So, I'm really sorry, but for a few days updates will slow. I recently got a book- twilight from Edward's POV… it's called midnight sun, and I'll be obsessively reading that. Talking about Edward's POV, I have a better grasp of him, so… I decided to start with His POV.

I'm very sorry about the shorter chapter, but I honestly don't know where to go from this. Any ideas or suggestions would be VERY appreciated. I could be what you hope to see, what you predict, or what you think should happen at some point. Or all three.

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EDWARD POV

I couldn't focus on hunting. Rose and Emmit had come along with me… and yet. I couldn't stop thinking about Bella. Was she safe? Was she alright? Had her talent for almost getting killed proved itself once again? And being seperated too.

Being seperated thrust me back into the long days I'd spent without her- either tracking Victoria or doing other things.

No, I had to focus. To hunt so I could go back faster.

It was impossible. I ended up calling Alice- just to make sure.

"Hello?" She sounded irritated, likely knowing what was coming. Her next words proved this. "Bella is fine, I will call you if anything goes wrong, and I don't see anything wrong going on tonight. You can hunt. Bye Edward." She hung up. I sighed and turned my fractured attention to the bear I was trying to hurt. Note: trying. Not succeeding very well. Rosalie's thoughts didn't help. 'God Edward, I can't believe you can care so much for a HUMAN. You're such an idiot. We should've stayed away. She's not worth this. Any of it.' I let a fierce snarl rip from my throat, racing through the trees to my own hunting area.

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JASPER POV

I carefully opened the door, trying not to startle Bella. I cleared my throat softly once I was inside. Bella looked at me, surprise drifting about her. Surprise and pain. I started awkwardly- I had never truly spoken with her… and it was hard to speak normally when the last time I saw her this close, I'd savagely been trying to kill her. "I… think I owe you an apology… I lost control, and it not only put you in danger, it cause Edward to leave." She smiled softly, surprise fading, being replaced with sympathy.

"It's okay, Jasper. I don't blame you. No harm done, right? Edward is back… and I'm not dead." I could feel the reluctance, the guilt drifting with the last part of what she said. Was Bella… no… was Bella… suicidal? I flashed a quick look at Alice as her phone began ringing.

"I'll get this." She said, and she left the room. Leaving me with Bella. She had to have known about this. Planned it maybe even.

I motioned to the spot beside her. "Do you, erm, mind if I sit down and talk with you?" I asked. She nodded consent, and I sat beside her. "While important, apologizing was not my only motive for coming here, Bella. I… can feel everything you do now." She swallowed, but said nothing, so I continued. "I spoke with Carlisle… he believes I should create the emotion of being healed or anything… However, I also think that a reprieve is due… owed. However, if you don't want me to… I will not."

She seemed to consider it for a moment. "I do feel bad, knowing you are feeling this. Personally, I'm fine without your… abilities, but you're feeling what I am…" I could see the indecision in her eyes.

"Bella, I can block out your emotions. If you don't want me to calm you, I will not. Do not force something you don't want upon yourself just for the sake of me."

She bit her lip. "No, then. I'm alright."

I smiled slightly, "of course… I shall not keep you any longer." I walked towards the door, but as I turned to leave, I felt compelled to add, "I have much respect for you Bella. Living though this is not easy."

Let her make of that what she wills.