A/N xSweetFireStarsx here, like I said in my other update, I'm
going to be starting a brand new Kickin' It story at the
beginning of summer, by that I most likely mean June 20th. But
I'm starting to work on it now so that the first few chapters
should be ready by then.
Jack's P.O.V.
I've never been through anything like this, but I'm used to change.
"Jack," Scarlet started off, her voice soft but yet controlling. I may have
sensed a bit of anger in there. "There's no way our life is supposed to be,
this is how it is and we were taught to deal with it when it comes to making
friends. We were given a rule, and it was?" she asked, expecting me to
answer. I looked at her coldly, I wasn't necessarily anger at her, but now I
was angry at myself, my choices, the world and everyone included.
"Never to make contact or friends with those on the outside or opposite base,
opponents, allies or leaderships." I said through gritted teeth. She nodded her
head and carried on in her lecture towards me.
"Correct, so just because she somehow relates to you doesn't make it okay
to go against that rule." I nodded already knowing this, I learned them
beforehand. But still, something nagged and pulled at my mind inside. I
sighed and walked over to the knives section of the room and picked one up
to handle. I didn't want my hands to be idle at this moment in time.
"Scarlet, the only reason I am going against this rule is because I made a
promise to her." Even though my back was turned away from her I could
basically see her exasperated face that came with the breath she exhaled out
behind me.
"What did you promise her?"
I didn't answer for a while, staring at the knife watching how it captured the
light captured the silver side more than the metal side. I began to wonder
how worse things could get if I already felt more comfortable around a knife
than my own working partner, or best friend.
"Jack?" she questioned me again when I didn't answer quick enough to her
liking.
"She asked me if I could make a promise for us to be close friends. I told her
I wasn't sure I was able to fulfill that task, and then I told her that I promise
to my heart that I would stay true to her. She then asked me if I would at
least try, and I said I would." I carefully set the knife back in its original spot
and turned towards, I shrugged my shoulders and stuffed my hands in my pockets, and old habit of mine. Showing that I was done with my story.
"See? No big deal Scar." Though, even though I was sure I convinced her,
she still wasn't sure of something.
"Did anything else happen?" I hesitated. There was the hug, the embrace,
that she would, without a doubt, be envied and outraged about. Hugging was
a foreign language where I come from, and sadly she's from the same place.
I've told many lies before in many cases but never to Scarlet. I looked at her,
she had one eyebrow raised, waiting upon my answer. I leaned down mouth
into my collar to disguise my words only because I knew I couldn't lie to
her, and even if I did, she would see through it.
"We hugged." I said softly. But talking into the collar, it came out more like
"bee pugged."
"What?" she asked stepping closer. As she came closer she moved my
mouth from my collar so that now I was forced to speak properly and
clearly. I sighed and decided I might as well get it over with, no matter how
mad she might be.
"We hugged. We embraced each other. I touched her hair and everything." I
confessed, not holding anything back. She looked slightly appalled, but soon
it was back to serious. Surprisingly, all she did was shake her head and walk
towards the door way. But stopped at the door frame.
"I can't leave you alone with Kimberly anymore after this little episode. You
are risking our mission and putting everyone in danger especially these 4
innocent kids. Look, I know hugging it may be just hugging now, but soon
it'll lead to kissing and who knows what else."
As soon as she said this, an instant image came to my mind of myself
kissing Kimberly. I decided to stop her right there.
"Look, that's one rule I won't break alright? We only hugged because we
connected in a way. But in won't lead to us kissing or whatever else you t
hink." I said shaking my head dismissively. Scarlet started to walk back to
me while I went towards the couch where she soon sat down next to me.
"Jack, remember what happened to the last girl you kissed that was on the
outside of our base?" I let my head hung low as I nodded.
How could I forget?
Our base was stationed in Oakwood, and I met a girl there in one of the
schools, her name was Ruth. She was my first real girlfriend, and the only
way that was accomplished was because we were stationed in Oakwood for
so long I decided I should just try it. It was going all too well; never to know
the criminal were tracking down was tracking us down. Watching
everywhere we went, every move we made, every time we held hands, every
time we kissed. That soon he got opportunity to take her and disappear with
her, right from under my nose. And I never saw her again. Until recently,
3years ago, we found her in a small hide-away shag. She wanted to know
what was going on when I had rescued her, and why I wasn't able to find
her. But I couldn't tell her anything, so she hasn't spoken to me since.
I sighed, having all of this coming back to me now made me regret
everything I did with Kimberly.
"I don't want that to happen to her any more than I wanted it to happen to
Ruth." I spoke knowing Scarlet was listening. "And this time I actually have
the chance of stopping it before it happens. The only way to keep her safe is
to stay away from her." I sighed. For the few minutes I knew her it was
great, but for her own life, they would have to end. I didn't pick this life, it
was handed to me and with my father gone I had no reason but to accept it.
But now, seeing that I can't have a life outside of these enemy lines, I'm not
so sure I want it any more. But how can you give back a life that was framed
for you since before birth. In this life, I learned how to forget and move on
quickly, because if you don't learn, you sink to the bottom. My father, Ruth,
all taught me this. So with, it should be easier, since I don't even know her.
The only I bestow upon her is that he father isn't in her life, nor mine. That
one connection we shared is now gone.
Through all these deep endless thoughts, Scarlet began to comfort me in her
best ways.
"Jack, look on the bright side, there are some fun things to do in this life." I
nodded, guessing she was right. More or less.
"But don't you ever feel like you should be a kid, even for just a minute?" I
looked at her intently, waiting on her answer. She looked down at her
fidgeting fingers and toyed with them for a while, something she does
mostly when she's deep in thoughts or absent-minded. Which I figured
would be both right now.
"Yes I do. Every day." I smiled at her, finally knowing that we were on the
same page.
"One day, and soon, we have to just take a day for ourselves. Just to actual
kids."
"Jack, we don't know how to be actual teenagers like we come across to be."
we both giggled slightly at the thought and how true it was.
"Well maybe we can get Jerry, Eddie, Milton, and Kimberly to teach us."
Her face hardened as soon as I spoke their names, more specifically
Kimberly's name.
"Jack, are you sure you can handle that? I mean, look at all the dangers
involved with this plan." She said, face overflowing with worry.
"I know, but since I have to ignore her pretty much the rest of my life, just
let me have this one day to be with her. Just let me be able to make her
promise come true before I leave her forever. At least she won't be mad at
me like Ruth." I was basically pleading with her, but I didn't care. I would
soon wonder why Kim, this girl I just met, seem so important to me, but
none of that mattered now, I just needed to spend one more day with her
before I have to say goodbye.
"Fine," Scarlet said after what seemed like hours. "But no hugging, kissing,
or touching, or any physical contact for that matter." I sighed rolling my
eyes.
"Yes mom." I said annoyed but I couldn't help smiling.
A/N Well there it is, one of my longest chapters but defiantly
not one of my favorites, but review and tell me what you think.
I had to rush through this to get it updated today because I
haven't updated any of my stories in a while.