-seven-

"So when do you actually find out what's wrong with you?" Lauren questioned as she , Sam and Amy walked through the school on Monday morning.

"Dunno. Mum said we'll get a call from the doctors at any time today." Sam shrugged.

"Hopefully it'll be good yeah?" Lauren looked at her.

Sam was about to reply when she felt someone hug her around the waist from behind. She looked over her shoulder to see Finn there and she smiled, kissing him. "Any reason for that?" she asked.

"Nope." Finn shook his head, grinning as they walked into Miss Choudry's lesson, only to be told to go to the assembly hall for the first part of their lesson.

"Come on, maybe we'll find your stalker." Sam laughed looking at Amy.

"Yeah, you're just jealous cause I'm the one getting stalked." Amy said cockily, smirking and the four of them made their way to the assembly hall.

"Yeah I'd love for someone to be putting creepy notes into my locker wanting me out the school." Sam said dryly, raising an eyebrow at her friend.

As the day went on, and the questions came more and more, about what was going on, about what her medication was for, Sam stood back and thought over it. She didn't have a clue what her medication was for. None of it, yet she took them like a good little girl because the doctor told her to.

Lauren and Finn stopped when they realised Sam wasn't with them and they turned and looked at her.

"Ain't you coming for lunch?" Lauren asked.

"Urm… nah I'll join ya later. Just got to do something." Sam said and took off down the corridor before either of them could say a word. She needed to get to a computer and fast, she needed to get answers for herself about her medication before she could answer anyone else's questions about it.

Once in the student common room she walked over to the computer, sitting down and logging on. Then she grabbed her bag, shook out her medication on to the table and dumped the bag on the floor again at her feet.

Desperation clutched at her like someone trying to cling on to something in the water trying not to drown as she searched every single explanation for the names of the drugs she was taking.

Once she got all the information she needed she came off the sites and logged herself off, jumping up and shoving the stuff bag in her bag. As she wheeled round she almost knocked into Jess.

"Woah Sam slow down. Everything okay?" Jess looked at her.

"Yeah.. sorry look if you see Finn and Lauren tell them I've just gone to walk off a headache…" Sam said and ran from the common room, leaving Jessica Fisher speechless for the first time in a long while.

Sam ran all the way to the hospital to find answers, only to realise once she had a chat with her doctor that she wished she hadn't. Her first thought was "I don't want to go…" and possibly for the first time since her diagnosis, the feeling of total loss and devastation.

Sam numbly stood from the chair and walked out of the room, out of the hospital, walking to the park first to say her final piece, and then back to school. It was as if she were on autopilot and she made her way through the corridors to the computer room and began to put her video together. She knew she was missing the presentation, but all she cared about was putting this together. She figured if she couldn't say it out loud, she could say it through a video.

Sam finished the video in time for the end of day bell to finish and she took the disk out, unplugged the video camera and grabbed her bag, logging herself off the computer and she walked out of the computer room, walking toward the assembly hall where she caught up with Lauren.

"Hey Sam where've you been?" Lauren asked.

"Oh… just had to go for a walk. Where's Amy…?" Sam looked at her.

"Oh I found out who her stalker is, and he went back to his to record his dad's little secret, turns out he was with Amy's mum and she's gone off on one, he ran out after her… We need to find her before she kills him." Lauren explained, grabbing her friend's arm and pulled her in the direction she'd seen Amy run in.

"So I didn't miss much then." Sam said sarcastically, running with her. "There she is."

Both girls walked to Amy as she came out of the art classroom.

"You okay?" Sam asked.

Amy just looked at her friend and shook her head. Usually she'd come back with some comment like "Does it look like it!" but at that moment she just needed her friends.

Lauren and Sam both hugged her. "At least it's over now yeah?" Sam said.

"It better be… could've ripped his throat out…" Amy muttered.

"C'mon. Let's go." Lauren said and the three of them walked through the corridors and out of the school and they walked toward the school gates slowly and they talked.

"We were waiting for you, we wanna see your video." Amy said, smiling a little.

"Yeah we ain't seen it." Lauren added.

"You will don't worry. I'll show ya… either later or tomorrow." Sam said.

"You better." Amy smiled and hugged both her friends. "There's my dad. You coming Lauren?" Amy pointed to the car that had just pulled up.

"Uh.." Lauren looked over her shoulder to see Finn walking toward them. "Yeah go on then." She said and hugged Sam. "See you later." And both girls got into Amy's dad's car.

Finn got to Sam's side and put his arm around her. "You alright?" he asked. "Where were you?"

"Yeah… yeah I'm fine…" she lied and shrugged. "I was putting the video together."

Finn nodded and they both walked away from the school back toward Sam's, and they both talked. Soon they stopped and they hugged.

Sam heaved a sigh and she bit her lip. It was now or never. "Finn… I got something I want to show you…" she said, pulling out of the hug.

"What's up Sam?" he looked at her.

"Just come on…" she muttered, grabbing his wrist and pulling him toward her door and she walked inside.

They both walked into the living room, and Tom asked him to leave. Sam shook her head, saying she wanted him to stay. Despite Rose saying they needed to talk, Sam was determined and she knelt down by the TV, digging into her bag for the DVD and put it into the DVD player.

Tom, Finn and Rose all sat down, Tom and Rose together, Finn the opposite side of the room, and Sam pressed play, then she got up and sat by her mum.

They all watched, Rose and Tom barely managing a smile. All they wanted to do was have a quiet chat with her. But they knew Sam was determined and wouldn't be stopped once she made her decision. Finn kept looking at her, a smile on his face, and then it came to Sam's final piece. He barely noticed how she just crumbled and leaned in toward her mum, who then put her arm around her. He just watched, transfixed and was barely able to take in what she was saying.

'We're supposed to do a film today about ourselves that nobody else knows… Well up until today there was something about myself that I didn't even know. If making this film made me realise that I didn't even know much about my own illness, so I investigated… I've spoken to my doctor, and I know now… I know that there's nothing more they can do for me. I know that I'm dying…'

"I'm sorry Finn…" Sam sobbed and she just let her mother hug her as she cried.

Finn could say nothing, still unable to take it all in and he turned his head from Sam, to the TV and back again.

"Finn please say something…" Sam sobbed again. She wanted him to hug her, tell her everything was going to be alright. She knew it wouldn't be, but she needed that reassurance. What she didn't expect was for him to jump up and run. Part of her wanted to go after him but part of her accepted he needed time to get his head around it. After all he didn't even know she had cancer, let alone that she was dying up until now.

Tom got up to go after him.

"Tom leave it… he probably needs to get used to it…" Rose said, quietly through her tears and she made him sit down again.

A/N: sorry it's been a little longer than anticipated, I've been busy :)