Thanks for all the great reviews glad you liked the first chapter. I am aiming to make this story a lot lighter than some of my other ones have been and concentrate on just them . I will be heading away from the episode storyline now into my own little world for a while, hope you all still enjoy.

Chapter 2

Olivia just stood, not moving as he walked away from her. What the fuck. She thought as her fingers lightly touched her lips. What the hell just happened?

She pulled her phone out her pocket and pressed speed dial 4.

"Hey." Answered Casey. "What's up?"

"Get over to my place, now….. And pick a bottle up on the way over"

"Whoa ….wait a minute. What the hell is wrong?" asked Casey looking at her watch and seeing it was only just after 4pm.

"Just hurry up Casey, I need to talk to you… I need to talk to someone, I can't believe he just done that."

"Who did what? Olivia what the hell has happened? Are you hurt? Did this He hurt you?"

"What no…. yes …..Fuck I don't know….."

"Olivia, Honey I need you to take a deep breath and tell me what the hell has happened?" said Casey picking up her bag and heading out the office slamming the door behind her.

Olivia took a deep breath "It's ….Elliot…."

"Shit! What the hell has he done now? I should have known he would be behind this…"

"He kissed me."

"Shit!" said Casey stopping in the middle of the corridor.

"Yeah Shit" said Olivia getting in the elevator. "Now hurry the hell up, and don't forget the alcohol."

Elliot walked away from Olivia and straight into the nearest toilets and rested his hands on the sink.

"What the fuck was that Stabler?" he asked himself, looking up into the mirror. He couldn't believe he had just kissed her like that. Fuck! He thought to himself as he ran the cold water and dropped his head splashing water onto his face. What the hell were you thinking?

He turned the tap off and stood up right grabbing a towel and drying his face. He thought back to what made him do it. He was about to just walk away and try and forget what she had said, but she had got him so angry when she wouldn't give him an answer. Why couldn't she just be honest with him? What the hell did she mean by its complicated? That wasn't an answer. Why the hell couldn't she just be straight with him?

He sighed and turned around leaning against the sink. And you thought grabbing her and kissing her before walking away without a word was the answer. He thought to himself, shaking his head. He thought back to the actual kiss and started to smile as he remembered his lips on her, finally after all these years he had finally felt her lips on his, tasted her, god she felt so good…. And she kissed me back. She must have liked it and wanted it cause she definitely kissed me back. He grinned to himself and threw the towel in the bin. He would give her time to calm down before he went to see her. He couldn't let this go, not now. It had taken him this long to finally do something he wasn't going to now pretend nothing had happened, he couldn't. She definitely kissed me back.

"He kissed you?" she asked grinning, holding up a bottle of tequila, as Olivia opened the door.

"It's not fucking funny Casey."

Casey looked at her as Olivia turned her back and walked into the kitchen, Casey followed without a word. Olivia reached up and took two shot glasses off the shelf and handed Olivia the bottle.

"What the hell took you so long anyway?" Olivia snapped taking the bottle of her. "I called you hours ago."

"Yeah, sorry about that. I was on my way and I got a call from Judge Donnelly, so I had to go there first….. I did try and call you; your phone was going straight voice mail."

"Yeah I turned it off in case he tried to call Me." she said handing Casey a shot glass before knocking hers back in one. She opened the fridge and took out a bottle of wine and grabbed two glasses and headed for her couch. Casey grabbed the tequila and shot glasses following her.

They both sat on the couch in silence. Olivia handed her a glass of wine.

"Soooo, what happened?"

Olivia looked at her then back to hands holding the glass. "He kissed me. What more is there to say?"

"Did you kiss him back?"

"What!" she snapped.

"I said... Did you kiss him back?"

"Casey one minute we were talking… the next his mouth was all over me…. I couldn't believe he done it. In the locker room of all places, well the door way. And then he just walked away."

"Did you kiss him back?"

"What the hell was he thinking …..? Cragen could have walked past, anyone could."

"Did you kiss him back?" asked Casey again. Olivia kept her eyes fixed on her wine glass. "Did you?"

"Yes…" said Olivia quietly "I kissed him back."

Casey grinned and took a drink as Olivia looked at her friend.

"It's not funny Case…. I shouldn't have done that. I should have pushed him away."

"Why? Didn't you like it? I always imagined Stabler to be a good kisser."

"What the hell Casey?" spat Olivia nearly choking on her wine.

"So…. was he good?"

Olivia took another drink and stared ahead "Yeah he was." A slight smile appearing on her face.

"So what the hell is the problem, Olivia?" asked Casey drinking her wine. "He kissed you, you kissed him back, and you enjoyed it. I don't really see what the problem is."

"He's my Partner…. For 8 years he has been my partner, and that's all."

"Liv, you can't sit there and tell me that in those eight years you never dreamt about you and Elliot, being together, kissing…. And more"

"He's married Casey, end of story. He has been married since I've known him."

"Just cause he was married doesn't mean you never thought about him. Hell I've had the odd fantasy here and there…"

Olivia stared at Casey "Oh please, have you seen the body on him, and all that brooding and anger, God it's so sexy at times." Laughed Casey "And for the record, yes he is married, but only just, his divorce must be nearly through now, and he has been separated for over a year."

Casey looked at Olivia and put her hand on Olivia's shoulder "What's really the problem Liv. Don't try and tell me its cause he's your partner because haven't you just left for Computer crimes….. Wait a minute is that why you left, has something else already happened?"

Olivia shook her head. "No not really." She felt the tears in her eyes. "After the Gitano case Elliot told me if we ever put the victims before each other again then we couldn't be partners." The tears slowly rolled down her face. "I knew that if I had to choose between saving Elliot and anyone else I would chose him every time Casey. I wouldn't have to think twice about it."

Casey poured them tequila and handed one to Olivia who knocked it back in one.

"I love him Casey more than a partner should, and I'm scared. When he was married it was easy I just pushed the feelings away, but the last year it's been getting harder and harder. I knew I had to distance myself from him."

"But why? If you love him…."

"Because I'm no good at relationships, look at my past history. It's all one night dates here and there, a few boyfriends that may last a few months. I can't risk losing Elliot by having a relationship with him…. I need him in my life."

"And moving to Computer crimes without telling him and ignoring this kiss even happened is going to keep him in your life?" asked Casey.

"He will be pissed for a while but he will come round, and computer crimes are only a temporary thing until things calm down."

"You can try and talk your way out of this all you want Olivia, but its bullshit. You can try and hide your feelings all you want but you Love Elliot Stabler and that isn't going to change anytime soon."

Elliot sat in the squad room it was quiet and he was the only one left. He sighed and lay back in his chair. He had tried to call Olivia numerous times during the day but had lost his nerve; he picked his phone up again, looked at it then threw it back on the desk.

"Elliot" said his Captains voice behind him.

He spun round in his chair "Hey Cap, I thought you had gone."

Cragen walked over to Elliot with the bottle of vodka he keeps in his bottom draw and a glass. He sat in Olivia's chair facing Elliot and poured a drink handing it to him.

"You want to tell me what's going on?" he asked Elliot handing him the glass.

Elliot took the glass. "Thanks" he said leaning forward resting his elbows on the desk. "Look about earlier that thing with Blaine, what I said to you after…. I'm sorry." He took a sip of the vodka and felt it burn as it hit the back of his throat. "I've been having a bad few days, what with that thing with Gitano and Liv…leaving."

"Elliot I only moved Olivia to computer crimes to ….." Elliot held his hand up to stop Cragen.

"It's ok Cap you don't need to cover for her, I know she asked to be moved."

"You've spoken to her?"

"Sort of" Elliot took another drink and sat back in his chair. "I've fucked up." He told him as he slumped back.

"Look you and Olivia, you go through these patches, all good partnerships do. The problem with you two is your too much alike, both hot headed and stubborn, and don't like to admit when you're wrong. After a few weeks all this will blow over and she will be back sitting here."

Elliot shook his head "Not this time, I have totally screwed things up."

"Look Elliot I'm sure it's not as bad as you think. You have both had a rough few weeks with cases, bad cases, just give it time I'm….."

"I kissed her." Elliot blurted out cutting Cragen off mid-sentence. "I kissed her." he downed the rest of the drink and sat forward putting his glass on his desk.

"Oh" said Cragen pouring Elliot another drink. "What did she do?"

"Nothing. I kissed her then walked away. It was after the fight with Blaine. I was so wound up, she wouldn't talk to me. I just….. I …. "Elliot dropped his head on the desk.

Cragen sighed, it was times like this he wished he still drank "It had to happen at some point" he said sitting back in Olivia's chair. Elliot raised his head looking at him. "As soon as I found out about you and Kathy splitting up. I knew this day would come. The way you two are together all that tension especially the last few months. So what you going to do now?"

"I don't know" said Elliot sitting up right again. "I haven't spoken to her yet. I kinda kissed her and ran. To be honest with you, I'm scared to talk to her" he smiled slightly as he said it.

"I can understand that" Cragen smiled back. "But you need to talk to her."

"Yeah I know, and I will, I promise….. I love her Cap." Cragen sat looking at Elliot in all the years he had known him he had never known him to open up so much, about feelings or personal stuff.

"Elliot, how long have you known or should I say had these feelings for Olivia?"

"Honestly….. For years. But I always pushed them aside tried to forget about them. I always put it down to us being partners. Kathy even asked me a few times if I was sleeping with her…" he saw Cragen raise his eyebrows. "I wasn't Cap; I wouldn't have done that to Kathy."

"Is this the reason you and Kathy split…. Your feelings for Olivia?"

"Maybe that was part the reason. Kathy knew I felt something more than I should for a partner. But the reason me and Kathy split is simple we weren't in love anymore; it wasn't fair on the kids for us to stay together and fight all the time. We get on better now than we have for years."

"That's good, Elliot "Cragen stood up to leave. "You want a top up?" he asked lifting the bottle.

"Nah I 'm good thanks, I'm gonna head home." Cragen nodded and began to walk away "Just one thing Cap. If things do work out with Liv and we decide to give this a go, where do we stand work wise? I mean if she wanted to come back here as my partner?"

Cragen turned back to Elliot. "Although relationships aren't encouraged between officers and are frowned upon, there is nothing in the guidelines that says you cant. As long as you stay professional in work and don't let your private lives interfere."

"So we could still be partners?"

"Yes you could" he smiled walking away. And god help us all he thought.

Olivia sat at her desk and sighed. It had been three days since that kiss and they still hadn't seen each other or talked. She didn't know whether to be relieved or pissed off, that he hadn't tried to contact her. I mean it should be him right, he kissed me. It's up to him to make the move.

"Dammit!" she yelled throwing her pen across the room. How the hell can he kiss me then ignore me, no phone call nothing. She picked up her phone then threw it back down. No he fucked up he can call me.

Just as she thought that her phone rang and she quickly grabbed it, she looked at the caller ID and her heart sank.

"Hi Casey, what's up?"

"Thought you might like a bit of company tonight, now you get weekends off. How does alcohol and pizza sound at your place as its central for me and Mel."

"Yeah sounds good." She said trying to sound excited.

"I take it he still hasn't been in touch."

"Nope…. And what do I care he can go to hell. At least I don't have to face him every day at work."

"That's true" said Casey not sure that she believed her friend "We will be over about seven"

"Okay see you then" said Olivia hanging the phone up.

"So Stabler finally made his move on you then?" said Melinda as they all sat around the small table.

"What the hell….. does everyone know?" asked Olivia glaring at Casey.

"Only Mel …. Don't worry. I had to tell someone, it was killing me staying quiet about it." Laughed Casey.

"So come on Olivia how it was?"

"Jesus, why does everyone want to know what it's like to kiss Stabler?"

"You are joking right. Do you even look at your partner and see what everyone else sees. Since he and Kathy split up I have heard he has been asked out by quite a few people and he has turned every one of them down."

"Really?"

"Really, then he goes and kisses you….. So come on spill, what it like was?" grinned Melinda.

"It was….. He was…" Olivia's mind wandered back to the kiss, the feel of his lips on hers how soft he was after the initial contact, how he gently held her face, how his tongue slipped between her lips.

"That good huh" laughed Mel as she watched Olivia's face as she thought about the kiss.

"Fuck you" grinned Olivia pouring some wine into their glasses. "Anyway it doesn't matter how good it was or wasn't it won't be happening again."

"Why the hell not?" asked Mel.

"Because Liv being Liv is being stupid. She thinks by denying her feelings for Elliot and pretending the kiss never happened means she won't lose him, she will always have him as a friend." Said Casey.

"Olivia Honey, what the hell are you thinking?"

"I don't know alright" she said standing up from the table. "I don't know. I just can't be in a relationship with him. It doesn't matter how I feel cause I know I will only fuck it up and I can't lose the one person in my life I need more than anything cause of one stupid kiss….."

She was interrupted by knock at the door. She looked at her friends before turning towards the door and walking away. Casey and Mel looked at each other shaking their heads knowing they had a long night ahead of them, trying to convince their friend to follow her heart for once.

Olivia looked through the peep hole in her door but couldn't see anyone. She slowly opened the door. At first she thought no one was there until Elliot stepped into view.

"Hey" he said his voice soft and low, "We need to talk."

Next up face to face for the first time, and we all know things wont run smoothly for them, I mean what fun would that be.