Behind Closed Doors

by Billiebee3

Bellamy would do anything to protect his sister from discovery on the Ark, but what will happen when he needs Clarke Griffin to save her? Clarke finds out about the girl under the floor and Bellamy and Clarke must learn to trust each other. AU where the Ark didn't have system failure, Clarke's dad is alive, Clarke is a doctor on Alpha station, and O hasn't been discovered...yet

6. Chapter 6

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p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.119999885559082px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; caret-color: #2a2a2a; color: #2a2a2a;"My dad's at his desk going over blueprints when I come back through the decommissioned bathroom to his office. He looks up as I walk over to his, putting a grateful hand on his shoulder. "Thank you, Daddy." I manage, probably sounding closer to being a little girl to him at my deep relief and nervousness than I have in years./p
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p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.119999885559082px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; caret-color: #2a2a2a; color: #2a2a2a;"I roll my eyes at her. Seriously? She's just going to pretend like things are fine? /p
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p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.119999885559082px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; caret-color: #2a2a2a; color: #2a2a2a;"Mom rises from her seat facing away from me on the couch and walks around to us, clearly ready to argue. "You know that I had to act according to our bylaws there." She turns to Bellamy, but doesn't really look at him fully "I'm sorry for your loss." /p
p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.119999885559082px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; caret-color: #2a2a2a; color: #2a2a2a;"Bellamy's hand tenses in mine and I can't contain a scoff, shaking my head at her. "Whatever you want to tell yourself, but we both know this is on you. Just because he's from factory-"/p
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p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.119999885559082px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; caret-color: #2a2a2a; color: #2a2a2a;""This is so fucked up." Bellamy mutters against my lips, barely bothering to stop biting at my lip to say it at all before picking me up by my ass. My legs wrap around his hips automatically, letting me feel just how much he didn't really mind it. /p
p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.119999885559082px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; caret-color: #2a2a2a; color: #2a2a2a;""You don't mind." I smirk, calling his bluff and pulling off my shirt for the second time in as many hours as he backs me up to sit at my desk. /p
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p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.119999885559082px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; caret-color: #2a2a2a; color: #2a2a2a;"Bellamy's chuckle at it reverberates into my breast in his mouth. /p
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p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.119999885559082px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; caret-color: #2a2a2a; color: #2a2a2a;"His eyes are practically black as he takes me in, naked on the desk and splayed out for him. For a moment I think he's going to simply drive straight into me and I welcome it, despite seeing how huge he is compared to anyone else I've ever seen before. /p
p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.119999885559082px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; caret-color: #2a2a2a; color: #2a2a2a;"I'm sure he is and brace I myself for it a bit, absolutely sure that it would hurt...and that it would be delicious. I'm welcoming it all, pain included, when he surprises me by dropping to his knees in front of me. Instead of driving his member inside, it's his tongue his plunges into my core. I can't help the small scream I let out in both surprise and deep pleasure at the warm, wet pressure. His fingers move up to pinch and roll and play with my nipples again as his tongue fucks me as deep as he can manage. /p
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p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.119999885559082px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; caret-color: #2a2a2a; color: #2a2a2a;"It isn't my first orgasm, of course. Wells, good friend that he is, managed a weak one before on pure determination and persistence. I'd also been perfectly capable of taking care of myself for a while now. Still, none of that was anywhere close to this./p
p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.119999885559082px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; caret-color: #2a2a2a; color: #2a2a2a;"His tongue slips out then, working the folds and clit instead, one hand coming to join in and a thick finger replacing his tongue where I need it most, slowly at first, but then quickly building up speed and power and then adding a second finger until I feel like a puddle on the desk. /p
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