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I see the paparazzi taking photos of us and some heading our way, but Cinna answers all the questions, they ask for our names but he just says the girl on fire and the boy with the blue eyes.
It's been three days since the ball and I've been on the cover of the newspaper, websites, posters, even on magazines. They all say the same thing. "Who is the girl on fire?" and it has a huge picture of me and there even going to have another ball hoping to find out who she is. Cinnas excited about this, or so I'm guessing. He's going to be creating a new dress for me and he actually asked both Peeta and I if we wanted to be his main models, since many people 'loved' us. After some discussions about money, identity, and work Peeta and I finally agreed. I just hope I did the right thing.
I've actually been keeping my distance from Peeta. Since the Night Lock party I haven't been feeling the same…I'm terrified, I don't want to get hurt and I don't want to be in an abusive relationship again. I don't want to be that Katniss anymore. I've been hurt enough and Johanna would surely kick my ass, especially since she doesn't know much about Cato and his abuse. She knew that he was very jealous; I mean the guy once thought I was going to cheat on him with her. I mean she's pretty and all but I just don't do girls, I'm not trying to say that I'm against being gay and all, because I'm not. One of my friends is actually bi and I'm ok with that. It's her life not mine.
Anyways back on topic I've barely talked to Peeta at all, but the further he is away from me the better it will be not just for me, but for him too. I certainly don't want to hurt him, and I know that if he gets too close he eventually will be, and it's all going to be my fault.
Annie and Finn actually got in a fight too. He left her to get some drinks at the ball and he didn't show up until, about half an hour later. Annie had actually went to go look for him and turns out he was making out with some blond girl that had almost the exact same dress as me. It had to be Glimmer; out of everyone in that ball it was Glimmer.
I sigh and get out of the shower. I hear Annie downstairs talking to someone and I recognize who she's talking to Finnick and then I hear another man voice…Peeta. I groan and walk quickly into my room and change, not really caring what I'm going to wear since it is 11:00 at night and since its Wednesday only two or three people had to go work. So Annie and I where the lucky ones leaving Madge, Johanna, and Thresh to work till one.
"You two need to make up." Peeta says with a sigh.
"Well why do you even care Annie! We're not even going out!" Finnick yells. That's when I come in. who the hell does he think he is to scream at my friend like that!
"Who the hell do you think you are?!" I yell from across the living room.
I turn to look at Annie and see she's crying silently and she's starting to stare out in space. Oh gosh. She's going to have an attack. Annie starts staring out in space and then starts whispering things and covers her ears and closes her eyes tightly.
This all started when she saw her brother die, it was too much for poor Annie. She cared so much about what was going to happen especially since she had those attacks when something made her remember about her brother and the fire that had started in her house.
"Annie." I say and make her look at me.
"Annie, sweetie. Look at me. I'm right here. Look at me Annie; nothing's going to happen to you." I say and she nods her head. That means she knows and that she's fighting to try and forget.
"Get out." I say to Peeta and Finnick. They both just look at Annie and I and they look slightly panicked and concerned but the last thing I need I for both of them to see Annie go off and hopefully Johanna arrives before I start zoning out too.
"Did you take your pill Annie?" I say to her in a whisper so Finnick or Peeta won't hear. I get no answer; she just stares ahead and closes her eyes tightly. This isn't good.
"Get out! Peeta. Finnick. LEAVE!" I say and they both leave and close the door.
"Annie it's not true. Listen to me; I'm right here with you…nothing is going to happen. Not true Annie. Open your eyes please." I tell her and I stand up and run to her room and find her pills. I quickly take two out and grab a water bottle that's inside her room and go back to her.
"No! Get out! Leave me!" she screams and I feel a tear slip down from my eye.
"Stop! Don't do it! You're going to get yourself killed!" she yells once again.
I feel myself starting to remember about my own problems and I feel like I'm zoning out. I start to remember about my dad and how I was just reaching his job and Darius, a firefighter and a very close Friend stopped me and tackled me onto the ground because I wanted to help him. Annie needs me right now.
"Annie slow, deep, complete breaths. You're having a panic attack; all you're seeing is not real. Slow, deep, complete breaths." I say and she starts taking deep breaths.
"I'm only having a panic attack." She repeats over and over again.
Once she's calm she starts crying and the only thing I can do is hold her. I start remembering about my own problems once again but I shake it off. Not right now Katniss. You have to be strong. I keep reminding myself.
"I'm sorry Kat." She whispers and I shake my head.
"It's not your fault Annie." I say and she nods.
"I-I just…I didn't know what else to say and I felt like I was trapped." She says and starts crying all over again.
"It's ok." I repeat over and over again.
"It's just…why would he do that to me if he's the one that asked me to go with him to the ball." She says and I feel my heart ache for Annie.
"I don't know Annie…I just don't know." I say and we both stare silently at the wall, trying to forget completely about the world around us. I hear the door open and Johanna gasps.
"What happened?" Jo says and takes a seat next to us.
"It was Annie…she had an attack." I say and she nods in understanding. I explain what happened to her since Annie's already asleep on the floor.
"I'm going to kick his ass!" she says and all I can do is nod.
"I'm sleeping here with her. I haven't been sleeping good lately and I-"I'm cut off by Johanna.
"I understand. I'm sleeping with you too brainless." She says and smiles.
We both get up and move the coffee table so that we can all three sleep on the floor. I walk over to my room and grab a large blanket and two pillows. Johanna goes into her room and changes. I lay the large blanket on the living room floor so that we can sleep on it. I get Annie to lie on top of the blanket and hand her a pillow. I lay down too and Johanna turns off the lights, leaving the radio and living room lamp on. I hear her lay down and I sigh.
"Just like old times." She says
"Just like old times." I say and I reach for her hand and grab Annie's hand too since I'm in the middle.
Flashback:
Johanna, Annie, and I are having a sleep over when Annie gets a panic attack for the first time.
"I don't know what to do!" Annie yells. She has her eyes closed tightly and has her hands over her ears.
"Annie, please calm down. You're here with us." We both say trying to get her to calm down. She starts repeating "It's not real" and she starts to calm down. Johanna runs up to her room and grabs some blankets and some pillows for us. She lays them on the ground and get lie on top of them. I stand up because she forgot to turn off the lights.
"Can you leave on the lamp, Kat? I'm still scared of the dark." Annie says and I smile and do as I'm told.
"Of course Annie." I say and lay back down.
"We're going to be best friends forever." Annie says and I smile knowing she's right.
"Good night brainless. Night crazy." Johanna says and Annie chuckles.
"Night Jo." We both say and I close my eyes letting the darkness over take me.
I'm sorry to those who don't like that Finn was the 'bad' guy but I had to have something trigger her panic attack. They'll get back together though! I promise, and I know some of you are wondering why aren't Katniss and Peeta dating yet? Well there's only one answer: Katniss takes her time, you should know if you read all three books.
Oh, and sorry for saying I was going to update by Monday but my weeks been stressful and weird. I've been having so many problems and I'm just glad I'm getting out of school on Tuesday. Today's actually my award ceremony but I wasn't going to go. What's the point of buying a dress and having to sit down for an hour and never wear the dress again? I see no point in that. I'm actually getting out of eighth grade and going to high school. I'm kind of worried I'm going to get lost or something but hey, it was going to happen eventually. Anyways enough of my life problems. I hope you liked the chapter. I wanted to add something about how they grew to love each other and stuff so there it is. Follow, favorite, review!
-ItsAllInYourHeadMyDear