There's No Happy Ending

by cellopanda14

Lovino is very different from his brother. He is antisocial, and despises being bugged by people. However, even though people so desperately want to include him, he feels that they only pity him. And once they get him in, they forget him all together. No real pairings, except for hints at Spamano but nothing really happens with it. T for Romano's language. I do not own Hetalia.

14. Chapter 14

I headed straight for the door. I didn't care who saw, or who followed. I just fled.

I couldn't get very far, unfortunately. My mind was so confused, I just didn't understand anything anymore. I stopped by the fountain, and bent over to try and catch my breath. But of course, Antonio followed. Could he possibly make things any worse?

"Lovino! Wait!" His eyes were full of shock, plus that look of sadness mixed with pity. At least, that's what I thought it was.

I stood up and looked him straight in the eye. "No! I won't wait! You fucking people are all the same, you know that?! You don't like me, you PITY me!" I really let it out. "Because Feliciano's so damn popular, and I'm always by myself, so you just go out feeling bad for me! I'm so easily forgettable, I could die at any minute and no one would notice until it was too late!"

Antonio was completely baffled. "Lovino..."

His words suddenly meant nothing to me anymore. "Somehow, you keep noticing early, Antonio, but still you just feel bad! All you ever want to say to me is 'I'm sorry' but you're only sorry because I'm not important! Feliciano is so much better than me, and he has so many friends, you feel sorry that I can't match up to him! But you know what? I DON'T WANT TO. I HATE BEING SOCIAL. I DON'T WANT FRIENDS. I HATE PEOPLE."

"Amigo..." His eyes were sadder than I'd ever seen.

I'd finally had it. "But for some reason, no one can comprehend that, so you just go along feeling sorry for me, and then you forget I even exist! YOU PEOPLE ARE JUST OUT TO MAKE ME FEEL LIKE SHIT. SO CONGRATULATIONS, YOU'VE SUCCEEDED. I KNOW YOU ONLY DO WHAT YOU DO SO I WON'T FEEL LESS THAN MY BROTHER. BUT YOU'RE TOO LATE. I WAS BORN LESS IMPORTANT THAN MY BROTHER, AND I'M GONNA STAY THAT WAY!"

I was panting heavier than ever. I had finally exploded. I thought I was going to punch a wall. But Antonio could only look at me. He'd never been sadder for me than right now. I wanted to puke. But instead, I ran to my secret room, knocking over lanterns on my way over. All I heard from Antonio was one word, what was probably his favorite word by now.

"Lovino..."