"Where in hells name am I?" I asked doing a 360, in a futile attempt to locate myself.
"Why the fuck am I wearing this horrid dress?" I asked, pulling at the ugly old pink dress. I hadn't seen it in years, I'd burned the damn thing.
" Its not ugly. I actually liked that dress on you. Its a damn shame you burned it." Sarah said. My head snapped up at the sound of her voice. My mind instantly ran back to feeling her fall. Knowing something was wrong.
"Sarah! What the hell happened?" I asked grabbing her and pulling into a hug.
" I felt my shoulder grow cold from the tears that fell out of her eyes. I could feel her shoulders moving as she cried.
"Honey? Please! What's wrong?" I asked pulling her away just enough that I could see her face.
Her pale face and honey eyes were red from the sensation of tears and frustration. I could see the dark circles under her eyes. I had seen circles like that under her eyes since James had finally moved in with her. When her nightmares when away and she stopped hanging out with those people.
When she finally realized that despite loving her best friend she loved James more. She realized that what she needed to be happy was to get away from them.
And she did. Her and James moved to a different part of the country. Moved out to the great grassy planes of Texas. They got a quaint little house with land to through up into the air. I was excited for them, especially the first time Julian and I drove down there and saw how happy they were.
It was an amazing opportunity for he and I to spend quality time. Together especially with that new tidbit wed just gathered.
" What are we gonna do? How are we gonna tell them?" Julian asked as we pulled into the long drive to Sarah's new place.
"Well I'm gonna say, 'sarah, julian knocked me up!' Then James is gonna say 'what?!' And hell sock you in the nose." I say,straight faced. I watch as he's eyes fill with horro. I laugh, " Ju, Ju." I say grabbing his face in mind.
"Hon, look at me." I say,rubbing my thumbs along his cheek bones. I could feel the warmth rise in his cheeks and then his face relax into my hands.
I feel his big brown eyes shine when he looks into mine.
"I love you. And you love me don't you?" I ask, still holding him.
"I do. So much. And I love this baby too." He says, letting his hand fall to my stomach.
I smile, I lean forward to kiss him.
As soon as our lips touch a sensation of pure bliss rests on my lips.
"Hey!" Sarah says as she bangs lightly as the window on my side of the car.
"Get a room!" James laughs on Julians side.
"Don't give them any ideas!" Sarah shouts, with a smile.
I laugh and pull away from him.
I open my door and let Sarah collapse onto my lap.
She hugged me so tight I swear my spine nearly broke.
When she finally let go another bear hug was issued. James' hug wasn't nearly as life threatening as Sarah's yet still it was strong and warmed me.
When they finally let go of me, they both did this little thing where they stared down Julian, I could feel him shrinking down in his seat.
"Oh,your gonna scare him!" I laughed swatting at them both. They stopped.
"What?!" They said in unison.
"Your staring at him the same way my parents did when they first meet him. Hell maybe even more intensely!" I laugh and pull myself out of the car.
I wowed at how beautiful it was.
Then I took off straight for the matching rocking chairs.
"Oh my gorsh! Do you guys actually use these?!" I say,dropping into one.
James chuckles from where he stood with his arm around Sarah's waist.
"Yeah, a lot actually." Sarah rested her head on his shoulder and looking up lovingly at him.
"We'll probably be using it a lot more now then ever with the baby coming," sarah sighed as she and James put there hands on the tiny buldge in her stomach.
"Your going to have a baby?" I asked, my own stomach dropping.
I see the glow on there faces. I turned to look over at Julian. He knew what I was thinking.
We could possibly ruin there moment with our own news.
This was 3 months before our wedding.
I lost the baby 2 months later.
Sarah lost hers 2 weeks before that.
Sarah never even found out about our baby.
We were both terribly depressed the week before my wedding.
But luck for us we were both fortunate enough to be with wonderful mean and have wonderful friends.
Without Arri's help neither of us would even be alive.
"Oh Sarah, What's happening to us." I sigh bringing her closer to me.
"Amy, I love him. I love James. But I've failed him." She said into my shoulder.
"No, you didn't. All he ever wanted was for you to love him. And that is what you've done." I said patting her shoulder as she weeped into me.
We sank to the floor and we stayed in the same position as before until we finally feel asleep.
"She's waking up..." I heard my Julian say.
I smiled.
I let my eyes open and there he was.
It took me only seconds to realize Sarah wasn't on my shoulder.
"Where is she? Where is Sarah?" I asked scrambling to get out of bed.
My hospital bed?
I saw something flash in Julians eyes.
Then James spoke up from where hed been leaning against the wall.
"She's died,Amy."