand a word you just said. Try it again." Liz takes in a deep breath looking up at Tori and she talks again.
"I got suspended from school." This time it's more clear even through you could tell in her voice she's nervous and scared. Why is she like this with Tori? She should be like this with me more then Tori. Tori isn't going to yell. That's my job.
Jade get your head out of your ass and pay attention.
I snap out of it to catch the end of the 'You should have told us' speech. Damn that was quick. She must have done the short version.
"Yes mommy. I'm sorry." Liz say holding her head down her black hair falling over her face.
"Hey," Tori gets down to Liz's level hooking her fingers under her chin and pulling her head up so that she's looking at her. "It's okay. We're still going to love you no matter what." She says sweetly with a smile to match kissing Liz's forehead. A big smile breaks across the little girls face.
"I love you guys too." She says smiling at Tori then up at me and I smile back. I lean down kissing her forehead then looking at Tori who went back to cooking. Liz lets my hand go and starts to mess with Jori. I go over standing next to Tori but not to close.
"Do you need any help?" I ask quietly and she just shakes her head not even looking at me. I'm a take my chances. I move closer wrapping an arm around her waist and she tenses up but keeps cooking and I lean in close to her ear. "I love you so much Tori and I'm so so sorry." I whisper in her ear kissing her cheek before I pull away and leave the kitchen.
LINE BREAK
Tori POV
"I love you so much Tori and I'm so so sorry." I hear my wife whisper in my ear and once I feel her lips on my cheek it starts to burn. She pulls away and I very slowly relax and tears start to slide down my cheek.
When Jade told me she slept with Beck I didn't believe it. I couldn't. Jade wouldn't do that to me and Beck wouldn't either. Her words didn't kick in till I went into the bedroom. That's when I finally broke down. I cried like I never cried before.
Once I looked at the bed her words, the pain, and hurt came at my heart fast and hard knocking me off me feet. Literally. I couldn't breathe. I thought I was dying. I laid on the floor and cried. I couldn't lay in the bed. Cause I know that's where it happened. I could feel it. I didn't even sleep in the bedroom. I slept in the bathroom connected to our bedroom in the bathtub.
Once I finally woke up it was five in the morning. I looked in the mirror and I was a mess. My eyes were puffy and I couldn't let my kids see me like this. I went downstairs and Jade was laying on the couch with her eyes wide open looking at the ceiling. I don't know how she didn't hear me. She must have been really deep in thought.
I'm glad she was because I went into the kitchen leaving the light off so if she did get up she wouldn't try and talk to me. Any way I put two cold spoons in the freezer waited ten minutes and when I went back, she wasn't on the couch anymore. She was in the bathroom and I heard her say.
"How?" And I listened for a few seconds and I heard her start to cry. Listening to Jade cry breaks my broken heart even more. I just walked away going back into the bathroom laying in the tub and putting the spoons under my eyes.
How? How what? How is she going to fix what she did? How she's going to fix my broken heart?
To be honest I don't even know how. So if she were to ask she'd get no answer.
I'm snapped out of my thoughts when I feel my finger start to burn and I quickly pull my hand away from the stove with loud cry of pain. I was on autopilot and hadn't even noticed I was done. I turn the stove off and before I know it Jade rushes into the kitchen.
"What's wrong?" Jade quickly rushes to my aid grabbing my hand putting it under some cold water.
"Liz go get the first aid kit." Jade orders the little girl who was worriedly watching from the sidelines. I look at Jade as she helps. Seeing the tender love and care she's showing me is reminding me of the time I tripped and fell downstairs at my house and Jade was like a doctor. I busted my knee bad and Jade was amazing. The was gentle and asked if she was hurting me from time to time while she was wrapping up my knee, she was just great.
And looking at her now makes me smile.
I'm not smiling because of the pain, but I want too. Liz comes back and Jade leaves my hand under the water for about five minutes more before taking it out and drying it gently. She cradles my hand in one of hers has she uses the other one to get the burn ointment gently rubbing some on my hand before grabbing the gauzes and wrapping me up.
"You okay?" She asks looking up at me and I nod mumbling a 'Thank you' taking my hand back. "Let me finish breakfast." She tells me as she gently rubs my back giving me a slight push away from the stove. I look at my hand and it isn't really bad and the burning stopped, just stings a little. I smile as I think about all the care she just showed me but I frown biting my lip hard when her cheating on me started to rear its ugly head.
How am I going to get past this?
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