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Shawn was out riding one of his prize horses when he heard his phone in his pocket. He stopped to answer it. Looking he saw Hunter's number.
"Hey Hun…oh just out riding…yes I'm taking it easy…he's doing ok…well Scott was a jackass to do that to him…well come on Scott fell off how many times yet Kevin stayed by his side & now this happened?…yeah…Yeah I know…good new? You actually coming home for a few days?" Shawn sounded chipper then sighed frowning. "Oh…well then what is the good news?…Really?…Yeah that is good news, John too?…Oh damn…Well you know I'll continue to pray for him Hun…any clue when you may be home again?…Yes I know the job Hunt, but I miss you…you know it is not the same thing…Even with Kevin here it still gets lonely…Yeah I understand Hun, I'll talk to you later." Shawn hung up the phone with a sigh putting it away. "Come on girl back home." Shawn snapped the reins to get the horse moving as he headed back for the stables losing the desire to ride right now.

He got back to the stables & put the horse away brushing her down & made sure she had enough feed & water before making his way back to the house. He walked in & headed right for the kitchen. Reaching the refrigerator he opened it pulling out a beer. He popped it open tipping it back as he leaned on the island.
"Hey what's wrong?" Kevin asked him. Shawn turned his head looking at him. Kevin was leaning in the door way in a pair of blue jeans.
"Nothing."
"Bull shit…"
"What I can't drink a beer in my own house?"

"Of course you can, but I know when you go riding I am lucky to see you before sunset unless I went out with you." He watched as Shawn drained more of the bottle. "Come on Heartbreaker talk to me."
Shawn looked down with a sigh. "Heartbreaker, yeah right…I'm not in the ring anymore."
"You were out of the ring too."
"Were…was…past tense…"
"You still are."
"Yeah right…" He finished the bottle tossing it in the bin. He headed for the frig again.

"Shawn pl-please don't grab another bottle." Shawn froze with his hand on the door. "Talk to me…"
"I'm not Scott." Shawn unknowingly snapped at him.
A dark look crossed Kevin's face. "I never said you were!"
Shawn shook his head stepping away. "Sorry man…please."
"OK…just tell me what is wrong."
"I just feel Hunter keeps pushing me farther & farther away." He leaned with his back against the island again. "I am getting sick of hearing the excuses…yes I know he has work, yes I know he has to keep making Vince believe he is happily married to Stephanie…but I am sick of it! WHAT ABOUT ME?!"

Kevin walked over to Shawn placing a hand on each shoulder looking down at him. "I know it's tough Shawn…remember I been there." Shawn looked up at Kevin looking so defeated with tears wetting his eyes.
"Scott was an asshole…but he didn't string you along."
"Shawn I don't think Hunter is stringing you along. He loves you…come on he turned into a much better man because of you."
"Maybe…but he is pushing me away now…even if he won't say it…he doesn't want me…He doesn't want to leave me…but he doesn't want me either…there is to much risk…jeopardy to his health, his job…his kids…" Shawn lowered his head. "You know Steph hasn't let me see the girls since my retirement? Ever since her & Vince found out I was sick. She would come here with them before…We would hold him on the horses…hearing those girls giggle…"

"Shawn…I am so sorry…."
"Not your fault…" He went to walk away but Kevin stopped his movement. Shawn turned his head back up towards Kevin. Before either man fully realized what they were doing Kevin had leaned down brushing his lips to Shawn's, the kiss lingered between them as the larger man took one hand resting it again Shawn's cheek. His thumb lightly brushing away the tears that began to fall. Kevin pulled back & both men looked away as Kevin removed his hand from Shawn's cheek & stepped back. "Man…Sh-Shawn I'm sorry…I wasn't thinking."

Shawn shook his head. "I wasn't exactly pushing you away…it just as much my fault."
"You don't know how many times I wish I treated you better."
Shawn turned his head back looking at him. "What?"
"I said I wish I treated you better off-screen."
"You treated me fine Kev…"
"Yeah when I wasn't with Scott behind your back…If it had stayed just us…"
"Yeah maybe…what ifs or could have been doesn't matter now does it?"
"Do…you…do you ever miss us? You know…like that?"

Shawn looked down rubbing the back of his neck. "Kevin…you know you are leading us both down a dangerous path with these questions."
"I'm sorry." Kevin turned heading back for the doorway.
"But to answer you…of course I do."
Kevin stopped in the doorway. "But I wasn't good enough to keep you though…"
"You were…but you wanted Scott more…I was…replaceable."
"No one could ever replace you Heartbreaker…may of tried…but never could. When I realized how foolish I was…Hunter had already snatched you up."

"Yeah…"
"Well….Yeah…" Kevin heaved a sigh before leaving the room. Shawn decided to busy himself be seeing what he could make for dinner that night.