Hey everyone, I've been a little preoccupied lately but here I am again. It's been a week or two and the I wanna thank the people who've reviewed already and I just wanted to tell you to read the stories One death, TRUST & Kiss me, Chasing tomorrow and Once in a Life Time. Those are my favorite stories and the authors are amazing writers. So I just wanted to say that and here is another chapter. I'm doing it all in Loren's POV today.

Chapter 3

„I've made my mistakes,

got nowhere to run.

The night goes on as I'm fading away."

*Three weeks later* Loren and Eddie have grown closer.

Loren's POV

I don't exactly know how to feel. I'm angry, hurt, confused. I don't know what to do. I miss my dad. I do. But sometimes I just wanna strangle myself for missing him. I hate him too. But I love him as much. I don't know what to do anymore. I just wanna scream. Why did he leave me? Because I wasn't pretty enough? Because I wasn't good enough? It fucking hurts not to know why. I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't feel like talking to Mel about this, she tries to cheer me up, I don't need cheering up I just need advice. Normally I go to my mom for advice, but not about this. About this I can't. And it sucks. Adam and I are friends, but he's more of Mel's best friend than mine. I didn't want to bother my newfound friend Eddie. However he is an amazing friend, he has a rather poor sense of style. I should hand him over to Mel for an afternoon , just to get rid of those hoodies and sunglasses. And don't forget the baseballcaps. I just to sort my feelings out and I knew the right place to do that. Griffith Park.

As I hiked up the hill with my guitar in one hand and songbook in the other I saw the tree. I pulled of my jacked and laid it down in the dirt and sat on it. I grabbed my Phone out of my jacket and checked my text messages

Bold: Nora

Italic: Loren

Loren, where are you? It's already dark out. And you didn't tell me where you went.

Hi, mom. I'm just at my spot. I'm fine, I'll be home at eleven. Love you.

Please be safe, I love you too.

I put my Phone away and grabbed my guitar. I began playing some different rythms , melodies and chords and the lyrics started floating in my head.

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me?
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?

I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?

I heard someone approach me and as I turned around I saw a hoodie, baseballcap and sunglasses and I knew exactly who it was. "Eddie?" "Hey Lo." I saw him smile, although it was dark. I patted the ground besides me and signaled him to sit down. „What are you up to?" I asked him. „Nothing, I just needed to relax so I came up here." His soft voice, damn. His voice is so sexy. No, I can't think like that. I don't even know what he looks like, maybe it's an old creep with a sexy voice. I mean, I've never seen him without sunglasses and a hoodie. No offense Eddie. I thought. No old man's name is Eddie. I don't particularly like the name Eddie. My idol's name is Eddie too. Eddie Duran. The sexiest man on earth. Okay my thoughts are drifting away. I was thinking about Eddie. It is a possibility that he's an old creep, but this old creep is my friend. "Loren?" I snapped out of my thoughts. "What? Sorry?" "You zoned out." He chuckled. "I'm sorry." I blushed and I hoped he didn't see it. All I knew is that it would be better if I didn't develope more than a friendship with him. No, it wouldn't be better. Let me put that in another way. I need to stay friends with him, nothing else, nothing more. Otherwise he's going to hurt me. I'm drowning in my thoughts. Deeper and deeper. No one can save me. I can only save myself. I don't know how. I'm drowning and I forgot how to swim. I'm running out of breath. I feel someone pull me close. Eddie. He saved me from drowning. I realized I started crying without even realizing it. He held me. Embraced me. I burried my tearstained face in his neck. It felt good. Amazingly good. He was, no, is my savior. I need him, and it scares me. How much I need him when I've only known him for three weeks. I can't let myself fall in love with him. I can't stay away. I need to stop myself. Right now. But I can't. I simply can't. I pulled back and. We looked at eachother for a minute. No words were needed. I slowly started to lean in. So did he. When I realized what I was doing I tried to pull away but he was like a magnet to me, I couldn't. When he realized what he was doing he pulled away. I had to admit it hurt. I'm already to far in and I don't know if there's a way out. I have to stay away from him. I need to stay away from him. Easier said than done. An awkward silence between us. I didn't know what to do. I grabbed my guitar and songbook and muttered "I need to go." As I almost ran down the hill. Tears were falling down my face. I got in the car quickly and drove home. I walked into the house and said a simple „Hi mom." As I walked to my room. Too scared to face her. Too scared that she will find out I've been crying. I laid down on my bed, and pulled the covers over my head. I started sobbing quietly as I slowly fell in a long sleep.

I hope it was okay. The songs name is Untitled by Simple Plan.