I wake with a start as the sun kissses my nose. I hiss in disgust as I realize what it is. How dare the sun think that it can touch me after all it had done to me.

Then I felt a chill extenguish the flame of sun.I smiled. Knowing exactly who it was.

"Jack," I whispered,patting the bed searching from him.

Nothing,

"Jack?" I asked,opening my eyes to look for him.

I found him sitting on the window seal.

"What's the matter?" I asked him,trying to detangle myself from the pile of blankets that I'd usued last night.

"Do you miss him?" Jack whispered as he peek out through the drapes.

I paused in my struggle. Only for a second,but he noticed.

"Miss who?" I asked,finally managing to peel of one layer.

"Don't play with me,Amy." He said,turning completely away. I yanked at the blankets,and watched in awe as they fell away.

I stood up and straightened up my sleeping boxers. I waddled over to Jack,trying to not touch the cold floor too much. I wrapped my arms around Jack.

"J,look at me." I said softly in his ears.I felt his shoulders relax then tense up. He grunted at having me so close to him." Jack,I didn't mean it that way. I just meant that you are the only guy in my life. His been gone for 3 years now. My life with him is over. Your my life now." I sobbed.I tried to wipe the tears away before he could see them. But my efforts were in vain.

"Amy," he sighed,pulling me toward him.

"I'm sorry. I do.I miss him. He was my husband. I loved him. But," I move just barely away from him." I love you now." I said,smiling at him. I pulled my hands away from his chest and put them on his face.

"Oh,yeah?Prove it?" He said smiling as he leaned against my hand. I smiled back at him,bring my face to his and letting our lips meet. The kiss started out sweet,innocent really,but then all my bottled up emotions transfered into passion. Every angry thought become one of love. I let every shed tear become a taste of my tongue in his aching moment of pain became a stroking of his body.

"Are you sure?" Jack asked as I removed his shirt from his troso.

"Am I ever?" I asked as I ripped off my own tank top.

Jack smiled in agreement. He ran his hands up and down the straps of my bra in a sort of teasing gesture.

I made a point of doing the same as I unzipped his pants.

Finally Jack gave in and undid my bra.

He whisperd a prayer.

I laughed,tugging at his boxers.

He joined in removing them for me then,proceeding to remove mine.

He raised an eyebrow at the absence of underwear but did dwell on it.

"Are you ready for this,J?" I asked him as I lead him to my bed.

"I've waited for most of my existance to be with someone as breathe taking as you." He said,making a point of looking into my eyes.

There was a blush painted on his cheeks,though I imagine that was because I was standing on my bed with my loveliness just level with his.

He wanted me. No suprise there.

We'd been together quite sometime,to have never slept together.

"Aww,that's cute Frost but you seem to be all talk to me." I say,swing my hips.

"You just wait,Amy." He warns bring me to him.

"I think I've waited long enough." I say,letting myself in.

"Aint that the truth," he breathes as he claims me.

As soon as we start I begin to realize,it was me who was all talk because now as Jack's hands squeeze me I don't see him,but Julian.

I feel Juian squeezing my breast in his lovely hands,I feel him rubbing my legs,I feel his hands in my hair...

Midnight black turns to Springs first snow.

Brown eyes to there blue.

Could it be?

Am I in love with a dead man?

Or is the simple fact that I'm sleeping with another man again,in the exact same spot that I had the last time,I'd seen my husband.

Is it only because of the day?

Is it?