A/N: I know, I'm awful! When I got home Thursday after posting chapter 10 I was ecstatic because of all of the alerts on my email!!! And I really tried to write the following weekend but I had no inspiration and the results would have been disastrous.

Thank you so much for all your wonderful reviews!!! I was so excited that night my mom and boyfriend looked at me funny. Lol. Seriously, thank you! And thanks Brimseye for your advice, I tried to take it all in. Regarding grammar though, I did my best and checked about five times but I think I'm in desperate need of a Beta, anyone up for it? Please let me know.

This chapter is definitely better than the last, it's still being led by Twilight because that's they way I want it to be, but it's different in many ways.

I wanted to finish it and post it yesterday while I had an inspiration flow but I was unable to so I had to wait a few more hours to do so.

Thanks again for your reviews and I hope you enjoy it!!! :D

Disclaimer: Unfortunately, I do not own Twilight. Sad, right?

And also none of the other books mentioned in this chapter.

As Alice stepped out of the car once we reached the driveway back home I decided to take her up on her word.

"Alice…" I said softly.

"Yes, dearest brother?" She said smiling.

"I… What if…?" It was hard for me to voice my thoughts feeling I would sound ridiculous.

"What is it? C'mon, just tell me! It can't be that bad." She said, curiosity plastered on her face.

"What if she had a deep dark secret? What if she wasn't who she seems to be? If there was something wrong?" I blurted out knowing she would understand who I was talking about.

"Well, I noticed nothing wrong with her." She said sincerely. "And, well, we all have our deep dark secrets. That doesn't make us bad, Edward. It makes us human."

I knew she was right and while I pondered over her statement she slipped into the house realizing I needed time to think.

Once inside the house I excused myself from dinner saying I was tired and needed to rest. The truth is that my mind was going a million miles a minute and I needed to drain my thoughts away before they became too much to handle.

I knew I needed some kind of distraction and decided to put on some music on my stereo. I knew nothing I owned would help me, I needed something loud and different that would get my attention.

My eyes found the CD Emmett had lent to me claiming I "just had to listen to it". I put it on, plugged my headphones and pumped up the volume so that it would cloud every thought in my mind but without it causing any permanent damage to my hearing.

Somewhere after the CD started playing for the third time and I had grown accustomed to the beat I dozed off with my head blank of any other thoughts.

I woke up jerking upright suddenly and found myself covered in sweat.

My memory was fuzzy but I knew I had a really strange nightmare. I remembered Bella was there staring at me angrily, and Jane was trying to take me away, trying to take me somewhere "safe". I couldn't keep my eyes off of Bella's which were now a violent shade of red and stared intently into mine as I heard howls around me.

I didn't really understand the dream. During it I sensed she was dangerous but I couldn't possibly get around the thought that she was bad in any way. Or really dangerous to me.

Trying to chase the nightmare away I decided to face the thoughts that had haunted me yesterday. I got up and went into Carlisle's library.

My alarm clock let me know it was 8 in the morning and I knew no one would be up around the house at this time on a Sunday and was thankful for it.

I browsed around for about thirty minutes pulling out books from the shelves which caught my attention. From the silliest to the somewhat more serious ones. "Dracula", "Bite: A Vampire Handbook", "Encyclopedia Horrifica" and more.

I was surprised at the amount of books that I was able to locate on this subject, but then again Carlisle's library was known to be vast and held as much as possible. It was one of Carlisle's prides.

I found myself surrounded with many books and submerged myself in them.

Every time I found the slightest coincidence with reality everything surrounding it did not make sense.

I read and I read and found the most varied descriptions of these beings but none of them satisfied me. They talked about strength, speed and coldness. But also about blood drinking, dying in the sun, malice and violence.

I refused to believe any of it had something to do with her. She was good, I could feel it.

In the middle of my racing thoughts a voice crept up into the library.

"What the hell are you reading, Eddie?" Said Emmett, starting to laugh wildly.

"Into myths, are we now?"

"Shut up, Emmett" I said, somewhat angry.

But then it hit me. He was right. This was completely absurd and silly.

While his laughter continued I closed the books and put them away where they belonged.

I stepped out of the library leaving a still amused Emmett whose laughter didn't allow him to continue making fun of me.

I went to my room and changed for a run. I needed to think.

I started down the path towards the main road. It was a few miles and that would give me enough time to reflect on this.

I tried to discern reality from fantasy. To get a grasp of what was true and what couldn't possibly be.

Yes, she was different. Something told me she couldn't possible be human. Another part of me also told me that she wasn't the monster described in most of those books.

I came to a halt realizing something I should have seen before. I didn't care anymore.

Whatever she was wouldn't make a difference. I wouldn't change my mind. Something drew me to her and I needed to be close to her, to get to know her. I wasn't going to let go.

After my epiphany I returned home and found Jasper, Emmett and Carlisle stepping out of the house to play. As they saw me come the called to me to join them for a game of football. I agreed and let myself enjoy the rest of the day knowing I was at peace with the decision I had made.

I woke up with the same peace the next day and rushed downstairs eager to get to school.

The sun shone outside making me smile seeing it as a good sign.

I rushed my siblings into finishing their breakfast and was received with glares and curses.

As we approached the parking lot I was disappointed to see her truck was nowhere to be found. I thought maybe she just hadn't arrived yet.

The day passed slowly while my eyes searched for her through the hall.

Lunch came and disappointment overtook me again when I realized she wasn't sitting at her usual table. So much for good signs.

My thoughts drifted away and I didn't pay attention to the conversation going on until Alice's voice drew me back.

"Edward! Are you listening?" She said annoyed that I wasn't.

"Sorry, Al. What were you saying?"

"We are going to go shopping for prom dresses and tuxes for the dance tomorrow after school. Are you coming?" She said with an excited look that definitely tried to convince me to say yes.

"Actually, Alice, I'm not going to the dance, and even if I was I have plenty to wear at home."

"C'mon, Edward. You know I need someone to keep and eye out for Emmett and Jasper. You know how they get and God knows what they'll get into!" She said pleadingly.

"Ali,…" I started to say but I noticed Angela's eyes while the hope of not having to suffer Alice's shopping frenzy all on her own died out. And that did it.

"You want me to go, don't you?"

"It's okay. You don't have to go." I knew she just didn't want to force me to do something I didn't want to, something difficult to comprehend for Alice.

"I'll go." I said softly smiling to her. Unfortunately, Alice overheard and started screaming happily over it.

"I won't if you keep doing that, and I'm not buying anything." And with that she quieted down, the excitement on her face still clear.

When we arrived home everyone went up to their rooms as I headed to the kitchen to find Esme cooking.

"Hi, Edward." She said smiling. "How was your day?"

"It was fine." I stated, but she saw right through it.

I went to the fridge and grabbed a bottle of water. I could sense my mother's concern building up.

"Edward," she started trying to figure out what to say and if to say anything. "I know moving around has been hard on all of you and that you have problems adjusting but,…" she hesitated for a moment "your siblings seemed to be adapting fairly well and making new friends, but it seems you are still not at ease here. And I'm a little worried about you, you seem so gloomy lately." I could see she was also worried about my reaction to her statement.

"I'm fine, really. I just…, it's not as easy for me as it is for them, that's all. But I'm getting to know people and things are getting better." I tried to comfort her and be as honest as I could. I was telling the truth in a way and trying to ease her worries.

She smiled at me accepting my explanation and gave me a kiss on the cheek before I left the kitchen.

Not seeing her all day, and the whole weekend by that matter, made me think about her more than ever.

I decided to sit at the piano and play to distract myself but my thoughts kept drifting back to her. I moved my fingers through the keys unconscious of what I was playing until I realized I was playing for her.

A new, unknown melody filled the room. A lullaby. Her lullaby.

I smiled and kept going excited as I composed this very sweet melody.

I didn't notice how long I had been there until Esme came to me to announce me dinner was ready. She had actually been standing a few feet away for a few minutes not wanting to interrupt the lovely music.

My sleep was very peaceful that night.

I was sad I hadn't seen her in so long and I missed her, but her song left me in a blissful mood.

The next day the sun shone again and this time I saw it as a bad omen.

I hoped in vain she would be at school knowing deep down that wouldn't be the case.

Fortunately, though I didn't quite look forward to it, I had the trip to Port Angeles to distract me.

After school we took my car and Angela's and made our way. I had every intention of slipping away at some point to visit a music store or something slightly more entertaining than shopping.

A/N: So, what did you think? Please let me know!

And also if you get a chance check out my one shot for the An Exploration of the Senses Contest called "Together". It's quite short and not my very best but I like it and would really appreciate your opinion.

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