Real House

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A Week Later

Jade POV

It's been a week since I told Tori about me and Beck sleeping together and she still hasn't talked to me. Little 'Thank you's' and talking about the kids or something don't count. I mean really talk. Talk about what happened. I'm still on the couch and I found out Tori as been sleeping in the bathtub and I don't blame her. We both know that's where I fucked up at.

I know Liz notices that Tori and I aren't how we used to be but she doesn't say anything. And When Jess came over I most definitely knew she noticed. She tried to get me to talk but it would just end up with me changing the subject or playfully beating her up telling her to stop being nosey.

Beck. I talked to Beck one time. He kept apologizing but I told him to stop and that I was sorry. But neither one of us should be saying sorry to each other. We should be saying sorry to Tori and Alyssa. He told me Alyssa kicked him out of the house and she won't let him see Beck Jr. That's really fucked up and I feel even worse. I started it.

He didn't stop it.

True but I started it.

God damn it Jade! He didn't stop it! It takes two damn it!

I sigh loudly leaning back on the couch. Yeah it does take two. To some people it may not but to me does and Beck and I are the two who hurt the two people we love the most.

It's killing me not to be able to kiss and hold my wife. Not to be able to talk to her and laugh together. Talk about when we were in high school and our friends. Do things with the kids as a family.

I growl angrily and get off the couch. I walk out of the house. I can't be here right now. Holds to many memories.

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Tori POV

I don't know why I wont talk to Jade. I just can't. I want to talk about what happened. But Really, what is there to talk about? What can she really explain? She had sex with her ex. That's pretty much it.

But that's not the only thing I want to talk about. I just want to talk in general. Have a real conversation. I miss her so much. I know I'm saying it like she's not here but she kind of isn't. I wont talk to her or be around her so she might as well not be here.

I just don't know how to talk to her. Sounds dumb I know but I don't. It's just going to be all awkward and I don't want that. It shouldn't be hard to talk to your wife. It should be the easiest thing in the world but its hard now. It's so hard.

I can't just go up to her and say 'Jade its all forgiven lets just forget it ever happened.' I wish it were that easy.

DING DONG

I sigh climbing out of the bathtub taking the baby monitor with me. I look in Jori's room making sure she's okay as she takes her nap before I go to get the door.

I open the door revealing the very last person I want to see. Beck Oliver.

I look at him wearing blue jeans with his hands shoved into his pocket has he wears the jean jacket to match and a white under shirt. He starts to talk but I don't listen I just look at him. I start to think about him and Jade and I start to get angry. I clench my hand closed tightly feeling my body set on fire and my hand burns once it connects with his cheek making him fall holding his jaw.

I'm breathing heavily has I look at him on the ground and he his eyes and face filled with shock and understanding. I look up seeing Jade with the same face. I look down at my hand pulling my wedding ring off throwing it at Jade slamming the door and locking it.

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Three days later

Jade POV

I lean against the hotel headboard as I look at Tori's wedding ring. I wipe away a few stray tears as I continue to look at the ring remembering the good times, but start to cry when I think about now. And where I am.

It's been three days since Tori kicked me out. I hadn't talked or seen Tori or my kids. I tired to call and go by the house but she wouldn't answer her phone or let me in. She changed the locks.

I can't believe it happened. I just went for a walk and came back to a punched Beck and very angry Tori. I've never seen her so angry before. The look on her face scared me and I'm not scared of anything but the look she gave me when she looked at me scared me paler then I already am.

I guess Beck was there to apologize and I would do the same to Alyssa but she might punch me and I might beat her ass. No I wouldn't. She doesn't deserve to be hurt more then she already is.

God I miss my wife and kids. I bet there wondering why I'm not there. I wonder what she told them. I hope she didn't tell them we were getting a divorce cause I don't want that.

I grab my cell phone calling Tori again and she picks up on the third ring.

"What?" Her voice is full of so much hurt and anger it breaks my heart knowing I put it there.

"Tori please I'm so sorry. I miss you and the kids. I fucked up and I know I did. I want to make it right please let me." I beg into the phone as tears continue to fall. She's quiet for a few minutes before I hear her sigh.

"Why?" Million Dollar Question. You guys know what but Tori wouldn't talk to me so I couldn't tell her.

"Tori I don't want to do this over the phone. Can we meet up or something?"

"Come to the house."

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Still Jade POV

I get to house and as I walk to the door I try to steel my resolve before knocking. The door opens to reveal Tori. Her hair pulled up into a ponytail something she rarely wore in a white t-shirt and gray sweat pants. She moves to open the door wider letting me in.

I duck my head as I come inside looking around the house and things are pretty much still the same. I go into the dinning room sitting at the table and Tori sits on the other side of the table away from me. We sit in silence and its more tense than awkward. As she looks at me I see the questions running wild behind her eyes.

"Why?" Her brown eyes burn into my blue making me feel like a child that just got in trouble and has to explain why they did what they did. I take in a deep breath before I close my eyes opening them slowly looking at her.

"Because," I hate admitting this. "Because… I still had some unresolved feelings about Beck. I was still angry at him for letting me walk away from him. I know its old and stupid, but it made me feel like I was nothing." I sighed. This was so hard. "Tori, I don't know. I'm just so sorry." She nods letting out a laugh in disbelief.

"I knew it… I didn't want to believe it but I knew it." She stands up and walks out of the room, then she comes back into the room. "This is one hell of a way to resolve your issues with rejection."

"Tori-" I start but she walks away.

"no, you don't get to talk anymore." I follow her to another room. "You sefish self impotant bitch!" She picks up armfulls of my stuff. "Did you ever stop to think about all of the people you would hurt just to prove to him that he made a huge mistake.?"

She throws my things at me. "You are both idiots." She throws something else at me, and things are flying at me in every direction. "Get out of here, I can't see you anymore." She states and walks off to our bedroom.

I look around at the wreckage and sigh. I head to the kitchen, grab a plastic bag and begin to pick up my things.

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An Hour later

Tori POV

Right before Jade came I put majority of her things in a pile in the living. I never knew I had that much anger inside me and I'm still not done being angry. She's lucky I didn't set her shit on fire.

I angrily glare at the lighter as I play with it still looking at the rest of Jade's stuff in the bathtub.

I always knew Jade could hold a grudge but this long? Really? Fuck! The rest of her clothes are begging to be blenched. I quickly get off the lid of the closed toilet turning the light off and slamming the door.

"Mama." Jori starts to cry. Damn it. She was still taking her nap. I throw the lighter on the bed going into her room seeing her laying down crying. She looks over at me when I walk in grabbing the side of the crib standing up. Her brown eyes looking into mine as she pouts a few stray tears slipping from her eyes.

"I'm sorry baby. I didn't mean to wake you." I pick her up and she lays her head on my shoulder grabbing some of my hair wrapping it around her fingers whimpering a little. I reach into her crib grabbing her pacifier putting it in her mouth.

If you're wondering where Liz is she's back in school. Her suspension is over. I'm glad she wasn't here to see this and I'm glad Jori slept through the whole thing.

Liz and Jori keep asking where Jade is and I tell them the truth. She's at a hotel. Liz asks why and I don't answer her. I'm not about to lie to her and I'm not about to tell her that Jade cheated on me and I kicked her out. I could have told her I kicked Jade out but she was going to turn into a game of 21 questions and I don't have time for that. Eventually the truth will come out during one of those answers and Liz will be heart broken.

I know she made Jade promise to never cheat on me and it's clear she broke that promise.

I suppress an angry groan as I head downstairs to the living room grabbing Jori's blanket and her spongebob toy laying her down turning the TV on going to Dora. She likes this big head ass girl now.

I Hate Dora. Just like Jade hates spongebob I hate Dora. She's annoying. There are so many things I hate about her and that dumb show it will take to long to explain my hate so I'm a leave it alone.

I quit glaring at the TV looking over at my body lying on the floor watching the TV holding her spongebob toy close. I finally smile a genuine smile, as I look at the mini me. She looks over at me and smiles waving at me and my smile gets bigger as I wave back. I sit on the couch picking Jori up and I lay down with her head on my chest.

After a while of watching big head Dora I noticed Jori fall back to sleep and its okay. I smile down at the sleeping baby kissing her head.

"I love you." I say against her brown hair kissing it again.

I look over at the fireplace seeing different family portraits. One where we're all wearing black and white I'm sitting down with Jori in my lap Jade is behind me and Liz is standing to my left with her hand hands are resting on my shoulders. We're all smiling but it was hard trying to get Jori to smile but we got it and she has the biggest smile on her face it's beautiful.

The other one is black and white with all of us laughing while I'm laying on top of Jade with Liz sitting on me and Jori is sitting in front of Jade's head messing with her hair. I don't remember what was so funny but whatever it was it had us still laughing after the picture was taken. Jori was just laughing cause we were laughing but its okay because the picture was perfect. We have a lot more family portraits, funny one, serious ones, crazy ones, etc.

I smile sadly at the pictures before I look away looking at the ceiling running my fingers through Jori's hair feeling tears run down the side of my face. Before I look back down at Jori.

Can we work it out? (Can we?)

Can we be a family? (Can we?)

I promise I'll be better (I promise)

Mommy I'll do anything (I'll do anything)

Can we work it out?

Can we be a family?

I promise I'll be better

Daddy please don't leave.

Starts to think about Jade as the song runs through my head.

In our family portrait.

We look pretty happy

Let's play pretend lets act like it come naturally.

I smile at the thought of playing pretend looking back at the family portraits.

In our family portrait

We look pretty happy

We look pretty normal

Let's go back to that.

In our family portrait.

We look pretty happy

Let's play pretend lets act like it come naturally.

I close my eyes and all the happy smiles in our family portrait are gone and I'm afraid there never coming back.

Review please. And FYI I really do hate Dora. But its funny cause I use to love her when I was little.