I own nothing this chapter is in Emily's pov. I wasn't really to sure if I wanted to do this cause it would really ruin the rest. But I did it anyways. Ill just have to change a few things. Let me know what you think. This chapter also starts on the plane and ends in the same place as the last chapter. This chapter just explains a few things.
Chapter 5
Emily's POV
Naomi got up to get her bag. She couldn't quite reach it so it must have been far back. I moved to pack my things but I got a glimpse of Naomi abdomen. My mouth went dry. I suddenly wanted to run my hands up the outline of her abs. Then all of a sudden the skin was gone. I shot my eyes up to meet Naomi's beautiful blue ones. Her eyebrows were raised and I knew I had been caught. I cleared my throat praying she doesn't say anything and I quickly began to pack my things.
"You can't fool me Emily Fitch, I know you to well" she whispered against my ear. The sound of her saying my name made a shooting pain head straight for between my legs.
She knows nothing about me. She thinks I hate her that's how dense she is. That's how dense everyone is; no body looks closely enough to really know what's going on.
" You know fuck all about me" I said "now get out of my way you faggot" I shoved passed her before I could see her reaction to my words. I didn't know what else to do.
For the passed year and a half I have been a complete and utter cunt to her. Basically bullied her. Embarrassed her and spoke down to her. Don't get me wrong Naomi can hold her own she always has. I wish I were more like her out and proud. be able to say what I want and love whom I want. But I cant. I would loose my family if I did.
My mum is a homophobic cunt and I don't mean she doesn't like them but she can stick them. NO. If there was a homophobic club she would be the fucking leader, and then there is my twin sister Katie. I have always been in Katies shadow and I still am up to a certain extent. She hates Naomi and I mean to the core hatred. Ever since she ruined the best moment of my life. Her hatred has grown.
I told Katie Naomi came on to me because I couldn't stand the thought of the stares, whispers and sniggers I would receive and the thought of losing two family members was enough to keep my mouth shut. I have put Naomi through what I was terrified to go through and now I can never tell her the truth because if I did I know she would never forgive me.
I felt the tears rushing to my eyes. Every time I would say and do something to Naomi I would cry for days with guilt and anger at my self for being such a bitch. I don't want to be I just don't have the courage to be me. Be Emily gay Fitch. And the worst about it Naomi is so nice. No matter what I have put her through she still treats me like a friend when were together.
When Katie was being a bitch to her in school. She accidentally hit my face and to be far it is pretty fucked up. When she realised it was me. I broke down in tears not because of the pain. It was because the sadness, guilt and fear that covered her eyes in seconds. She forgot all about Katie and came rushing to help me. And that's the reason why I will never beable tell her or anyone for that matter how I really feel Because Naomi deserves better than me and that's the truth.
I wiped my face furiously knowing that Katie, effy and panda would be waiting for me getting of the plane.
I passed cook on the way out. He had seen I was crying. Fucking brilliant that's all I need.
I saw the girls waiting for me at the end of the terminal. I composed my self has much as I could before reaching them.
"About time, we've been waiting here ages" Katie huffed
"Its only been five minutes" effy stated, she threw me a small smile.
"Five minutes to fucking long lets go." Katie shouted as she started walking away.
I rolled my eyes at her. She pisses me the fuck off.
When we all collected our luggage, we went to find the bus that would take us to camp La'mount.
Everyone was finally on the bus and settled down. We took off on the 4 hour bus journey to the longest 5 days I just have a feeling its going to be.