Some feel goods and hope. I love writing this chapter. I think this may be the sweetest thing I've ever wrote. How would Daryl feel seeing Sully love on Angel. We might find out -_- lol!

I felt like this was needed. But what's going to happen after this? Don't question it too hard. Anyway I let you to it. Leave a review and if you think something off just left me know. I'm up for criticism. Enjoy!

Chapter 4:Where I go I just don't know

Today love smiled on me,
It took away my pain, say please
I'll let your ride be free,
You gotta let it be,

Oh so polite indeed,
Well I got everything I need.
I'll make my days a breeze,
And take away my self-destruction.

Angel slept restlessly for a while. She was having one of her infamous nightmares again. She thought they were gone. She should've known better by now. On occasion they would quit but they came back; when they did it seemed to be worst then anything she could imagine.

This time she was calling out for Jewel. The little girl had run off being spooked by Angel as she approached. Angel could hear the screaming and sobbing from the distance. She was in the woods accept these were darker than any should be; no sunlight and void of any life. The smell of death and rot hung in the air.

She ran towards the screams just in time to see something she really didn't need to. She knew she was dreaming but she couldn't make herself wake up. She tried to hard as a group of walkers ripped the little girl into pieces. She really didn't need to see that.

Carol approached the black Camaro with a bit of hesitation. Heart broke had been tearing at her upon hearing Daryl stayed behind with his brother. It was a tough pill to swallow since the man looked out for everyone he could. Carol knew too well Angel was coping with it in her own way. Getting drunk until she passed out. Carol stared through the window trying to block out the loud music that still played. The woman had no idea how Angel could sleep with it playing.

Angel was leaned back against the seat with her feet kicked up on the dash. Her good hand still clenched the empty bottle as her chest rose and fell softly. She had a glare on her face and Carol hesitated before lightly knocking her knuckles on the glass. The knock didn't faze the comatosed woman. So she opened the door and placed her hand on Angel's shoulder.

Angel kicked one of her feet up before slamming it back down on one of the many gauges on the dash, smashing the glass covering it. In a second she had her pistol pressed against Carol's head. Carol didn't move, scared senseless if she did the woman would shoot her. Angel paused and stared at the woman through blood-shot eyes. "Don't sneak up on me when I'm sleeping," she said with a frown before sleeving the pistol. She replaced it with a small smile before turning the radio down.

She turned it off not only to be able to speak to the woman but the fact the song made her mad and she didn't want to hear it. Carol smiled back and took her hand away. "Angel we need you inside," she started taking a step away from the car. "Mutt won't let anyone near the baby." Angel gave a small laugh and took her foot off the dash and a few shards of broken glass fell into the floorboard.

"Alright." She muffled a few coughs with her hand before throwing her legs out the side and standing with a yawn. She slammed the door shut behind her. She hoped the battery wouldn't be dead in her car.

Upon entering the cellblock with Carol, loud growls and yelling met their ears. Angel quickly flew up the flight of stairs to the source seeing Mutt standing by the make shift baby cradle Judith laid in. The wolf growled viciously at anyone who came near. He was trying to protect her. Rick glared at the dog probably thinking about shooting it and Mutt returned the gesture showing teeth.

Angel stomped past Mutt and grabbed up Judith as the bit her leg. She ignored when teeth pierced her skin. He was trying whatever he could to stop her from toughing the child. She turned swinging the dog away by kicking her leg out. He gave a loud howl and whined as Angel handed the baby over to Rick. He quickly took the child and started feeding her.

Angel stooped down beside Mutt and petted him trying to get his attention. "Hey," she said softly pushing on his side. He looked at her tilting his head. The others watched the small actions between the two as Rick fed his baby. "I know you're just trying to protect her but she's gotta eat and I don't think you can feed her." Mutt looked back at the baby whining again.

"Fuck it," Angel mumbled standing back up quickly. She sighed and starred at the ground as she dwindled away in her thoughts. She looked from the ground to Rick. "Umm . . . Rick when you get the chance we need to talk." He gave a quick nod to her before turning his attention back to Judith.

Angel retreated back outside then locking the gate behind her. What she didn't know is Carol followed her. Angel walked slowly over to the fence and sat down on the cement starring at her car. She sighed taking her hunting knife out and starred at the ground. Carol took a seat by her finally after a lot of thought. "What's on your mind?" she asked softly.

Angel didn't look up at first or respond to the question as she drifted in her head. She starred down at the knife she turned over in her fingers. She sighed. "More then you want to know." She answered honestly.

"Daryl?" She cocked an eyebrow at Angel.

"Part of it." She gave a weak smile looking at the woman.

"You can't be mad at him he's done all he can for us . . . he had to go with his brother."

"I understand that completely . . . he just promised he would never let anything happen to Jewel or me. I mean I didn't need him watching out for me but she did . . . He's abandoned me now to mind the fact I deserved it the way I've been acting." She gave a depressed sigh. "I've made a lot of promises in my life . . . the only ones I ever broke were to myself. I hate liars. He should've never promised"

"He tried the best he could though . . . if it weren't for him I'd be dead too."

"Huh." She shrugged standing up and sleeved her knife. "Well I got to try now . . . if Jewel is still alive I'm going to find her. I thought I saw her at Woodberry last night. I'm leaving tomorrow and going back to get her."

"You can't go there by yourself. You're lucky to have found us again in the first place."

"Yea I'm the one to push my luck . . . Rick and all of you have enough problems as it is. No need to have you chasing ghosts." She smiled at Carol holding her hand out to pick her up. She took her hand and stood. "Well I'll be off to hunt me down some meat. I'm actually hungry for once."

"Hurry back," Carol said softly with a weak smile. I'd say be careful but I know you'll be ok." She offered Angel one more confidant smile before turning and going back inside. The door slammed shut behind her. Angel starred for a few moments. She dug in her pocket pulling out the set of keys Rick loaned her yesterday. She never had the chance to return them.

She walked down to her car after closing the gate behind her. She studied the weapons and her belongings before she took off the shotgun and dual machetes off replacing them with her hunting rifle.

As the summer evening cooled and the sweat settled on her forehead she pulled the gun tighter against her shoulder starring down the scope. The eight-point buck stood tall wagging his tail occasionally. The creature was so magnificent she almost didn't want to kill it. That summer sausage is some good damn eating though.

She took a deep breath catching the smell of honey suckle and swamp flower; it was such a sweet pleasant smell. Birds chirped around her in harmony making the moment that much sweeter. She slowly eased her finger down on the trigger . . . boom. The bullet hit it's forehead splashing out a large spray of blood. He fell on the spot dieing imeadiantly.

Angel raised the gun up high silently cheering herself. "And the crowd goes wild. She's taking home the gold," she mused before jumping down off the tree limp to the ground. She strapped the rifle on her back and brought her knife out twirling it around in her hand with style as she approached the animal.

She stooped down beside it and began cutting it open and removing all the bad parts you didn't need to eat. It also decreased the weight of the carcass. Her forearms were covered in blood by the time she was satisfied. A twig snapped behind her and she turned just in time to the back of a pistol before it slammed into her head.

She moaned as she fell beside the deer in pain. Her vision swum in blurs and distortion as her ears heard muffled talking. "Uncle Sully!" The young girl standing over Angel called out back the way she came. "I got the bitch!"

A short man ran out. Despite his height he didn't sway on the rest of his looks. His short brown hair covered in blonder highlights glowed in the remaining sunlight. Sweat on his chiseled chest shimmered especially on the many tattoos he had. His tan skinned contrasting the blonde in his hair awfully. A dark brown goatee lay flat against his chin and his hazel eyes brightened as he looked at the girl.

He gave a small spout of laughter walking up to her. "Don't let Sammy know I let you hold the gun . . . and please don't tell him I taught you that word," he said humorously. Angel turned over flat on her back, grabbing her head.

"What the fuck," she moaned closing her eyes. Sully took Jewel's hand and pulled her back away from Angel. "That one wasn't dead," he said lightly frowning. His words cut short as he started recognizing some of Angel's features and her voice. "Angel Hellfire?" he questioned mouth agape.

Angel didn't move for a minute. She neither heard nor saw anything. That girl hit her pretty damn hard and knocked her for one. She kept her eyes closed until they regained focus. She turned looking at the group. Her mouth dropped in shock as she recognized the young girl. "Jewel," she said not noticing the man holding her hand.

"Angel," the girl smiled her eyes tearing over. Angel pushed herself off the ground as quickly as she had fallen. Jewel ran into Angel's arm and they embraced each other. They both were crying happily. "I thought you died," Jewel cried hugging her tighter.

"I'm here now and everything's ok!" She pushed Jewel back a bit noticing the butterfly necklace she had given her so long ago still dangled from her neck. She quickly wiped her tears. Sully cleared his throat making his presence known. Angel starred at him hard slowly recognizing him. "Sully fucking Farewell! It's been twelve god damn years!"

She jumped up and laced her arms around his neck which was easy considering he was maybe two inches taller then her.

He pulled her tighter to him. "Angel I thought you offed yourself after Jade died. I'm so fucking happy you're ok!" He picked her up and cradled her in his arms and she squealed smiling from ear to ear. He planted small kisses in her head beside her ear and she laughed.

"Uncle Sully," Jewel said softly smiling at their behavior. She'd never seen Angel or Sully act so happy the whole time she'd known them. "Why didn't you tell me you knew Angel?" He gently set Angel on her feet and turned the girl frowning a little.

"I didn't know it was the same Angel." He shrugged. "I'm sorry." Jewel stuck her lip out in a pout crossing her arms sending Sully a glare.

"She can come back with us can't she?" He nodded a yes quickly before pulling some rope off his side.

"You kill that deer?" he asked smiling at Angel. She nodded and snatched the rope out his hand and went to it. She quickly tied the rope around its legs. "You've grown some since I've seen you." He leaned down a bit cocking his head looking at her butt making it a point that he was. Jewel popped him on the chest and he stood straight, snickering.

Angel turned blushing a bit. "You haven't I see." She was making a short joke like old times. He smiled brightly then.

"Oh I have. You just can't see where." She blushed again and flipped her middle finger at him before grabbing the rope to pick the deer up. He quickly took the rope from her and picked the carcass up. "Love to make those cute cheeks turn red some more but we gotta go before those bastard's catch on to where we are at." He turned leading the way holding at his hand for a moment waiting for Jewel to grab his hand.

She'd lagged behind though and caught Angel's and practically skipped along. Sully turned his head and stuck his hand in his pocket a little disappointed. He shrugged it off quickly and pulled the carcass tighter. "Where are we going anyway?" she questioned.

"Weird native American chick lives in the fucking trees. Got a tree house no body can see it. Nice little spot." Angel cocked her eyebrow.

"It's bitchen," Jewel explained.

"Jewel!" Angel exclaimed looking down at her with a slight smile.

"Sully taught me that word." She grinned from ear to ear up at her. Angel shook her head.

"You weren't suppose to tell anyone I taught you it," Sully said snickering. "Angel's going to kill me for that you know."

"Damn right I am . . . Jewel if you're going to use those words not in front of me ok." She nodded and smiled at the ground.

"Or Samuel!" Sully added coming to a stop. "We're here."

"Where's it at?" Sully turned and smiled and walked over to a tree. He pulled a cord that was camouflaged and a ladder fell. "Be careful it's a long way up." He then started climbing it quickly still hanging onto the deer.

Moments later Angel followed as Jewel started to climb up. When Angel got a little higher she noticed a blind had been pulled around several trees that you couldn't see from the ground. Angel hadn't realized she stopped until Jewel yelled at her. She quickly continued upwards and gasped at the structure built around the trees.

There were four tree houses built into four huge cypress trees with cute little porches built on. A walkway connected them and crossed in the middle. Purple wisteria grew on everything. It was breath taking. Angel stepped onto one of the walkways taking it all in. Sully gently pushed her out of the way and began rolling the ladder back up throwing the string back down beside the tree. He stood and noticed she had walked over to the best spot around the whole place. He hung the deer over the rails of the walkway.

The trees gave way and exposed a large pond that had so many flowers around it. The sun set beautifully against the surface of the water. No words could come to mind as she turned back to Sully. He smiled and turned bringing his hands to his mouth. "Sammy! I picked up a stray and dinner in the woods," he said facing one of the houses.

A man slung the door opened. He had the same hair color as Sully but his was spikier and a bit longer. He had light green eyes that contrasted his dark tanned skin. His lips were more plumb and he had Sully by a foot in height but had the same build; skinny but buff.

His face went pale as he looked at Angel. Sully laughed hard then.

Samuel raced to Angel and wrapped her in a hug. "I can't believe you're still alive," he said in astonishment. "I thought after Jade." At the mention of the woman's name he teared up but hugged Angel tighter.

"Yea I'm still here. It's so nice to see you and your brother alive . . . Jewel too. Thank you for taking care of her," Angel said pushing him away a bit.

"Hey Sammy!" Sully said grinning. "Where's dirt monkey?"

"She's out getting food." Samuel let Angel go and leaned on the rails a bit.

"What? I said Jewel and me would get it." Samuel chuckled.

"She was just making sure. Bet Angel caught that deer too." Angel laughed when Sully frowned. He glared at his brother.

"Whatever man! Come on Angel I know you can cook it." Angel walked past Samuel; Sully untied the deer and took it to the small house Samuel emerged from. He tied the deer onto a stray rafter hanging from the house and pulled a small off the ground fire pit from the corner of the porch. Jewel watched across from them at another house sitting in a little chair.

Sully pulled a few pieces of firewood off a rack and threw them in as Angel watched. He suddenly slapped his shoulder. "Mother fucking mosquitoes," he said annoyed. He snatched a gray rag off the rail and it turned out to be a tank top. He quickly slid it on. He turned seeing Angel had the fire lit. He laughed. "You sneaky bitch." She laughed and took three poles from under it that were meant for cooking something.

Angel began cutting pieces of meat of the dear when the fire got bigger. She stuck the thin metal pole through it and set it on top the others.

"I got something for you," Sully said opening the door. "You got to come in to get it." She shrugged and followed him in. A small lantern lit the dark room. Sully walked to small built in cabinet and pulled down a bottle. "Bet you ain't had none of this in a while." He smiled handing it to her. He twitched a little as their hands touched.

She took the cap off the bottle and smelled the contents. "Fucking moonshine!" she exclaimed grinning a little too much. "The last time I drunk this was when we were hanging out." Sully stuck his hands in his pocket and gave a small smile and acted a bit nervous.

"You made me think of it. If finding you and reuniting you with Jewel wasn't a reason worth celebrating I don't know what is. That's the last batch I had that my granddaddy made before he died."

"Thank you Sully." She planted a small kiss on his cheek and set the bottle back in the cabinet. "Won't Sammy be mad?"

"He didn't make it with granddad. Didn't care for the business like I did so how could he get mad. Besides he'd have to celebrate this too. Bit of a miracle we run into each other again at the end of the world."

"Yea it is. I'm so glad you're still alive. A lot has changed but I don't think you have."

"Nope!" He swung the door open and held it open for her. She stepped out and checked the food. Sully quickly went and grabbed a plate and tongs for her to grab the hot food. She plucked the meat off the small pole and cut more off the deer before placing it over the fire.

She set down by the fire as the sky grew grim and the sun slowly left. Sully watched Samuel and Jewel play a game of patty cake across the way. "At least she has someone to play with instead of teaching her how to cuss," Angel mentioned giving a small smirk giving him a mischievousness look.

"Yea . . . at first I thought it was a bad idea to have a kid along in this . . . but I don't know Sammy has taken good care of her along with dirt monkey." He looked away from her suddenly and took notice of movement by the ladder. "Speak of the devil."

"Oh shit," Angel mumbled looking at the tall woman. Her dark skin matched her long brown hair beautifully. Her hazel eyes caught Angel's violet. Two long daggers hung off her sides. Her leather pants contrasted the gold handles of the weapons but it was a good fit. "Hey Aylen!" Angel stood then with a sigh. "I'm tired off this small world shit."

Sully starred at them as Angel walked up to Aylen. What the hell? "No hard feelings?" Angel asked keeping a foot of distance between them. The woman ignored her.

"Sully why did you bring her here?" she questioned starring Angel down with a glare.

"She saved Jewel and I knew her from back in the day. I didn't know it'd be a problem." He was guessing on her saving Jewel. He shrugged and stood walking over to the two. He did know one thing something happened between them and they really didn't like each other. He was ready to jump in not knowing Angel was perfectly capable of handling herself.

Aylen looked at Sully then Angel. "She leaves tomorrow. Understood?" Angel nodded and turned to leave but Sully stayed.

"Aylen you can't throw her out to the dogs."

"I suggest you shut up. The only reason I took you and your brother in was because of the little girl.

"If Angel has to leave I will too."

"Your choice." Sully was pissed.

"What did she do to you anyway?" He came pretty close to yelling it.

"It's none of your business." With that the woman pushed him out of the way and he glared at her back as she retreated into her small house.

"Fuck her," he mumbled before returning to Angel's side. She had just grabbed up more of the meat. "This is enough isn't it?" she asked holding the plate that had enough meat on it to weigh twenty pounds. Sully was in deep thought and it caught him off guard.

"Ummm yea! Yea sweetheart that's fine." Samuel and Jewel were making there way over and Samuel grabbed up the plate and took it inside smiling at his brother. Sully looked back at Angel he starred at the fire with a sorrowful gaze. "Come in and eat with us."

She nodded numbly before standing. Sully wrapped an arm around her shoulder and led her in. Samuel was setting up a fold out table and chairs as Jewel eyed the food while sitting on the bed. Angel shrugged Sully's arm off and set four plates out along with four bottles of boiled water that was room temperature.

Dinner was quiet. They all knew how out of place Angel felt as she picked at the food taking small bites. Samuel figured it was her nerves when he noticed. He paid it no more mind. Angel ate as much as she could stomach without feeling sick. "Where can I sleep?" she asked taking a big swallow of water.

"One of the houses . . . hang on." Sully pushed away from the table and plundered through a large pile of bags in the corner. He snatched up one bag and pulled a battery-powered lantern out another. "You mind cleaning up Sammy." He snatched the bottle of moonshine from the cabinet. Samuel nodded drinking his water.

"Goodnight sweetie," Angel said leaning over and kissing Jewel's forehead.

"Goodnight Angel I love you."

"I love you too." She smiled before Sully swung the door opened and let her out following behind her. He took the lantern and powered it up and led her into one of the huts. He set it down on a small table along with the bottle. "We still celebrating?" he asked lowly opening the bag setting it down on top a worn mattress.

"Yea since I gotta leave tomorrow." She gave a weak smile as he made up her bed.

"I'm going with you," he stated throwing a pillow down and tossing the bag to the side. He didn't give her time to say anything. "I'll be right back." He fled out the door.

Angel sat on the bed quietly waiting for him to return. A small knock sounded at the door and she opened it. Sully had brought the fire pit onto the small porch with two chairs and a small table. He rocked back and forth on his heels nervously. "Angel Hellfire," he said lightly.

"What Sully?" She smiled trying to figure out what type of game he was playing.

"Will you make me the happiest man alive . . . er I mean really alive tonight and go on a date with me?" Angel laughed hard. He was reacting the first and only date they ever went on.

"I will." She smiled and stepped out closing the door behind her. "Yes," Sully mused giving a fist pump in the air.

He pulled the chair out for her and she sat down. He quickly walked back into the house and grabbed up the booze and returned outside tanking a seat by her. "Past the jokes and all," he began taking a swallow out of the bottle. She frowned then. "What does Aylen have against you?" She sighed snatching the bottle from him and taking a big swallow. "Don't remember you handling your alcohol that well." He gave a weak smile.

"I've changed a lot since Jade died . . . so much that I hardly remember who I was."

"You look the same to me." He placed a hand on her shoulder and she shrugged it off. "I mean how you acted. I don't think you've changed at all."

"I have though . . . more then I want to go into."

"You never answered my question." He had his elbows rested on his knees paying full attention to every little thing she did and said.

"I took her revenge away from her."

"What is that suppose to mean?" She just came out and told him then.

"Killed someone before she had the chance to."

"And it wasn't one of the bastard's walking around?" She nodded a yes. "After you leave tomorrow we have somewhere safe to go?" he asked suddenly after a long silence.

"Yea there's a group at this prison not to far from here. I say a mile . . . You're staying here and so is Jewel. It's not really safe we have a war going on with some people."

"Well I can protect you. Sammy and her can stay here and I could come help."

"Heh." She gave a small mocking laugh. "You really don't know me anymore. I've forgotten just how long and much has happened since I last saw you." She took another big swallow out the bottle feeling the effects immediately after.

"Woh!" He took the bottle with a small smile. "Gotta remember me and my granddad made this. Toughest fucking moonshine in the south." She laughed at him.

"I can handle my liquor now . . . Not as reckless as I used to be." That was a lie that she didn't mean to tell. She thought it best to not let him know what she had done with her life in those short years.

They sat up drinking for the most part of the night. They stumbled into the house laughing at a joke they came up with. "Perfect joke," she laughed falling on the bed.

"Well Angel this has been a wonderful date . . . may I stay for the night it's really late and a long walk home." He placed his hands behind his back and looked at her innocently. "I promise to behave."

"Perfect reenactment! I'm supposing you think I'm going to say yes now." He nodded slowly. She sighed trying her best to be serious.

"I guess only because it's so late." He smiled brightly then and jumped on top of her. He didn't tough her but hovered over her grinning against the lantern's light.

"I forgot just how beautiful you are. Those mood ring eyes . . . that seductive smile . . . the way your eyebrows lift up when you're happy and when you get mad . . ." He was going down a long list and Angel closed her eyes enjoying the attention. She missed that about him. He would always do everything for her and expect nothing in return. He'd make her feel like a princess.

"And that cute belly button," he said softly before he lifted her shirt up a touch. He grew quiet then starring down at her stomach. His hazel eyes wide and full of shock. Angel opened her eyes when he grew quiet. She had forgotten.

Sully starred down at the scars unable to process anything but where bullet holes had scared over and the healed gashes that made her light skin look deformed. She slapped his hand away and backed away from him. He backed away as well still not being able to process anything but that. A long awkward silence fell.

"When the hell did all that happen?" he asked in a whisper starring into her eyes running a hand through his hair. He didn't want to jump to explanations. He wanted the truth. Angel gave a frustrated sigh.

"And I thought I could avoid telling you," she said as her eyes teared over and she lowered her head in regret. He crawled closer to her then and lifted her head up to look at her by her chin gently.

"Tell me. I won't judge you." He gave a faint smile trying to calm her down. Angel broke down crying then telling him everything.

"After Jade died I went downhill trying to kill myself with booze. This man pulled me off the streets taught me how to fight and survive under the worst kind of conditions. He preached a message of having a perfect world." She held her face in her hand not daring to look at Sully. "I learned how to be a killer, a soldier for the army he was building. I trained men. I made friends. It was ok for a while I didn't mind killing the people who were suppose to be bad. The scars are from the battles. I got one of my men killed and got reckless with my life."

"Later," she continued. "After the outbreak and my last friend got bit and he begged me to shoot him I found out everything I thought I stood for was pretty much a damn lie. I was killing for the greediness of that man. They pumped me full of experimental drugs made me into something I thought I became by myself. I can't sleep, can hardly eat because of that shit. The reason Aylen hates me is because I killed that man . . . I don't know why she's mad . . . So there's my life for the last eleven years."

"I can't sleep either," he said softly. "I'm not judging you . . . You played with the hand you were dealt. Maybe it was best that happen you're still alive now . . . I can't imagine what hell you've been through." She wiped her tears away.

"More then I want to admit." She stretched out in the bed and turned her back to him. She quickly wrestled the rifle off and let it fall to the floor. She expected Sully to leave but he didn't. He stretched out beside her and pulled her close.

"It's ok now . . . I'm here. No one can hurt you anymore as long as I am. We'll leave tomorrow and everything will be fine. When the prison is safe we'll bring Jewel and Sammy back." He planted a small kiss on her shoulder and pulled her closer. Between his soft words and smell Angel drifted into sleep. Between Angel's relaxed breathing and presence he fell into a sound sleep as well.