Day 23: Arguing
John kissed Sherlock passionately, letting all the feelings he had kept locked up pour out. Sherlock's eyes were wide with shock, but he soon closed them melting into the kiss. John opened his mouth slightly deepening the kiss, to which Sherlock responded eagerly too. They finally broke breathing heavily trying to catch their breaths.
Sherlock stepped back putting distance between the two. He closed his eyes and steepled his hands under his chin. "Sherlock?" John questioned shakily. "Shh i'm thinking." Sherlock replied quietly. Sherlock had to approach this very carefully, he did infact have 'feelings' for John, he would even dare to say he was in love with him but had never intended to act on them, John was obviously straight and the girls he liked weren't anything like Sherlock at all, they were always nice, and sweet, and cute, where as Sherlock was, well quite the opposite.
Sentiment was a defect, something he did not wish to acquire. Sentiment takes over your brain, it slows you down, it clouds your thoughts, it makes you weak. Even if Sherlock was too indulge in this, he didn't have the first clue what to do, he knew how relationships worked obviously, but they seemed so dull. He had also never been in one himself, he was clueless. "John," Sherlock spoke, barely above a whisper. "This, John this isn't going to work out."
John's face twisted in confusion, "What? Sherlock, I-I thought we were on the same page here?" he questioned looking a little hurt. "John I am truly sorry, but do you really want to be in a relationship with me?" Sherlock asked. "What do you mean? Of course I do why wouldn't I?" John replied confused. "For obvious reasons, I'm not the ideal partner, nothing like the girls you date." Sherlock said looking to the side. "You don't think I understand that you're different?" John said looking at Sherlock.
"You don't understand i've never had a way with people, and especially not romantically John, and I would dare to assume that you would want someone well to put it in your words whos not a machine." Sherlock spoke flatly. John winced at the memory, those were the last words John had said face to face to Sherlock before... the incident "Sherlock I didn't mean what I said back then you know that. bu-""The point still stands." Sherlock sharply interrupted.
"John I would wish to no longer discuss the subject, it wouldn't work, you would get too frustrated with me and leave. Now it would be logical if we were too put this behind us and continue on with our day, I'm pretty sure Lestrade has a new case." "So that's it then?" John asked growing angry. "You're not even going to try? Do I not matter at all to you? Don't you feel the same Sherlock? You have to or else you would have told me otherwise." Sherlock looked John in the eye for a moment, before turning around and walking into his room, closing the door loudly behind him.
A/N: Thank you for reading! Don't worry this is a two part thing, and is going to be connected to the next chapter! Also i'm reading this book about arguing ironically enough, and there's actually a big difference between a fight and an argument, in a fight its just yelling and theres no real tactic, but when arguing, you're trying to convince someone of a point, or get someone or an audience to agree with you, so thats what I based it off of I suppose? Thank you guys so much for following and reading this! It seriously means so much to me!