huh, another one! unfortunately had a busy weekend so I don't know when the next update will be ! :(
As it happens lately, edited by my beta icalyn! :)
"Say something, please." Anastasia said, tears running down her face.
"Is it mine?"
"Christian, it can be only yours."
Christian couldn't believe it; it was not possible.
"You were protected; you were on birth control." As Anastasia looked away, he asked again. "You were protected, weren't you?"
"I was not. But I took the morning after pill."
He couldn't control himself; she had broken everything he had built with his family the past two months. "How could you be so stupid? If I had known you weren't protected, none of this would have happened."
"Christian, the fact is that I am pregnant now, and you are the father. I am sorry."
"You are sorry? You really are? Or maybe it is just a part of some plan?"
"Please, Christian, believe me, I had no intention of getting pregnant. I tried hard to forget you but then I got to know I have a part of you growing inside of me, Christian, and I can't."
He didn't know what to do now. He wanted to take her in his arms and kiss her; he wanted to have her. He wanted to feel her just one more time. But he wanted to forget about her, he wanted to stop these unwanted feelings.
But he could not and must not. She is going to be the mother of his child. She is carrying his child. He was not ready. He didn't know what he would do, or how will he explain this to Elliot.
But in the moment he saw Anastasia sitting on the couch, sobbing as she wraps her arms around herself, she mattered.
"Stop crying," he commanded as he sat down besides her.
"I can't, Christian." Because she loves him.
"Please. We will figure everything out." He said and wrapped his arms around her, letting her cry into his sweater. He didn't know why was he doing it, he was not thinking. His heart had the control over him now. As his hands softly stroked her back, he knew he had to figure everything out.
He also realized that thinking about family was no longer an easy option. Elliot, Mia and his parents were his family, the people with whom he should be on one side. But Anastasia and the child were going to also be his family.
He started to really think what was about to happen – Elliot. They had managed to build a friendship again, be bros again. Forgetting about Anastasia. But there she was, and he couldn't let her go now. He didn't want to be a father; he didn't want to have a child. But he needed to do what was right.
How can he choose to whom he has to be right? What to do? He noticed his mom walked back in the house, and his arms were still wrapped around Anastasia, but she had fallen asleep.
"She is tired lately," Grace says as she walks in the living room and sits down on a chair next to the couch. "We need to talk, Christian."
He placed Ana on the couch and covered her with a blanket. Then he went outside with Grace because they really did need to talk.
"How long have you known?" Christian asked, looking at his mother.
"A month."
"Oh God," he sighed. "How could you not tell me? Don't you understand what this means?" Christian raised his voice at Grace, still not believing what was happening with his life.
"I couldn't. I was replacing her doctor, and got to know first. You know I can't tell anyone my patients' personal information."
"Why is she here?"
"Look at this place, Christian. She needs to relax and it was the least I could offer her."
"Oh God, mom." Christian sat down on the bench and held his head with his hands. "I don't know what to do."
"Christian, just tell me, do you love her?"
"I don't know." He couldn't believe it was the truth. He was really feeling something for a woman, and he didn't know what it was. If it was love, if it was attraction…but it was more than anything he had ever felt for anyone.
"Think about your brother." Grace said, and it made Christian think about how wrong it was that he and Anastasia now had a child together. They were about to have it and he didn't know how he was going to tell Elliot.
"But think about your child, too," Grace continued, and for the first time in his life, Christian Grey was in a situation where he really didn't know what to do or what was going to happen.