~Contradicting.

So many feelings

So little words~

Chapter 7: I Miss You

Roxas looked around the kitchen, his mood getting worse with each passing minute. It reeked of alcohol since someone spilt some and didn't bother to clean it up. There was a bunch of people crowded in there, coming and going, staying to mix drinks.

'Where did Selphie even get all this?' he thought.

"Here," He blinked when a close appeared in front of his eyes.

"What's in it?" He gave the red cup a cautious look. With Axel you never know.

"Relax, it's just a Vex Cooler." Axel rolled his eyes. "Hey, what's down that hall?"

Roxas looked to see where he was pointing.

"Basement and spare room." he said before taking a sip of the bubbly drink. A bit sweet but it was okay.

"Is that the room where you have to have a key to get in?"

"Yeah," Roxas gave him a suspicious look. "And no, you can't have mine."

"I didn't even ask!"

"You didn't have to." Roxas was about take another sip of his drink when he was elbowed in the side.

"Urg! I swear to god Axel-"

"Shut up and look," Roxas gave his spiky haired friend a dirty look before turning to see where the red head was pointing.

He didn't see anything at first, for there were two really tall and rather big people blocking the way. But once they moved he saw her. He watched as she slid to the ground, visibly shaking.

He didn't think. He just acted. He put his cup on the counter, making his way towards, not too fast to draw attention, but fast enough that it didn't take long.

He kneeled down in front her, but she didn't seem to notice.

"Naminé," he said, but she didn't react. He thought he heard her mutter something about Radiant Garden.

"Anxiety Attack," he glanced at Axel, who had a serious look. "Just talk to her gently."

"Why?"

"She'll go under more stress and break down even worse." We should get her somewhere quiet, away from other people."

"I don't want to go back there, I don't, I don't." Roxas heard the petite blonde whisper.

"You won't go back." he told her. He made sure his voice was gentle as Axel suggested. "Come on, before you over-stress more."

Though his voice was quiet, she had finally heard him. She looked up, blue eyes wide. Roxas didn't know what to expect but he didn't think she would react the way she did. With a quiet cry she threw her self at him, gripping his shirt that was quickly being stained with her tears.

"R-R-Roxas I-I'm s-sorry," She chocked out.

Roxas's gaze grew soft. He wrapped his arms around her, resting his head on top of hers.

"You have nothing to apologize for idiot," he said quietly.

"Nice horns, very fitting."

"Wish I could say the same about your ears." Larxene smirked as Zexion scowled at her. "Let me guess, Demyx?"

"Do you honestly think I'd wear these of my own free will?" Zexion pointed to the fluffy gray bunny ears that sat on top of his head.

"You're more whipped than Axel is, and we're dating." She picked up a rock and threw it over the fence. She smirked grew when she heard a car alarm go off.

"Instead of making fun of me, how about you tell me who hit you." It was Larxene's turn to scowl.

"That obvious?"

"Not really, but there has to be a reason why you're wearing make-up."

Larxene didn't answer right away. To by some time she picked up another rock and threw it. She was annoyed when she didn't hear another car alarm.

"I pissed off Saïx," She said finally. "He wouldn't give me the answers I wanted."

"So you attacked him even though you don't have your knives anymore." It was a statement, not a question. "What did you want to know?"

"Why there's a mission pertaining to Memory Skyscraper. Axel won't tell me either." Zexion's one visible eye snapped towards her.

"Your too close to it, of course he won't tell you." he said. "Even if someone mentions that place your temper gets the better of you."

"That's what Saïx said before he kicked me out," Larxene grumbled, sitting down beside him. "I'm not allowed back for the next couple of days. He said I have to cool down."

"I assume you're staying with Axel then?"

"Yeah." A group of guys ran past from where they sat on the back porch. One of them, in a pirate costume, tripped while his friends laughed. Larxene stood up. "Go find Demyx. This place is annoying me."

"How'd you know it was an anxiety attack?"

"A…friend of mine used to get them. Still does sometimes."

"Oh."

Silence fell between the two friends. They were in the room Selphie liked to keep locked for her friend. Roxas was lucky he remember to bring the key. Not that he couldn't get in even if he didn't have it, but the Burnett made it clear if he tried to open the door without a key again, she'd make his life a living hell.

Roxas looked down at the sleeping girl, who was currently using his lap as a pillow while they were on the couch.

"Any idea what brought it on?" Axel asked, breaking the silence.

"I don't know," Roxas frowned. He doesn't remember her ever having anxiety problems.

A chiming sound filled the room for a few seconds. Axel pulled his phone out of his pocket.

"Any idea where Dem is?" he asked.

"No, why?"

"Zexion can't find him. Him and Larxene are leaving soon." Roxas watched as his fiend walked to the door. "I need to talk to Zex before he leaves. Will you be okay with her?"

"Yeah. I'll get Sora to come get her." Roxas told him. When Axel was gone, he sighed. He leaned against the arm of the couch. Hesitating at first, he brushed some of Naminé's hair back.

Her blonde locks had grown out over the last two years. Her complexion was as pale as he remembered it. Almost like porcelain.

He closed his eyes. He missed her even though she was so close. He wanted to talk to her without purposely being mean and distant. He wanted to hold her, without wondering if it would be for the last time. He wanted to tell her-

"I miss you." His eyes snapped open. He looked down at the girl on his lap, seeing that her eyes were still closed.

"I miss you…Roxas." she murmured.

"I miss you too," he said before he could stop himself.

"Then why did you say all those mean things," her eyes cracked open for a few seconds before closing again.

"Because…I felt like I had to at the time," He admitted. He was surprised when she laughed softly.

"What?"

"Only in my dreams you're honest with me," She said.

'She thinks she's dreaming' he thought. 'Well, maybe that's a good thing'

"Roxas?"

"Hm?"

"Am I a masochist?" Roxas starred at her, surprised at her question.

"Why would you ask that?

"Seeing you hurts. But I still want to be around you so I take it. Plus, I like that movie."

Roxas sighed. He knew what movie she was talking about. He hated it so much.

"Emotionally, yeah you are." he said bluntly. Again, she laughed.

"Guess I am dreaming." She said. Seeing and hearing her laugh brought back so many memories. Happy and painful. Maybe he was a masochist too.

"Remember…the promise you made? When you gave me that bracelet?"

"Yeah."

"Will you…will you ever keep it?"

Silence. Then-

"Yeah."

"When?"

"…"

"…"

"One day." He said. He covered his eyes with his right hand while his other stroked her hair. He didn't really think about the action, he just needed it to move so it would stop shaking. "One day. When I stop being a coward."

Axel had to walk a two blocks down the street before he found them.

"Hey Bugs, where are your ears?" he called.

"Too bad that eye mask can't cover your mouth also," Zexion replied. He was leaning against the hood of a black SUV. "Where's Demyx?"

"Huh," Axel looked over his shoulder. "He was right behind-"

"Zexion! Where are your bunny ears?" A blonde with a mullet came running across the street. On his head was a pair of brown cat ears.

"Lost them."

"That's not good. Here-" Zexion's one visible eye twitched as the ears were placed on his head. Axel had to cover his mouth to stifle his laugh.

"Cute," He managed to choke out. "Little kitty Zexi."

"Shut up and tell me what you want," Zexion said as Demyx got into the passenger seat of the SUV.

"Take Larxene to my place since-"

"-She can't go to HQ." Zexion waved his hand impatiently. "Yeah, she told me."

"Er, right. Also, I need you to stay there until I get there." Axel told him.

"Excuse me? Why would I do that?"

"Just do it. I'll owe you one."

"You already owe me three."

"Then put it on my tab," Axel rolled his eyes.

"Will you two hurry up? I want to get to sleep," Larxene rolled down the back seat window, looking annoyed. Axel walked over. He placed his arm over the window to support his weight as he leaned against the car.

"Be good. I want my house in one piece when I get there," he said.

"House? Please, you can barley fit four people in there." the blonde snorted.

"I'm letting you stay for free so don't complain."

"Whatever," leaning back in her seat, she rolled the window back up.

Sighing, the redhead straightened up. He turned to walk back to the house, saying to Zexion as he passed him, "Just keep an eye on her. Make sure she doesn't do something stupid."

"There you are," Kairi looked up from where she sat on the hood of the car. She smiled when she saw who it was.

"Hey," She said, moving over so Sora could sit next to her.

"What are you doing out here?" he asked.

"Needed some air," She shrugged. "I was going to sit in the backyard but, uh, Larxene was there so…"

"Yeah, she scares me too," Sora shuddered.

"I don't understand why Roxas hangs out with them."

"Their his family," Kairi looked at Sora, eyebrow raised.

"You're his family." she said.

"Biologically, yeah. But they understand him in a way I don't," Sora looked up at the sky, sighing. "I think he hates me sometimes."

"No one can hate you Sora. You're too nice." Sora smiled at her, but it didn't reach his eyes all the way.

"Whenever he's stressed or upset he goes to them. When Naminé first moved he was hardly ever home."

"He hasn't been himself lately, has he?"

"No. He's always been distant but in the past year he's more so." Sora shook his head. "I think he's not telling us something. He's hiding something."

"You mean about Naminé?"

"Not just that. There's something else. Something to do with the Organization."

Riku sighed, running a hand through his hair. He was tired from dancing and just wanted to rest.

"Hey Riku!" he turned to see a red faced Selphie walking over. She was dressed in a fairy costume.

"Selphie," He greeted, his lips twitching when she tripped slightly.

"Have you-Have you seen Pence? I have a bone to pick with him."

"Nope," She pouted at his answer. "Did you check upstairs?"

"Upstairs? Nope." She turned around and walked away as if she wasn't just talking to him. Riku shook his head before going back down the hall to the spare room.

He took his key's out of his pocket, finding the bronze key to the door right away. When he unlocked the door and walked in, he froze in shock.

Roxas was in there, sitting on the couch watching T.V. It wasn't that that shocked him though. He knew Selphie had given him a key to this room a long time ago. What shocked him was the fact that Naminé was laying beside him, using his thigh as a pillow while she clearly slept.

"What are you doing?" he asked, getting over his shock.

Roxas's head snapped towards him.

"What does it look like? I'm watching T.V." Riku thought his narrowed eyes looked a bit red but brushed it off. Probably just Halloween make-up.

"Why are you with Naminé?"

"She had an anxiety attack. I found her and brought her here. She ended up falling asleep."

"And you felt the need to stay with her out of the kindness of your heart, did you?" Riku said sarcastically. When he didn't get an answer he walked over. He bent down to pick her up. Even with her eyes closed he could tell she had been crying. "Next time, get me or Sora. Your just making it worse for her if you pretend you still care about her."

"Why would I get you? You two dating or something?" Roxas glared at him.

"What do you care? Even if we were that wouldn't be your business now would it?"

"You shouldn't be using Naminé to get over her," Roxas snapped. Riku looked like he would punch the blonde if he didn't have a petite girl in his arms.

"I'm not you Roxas." He said coldly. When he saw Roxas look shocked he added just as cold, if not colder, "Naminé told me what convinced her to leave. Even if she forgives you for it, I won't."

Some emotion filled Roxas's blue eyes.

"She told you?"

"Yeah."

"Everything?"

"What do you think?"

"You would've done the same." the blonde said bitterly.

"Maybe," Riku allowed before heading to the door. "But I wouldn't of made it worse by telling her I loved her before doing it."

"Naminé, are you sure you're okay?"

"Yes Kairi, would you please stop asking?" Naminé didn't want to snap at her cousin, but it was the fifth time that morning that she asked. It would wear down even a saints patience.

They were on their way to Sora's, and since neither had their licence they had to walk. Luckily, Naminé spent the night at Kairi's and she only lived a couple of blocks away from him.

"But you're really pale."

"I'm always pale."

"More than usual."

"I'm just tired. You did wake me up just a half hour ago."

"Sorry," Kairi apologized, but she was smiling slightly. "But the movie starts at 11:15 so we had to leave soon."

"Why couldn't Sora just pick us up?" Naminé grumbled.

"Because he slept in and would be quicker for us to walk there then head straight for the mall. Too bad Riku didn't stay the night at his place, but he said he'd meet us at the mall."

At the mention of the Silver haired boy, Naminé could barely suppress a scowl. Riku told Kairi she had a Anxiety Attack at the party, making them leave early. So Naminé woke up this morning she was confused and annoyed as to why she was at her cousins house.

Confused because she had no idea how she got there. Annoyed because Kairi wouldn't stop asking her questions. She knew that the redhead meant well, and was glad she cared, but there was only so much hovering the blonde could take. Maybe she would be able to handle the questions a bit better if only she could remember why she had an Anxiety Attack.

"Naminé, we're here so stop daydreaming."

Naminé looked up to see they arrived at Sora's. It was a nice house, cream coloured paint with brown trimming.

They walked inside, Kairi calling a greeting, announcing they were here. Sora's answer was a loud crash.

Shaking her head, Kairi went upstairs, leaving Naminé downstairs by herself.

It wasn't the first time she's been to his house, but it was since she moved back. She liked it. The walls in the living room were warm colours, light shades of brown while the kitchen had soft grays.

While she was admiring the paint jobs she didn't notice the blonde that walked down the stairs until he was standing four feet from her.

There was one thing she did remember from last night. It was that he was there. While she was crying, he was there. He stayed with her while she was breaking down. She didn't know why he did, but a part of her was glad. It made her delusion that he still cared about her, even if the thought hurt.

They stood there, just looking at each other, for who knows how long.

"Are you…Feeling okay now?" he finally asked, looking away.

"I…Y-Yes. I am," She answered. An awkward silence fell between them, saved for the sounds of their cousins walking around upstairs.

She gripped her arm, feeling uncomfortable now. Taking a deep breath, she said, "I-I'm sorry. For making you stay with me. I-I know you didn't want to-" she felt him grab her wrist. Her eyes widened when he pulled her towards him, embracing her.

"R-Roxas?" Naminé felt her face begin to burn. "W-What are you-"

"Just shut up," She felt his grip on her tighten as he placed his head on top of hers. "Just stop apologizing, stop being an idiot and so damn polite. Just…let me hold you, for now. Please."

The corner of her eyes began to sting.

"I miss you," why did those words sound familiar?

"Yeah, I know," he said. It was getting hard for her to breath, his embrace became so tight. Like he was afraid to let her go.

But there was a sound of a truck pulling up in front of the house, followed by the horn and shouts to hurry up, and he had to.

"I'll…see you around," he said.

"Yeah," Was all she could say. She moved out of the way so he could get to the door. When she thought he was gone she leaned against the wall.

It was an understatement to say she was surprised by his actions. He was contradicting everything he told her two years ago. Too bad the surprises weren't done yet.

She heard him sigh-Actually, it was more of an exhale of frustrated air. Her breath hitched in her throat when he turned back to her. Next thing she knew she felt his hand on the back of her neck, tipping her head back, and his lips against hers.

It lasted only a few seconds, if that.

Then he was gone for real, disappearing in the truck that pulled up earlier.

"Naminé? You okay?" She looked up to see Kairi and Sora had come down stairs finally.

"Uh, yeah. Let's go," She said. She followed them to the car, and once she was in the back seat she lightly brushed her lips with her fingers, feeling very, very confused.

A/N: Bad news guys. I got my report card and it was horrible. As in, I don't know if I'll be allowed online for a month, horrible. So I don't know when I'll be able to update unfortunately.

Chapter Fact

Many things we're supposed to happen in this chapter that didn't make it. There was a confrontation between Larxene and Zexion after they left, Sora and Roxas getting in a fight(Kinda)…maybe I'll put in in Dry My Tears. What do you guys think? Interested in reading that?