A/N: I wasn't and I'm still not sure if it was the right idea to put this chapter in here. I don't know... it's a little to sappy? I'd like to know your opinion if I should leave it her or if I... fucked up ;)
Chapter 8
Ivy entered the room, joining Bo on the bed. „She's probably going to kill me when she finds out, but... here" Ivy held up a DVD a sad smile flashing over her face.
„What's that?"
„A DVD dumbass" Ivy stated.
„I can see that" the sucubus grumbled.
„Why were you asking then?" Kenzi smirked.
„God.. you two deserve each other..."
Kenzi and Ivy smirked bumping fists, but then Ivys face changed and got serious.
„After the letter you read... well... there was another one. It came today..This DVD was inside. I don't really know what's on it, but... well... I'm not supposed to give it to you now..." Ivys voice was getting quiter.
„What do you mean by now?" Bo asked.
„She... she wanted me to give it to you in the case... well... if everything goes wrong... If she dies..." Ivy sighed her eyes watering up.
Bo gulped, taking the DVD in her hand that simply read For my beloved Bo in Laurens neat handwriting. Beloved. Bo smiled absentminded, gently touching the word.
„And why are giving this to me now then?" Bo asked puzzled.
„Actually... I'm hoping that... well... maybe you find some clues of her whereabouts. I have no idea what it is, just... I love my sister so much... I can't lose her... She... She's my only family left... please Bo... please find her, I miss her so much...Ever since..." Tears were trickling down her eyes.
„I will find her. I lover her too, you know? I've messed up in the past and I have to make it right this time. Wherever she is, even if it costs my life, I will bring her back. I promise" Bo squeezed Ivys shoulder.
„Thanks...I..." Ivy slowly stood up and dried her tears. Taking a last gulp she picked up a pillow and again hit Kenzi with it.
"Ouch... what is it with you and pillows? some strange kind of fetish?"
"Well... you should know, being the queen of the pillow fights" Ivy said showing Kenzi her tongue.
„Come on slowpoke I want a rematch in Streetfighter. Guille still wants to beat up your tiny ass"
„I'm so gonna win. Ryu will wipe the floor with you"
„Well... maybe you'd have a chance when you stop spamming your Hadoukens all the time.. You know that's really predictable..."
„Burn up the oven and put on the Kettle, we need lots of coffee and cookies bitch" Kenzi smiled and followed Ivy out of the room.
Bo stared a moment at the closed door, listening to the leaving footsteps until she stood up and put the DVD in the player sitting in the corner of the room. The Tv flickered to live, showing a great part of Laurens cleavage, seemingly fumbling with the camera.
„Nice..." Bo breathed through her teeth.
„Stop it Bo, this is serious and you stare at my cleavage.." the blond on screen said grinning. Busted...literally. Lauren knew her just too well.
She looked so different, so casual. She only wore a tight, white tanktop and tight fitting blue jeans showing just a bit of stomach. Her hair was pulled back in a loose ponytail, single strands hanging in her face. No make up, but she was still the most beautiful woman she had ever seen. She looked so... real.
„God I have no idea what I'm doing. I'm not even sure if you'll ever going to see this or even want to. I hurt you. I can understand if you... if you hate me." she took a deep breath.
„Ok, I have to do this a little faster" she looked at her watch. „I don't have much time left"
„I don't really know where to start. In my head it all made more sense..." she sighed.
„I'm scared Bo... I just hope I didn't make a mistake. Ok.. when you see this, I probably either fucked up or succeeded and died a martyr in a great sacrificing move. I hope for the latter. I won't lie to you. I don't believe to come out of this alive. That's the reason for this DVD. There is so much I want to tell you... So much I wished to show you, to experience with you. It hurts that it will never be. That we will never have the picket fence and the 2,5 kids. We will never grow old together, not that was ever a possibility. It would have been me growing old and wrinkly, while you would be looking as beautiful like on the first day we met. I would have never been enough for you Bo. You deserve more and I hope you'll find your happiness. I never stopped loving you and I'm happy about the time we had, no matter how short it was, you showed me how to love again, to fight for what you believe in. Thank you Bo"
A single tear was trickling down Laurens face. Her voice was wavering. Bo's heart stung now crying on her own. She wanted that future with Lauren, no matter how short it may be in her long life span, they would make the best out of it. She would love Lauren till the end and she would still be the most beautiful woman she'd ever seen, not caring about wrinkles. She would fight for Lauren, their future.
„What have you gotten yourself into Lauren? What are you doing? Where are you?" the brunette desperately asked the screen.
„I don't know where they are taking me and who they really are" Ok now she was scaring her. It was like Lauren knew what she was saying.
„I only know that they are researching probably on Fae. Humans who are experimenting on Fae. They are dangerous as far as I could find out. I'm not talking about some lunatics believing in fairy tales. They are professional. Don't try to avenge me. Don't do anything stupid. I'm doing this to protect you all. I'm sorry that I didn't survive... God that sounds horrible..." She rolled her eyes in her typical manner.
„This is a goodbye. Forever. That's depressing enough... On this DVD there are also the coordinates and code number for a locker. You will find all my notes, my research, my accomplishments there. On Paper and usb sticks. Give it to Dr. Alexander Engelmann. A german scientist I used to work with. He is the only one I can imagine who is capable to continue my research. He is Fae, but human friendly. He is working for centuries to improve their health. You can trust him. He will help you with your serum."
Typical. Always thinking about the others. Why couldn't she be selfish just once? Let someone else risk their lives.
„Before I start...I... want you to know who I really am. Well... or better who I was... god... I wish I could have told you myself... I had so much time but never... I was just so afraid Bo. I NEVER talk about my past. It's something that hurts so much. I try to forget. I'm not that person anymore. Well... maybe I am, but only with you. So before I will tell you..." Lauren stood up, walking out of the screen, her voice becoming distant.
„Promise me you don't laugh, I still can't believe that I'm about to do this. I'm not 19 anymore... Cheesy Lori, you are waaaay to cheesy. silly girl..." The blond began talking to herself and looked utterly cute doing so.
„Where is it... I was sure I... aaaah there you are" after a few minutes Lauren finally returned with... with an acustic guitar in hand.
„Wha..." Bo was surprised to say the least. She didn't know that the blond owned an instrument.
The doctor was now sitting on her couch fumbling with the guitar, carefully stroking over the body. „hmm.. haven't played you for a long time my old friend" she mumbled.
„I hope that I still know how to... And now I'm nervous... Why am I nervous? Why am I even doing this? Being romantic? You are dead when she sees this... Dead..." now she was talking to herself, the heavy weight of her decision pulling her down. A dry laugh escaped her lips. She shook her head, composing herself.
„I used to play... Seems that girls love when you play... well... add an uniform... I guess that I could have made a succubus competition and probably won..." She grinned, but the grin was tainted with sadness.
„I broke many girls hearts, I guess boys too... Never really cared for love until Nadia... Well...let's not talk about that... I want to play something for you. I promise you, I don't just want to get into your pants... Probably difficult considering I'm dead... I should stop saying this... Please don't laugh. I probably sound horrible or just silly and the song I chose..."
„Erm... less talking more singing, hmm?"
She took one deep breath before her skillful fingers started stroking the strings. No mishap. It was wonderful. Lauren was talented with her fingers. Bo knew from her very own experience and blushed at the thought of it. The melody sounded familiar. With every new note the blond grew more confident. Confident to start to sing.
And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And again her eyes were tearing up. Bo had never heard Lauren sing before. It was kinda rough but had a soft touch in it. She couldn't believe that she was actually singing for her, nobody ever had before.
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
And sooner or later it's over
I just don't wanna miss you tonight
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's meant to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
Then tell me. Tell me who you are. What has the world done to you?
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive
Brief flashes of her and Laurens past flashed in front of her eyes. The first time they had made love, the time she found out about Nadia, the fight against the garuda, committing to her at hecuba, many passionate nights and eventually break up and how broken she had looked.
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's meant to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
Lauren silently ended the song, tears now openly falling from her eyes. Hands shaking, voice wavering.
Bo had stopped the video for a short time. She grabbed for the pillow that surprisingly still smelled like Lauren and breathed in her scent. Her heart hurt. She was crying miserably. Clutching the pillow tightly against her chest she was rocking back and forth.
„I will get you back alive. I will... I will..." she whispered between sobs. „I promise my love"
A/N:2 Well... what do you think? should I continue the video or cut the crap out as a whole? I'm really not sure about this one.. It seems so ooc and... erm, well your decision, keep on going or not? If I continue... well... Laurens gonna tell Bo.. erm who she is.. a little about her past, why she took on the name Lauren Lewiss, something like that. For those who don't recognize the song: Goo Goo Dolls with Iris. Had this stupid idea for this chapter while driving around in my car... I'm way to emotional xD