Chapter 5
"Derek?" Meredith whispered into the phone. She was standing in her room next to the bed Conner was currently sleeping in.
"Hey, I'm just out of surgery." Derek said happily.
"Oh, um that's great." Meredith whispered.
"Why are you whispering?" Derek asked.
"I'm in my bedroom. Conner is sleeping in the bed." Meredith whisper-responded.
"Why don't you go somewhere else?" I have roommates remember?
"George is downstairs doing something and Izzie's upstairs in her room." Meredith responded.
"Why don't you go outside?" Derek asked.
"Why did you call, Derek?" Meredith asked bluntly.
"Oh you called me during my surgery and I was just calling me back."
"Right. Sorry I'm tired and need sleep. I didn't mean to snap at you. You just woke me up and almost woke Conner up. I wanted to know what you were doing tomorrow but never mind." Meredith sighed.
"Meredith, that's why you called me. You wanted to know what I was doing tomorrow?" Derek asked. "I'm going to work. If you still want to tell Webber about us we should meet up earlier." Derek slipped in.
"Should we meet up in front of his office or something? I actually wanted to tell you something Conner said." Meredith took a deep breath.
"Oh, what did he say?" Derek asked. Meredith heard an underlining of sadness.
"He said he loved you." Meredith sighed.
"Really." Derek breathed. Meredith could hear Derek's excitement, love and joy.
"Yeah. When we got home he wouldn't stop talking about you. I had to drag him away from George and Izzie before they heard your name." Meredith giggled.
"I can't believe he said he loved me." Derek said shocked.
"Yeah. I don't know why but I wanted to tell you. I know it would have been better if he told you himself in person but I wanted to tell you. I don't know if it is to warn you or to be able to hear your reaction to myself.
"Now I really want to see you." She could practically see Derek jumping,
"Unless you can come here you're not going to see us until tomorrow." Meredith said sadly.
"I don't have my next surgery until five. I was going to go home." She heard Derek breathing heavily. What the?
"What are you doing?" Meredith asked with a little giggle.
"I'm going to your house." Derek simply stated.
"Really?" Meredith exclaimed. She saw Conner turn in the bed and covered her mouth.
"Yeah." Meredith heard a car door shut and covered a laugh.
"George and Izzie are still up." Meredith informed.
"So?"
"You can't come in." She informed. She started to pace the room. Derek groaned.
"Meredith." Derek sighed.
"No, Derek, you can't come in. I don't want them to know yet. It's just they'll think we're only doing it and stuff because-" She begged.
"Do you love me?" Derek stopped her ramble. Meredith stared at the little boy currently sleeping in her bed.
"Yes." She breathed.
"Do you really want me to sneak in and then sneak out just to see you, the woman I love and who loves me back?" Derek asked. Meredith sighed and bit her lip. I love you and want to see you but I still don't want Izzie and George to find out. They'll be judgey and get the wrong idea.
"No, but I don't want Izzie and George to get the wrong idea and think we're screwing around." Meredith hummed.
"Meredith, do they know Conner's in your bed right now?"
"Yes." She moaned in frustration.
"Do they know you're seeing someone?" He asked. She could just see the look of annoyance on his face.
"I don't think so. If you just come over and sit on the couch to talk I don't know how they're going to react." Meredith bit her lips harder.
"We can always set them straight, Mer." Derek sighed.
"They might as well know since we're going to tell Webber in the morning, but what if they hate me?" She weakly agreed. Meredith started to pace again.
"Do you love me?" He asked firmly. Stop asking that.
"Yes, Derek, I love you." Meredith exclaimed.
"Then what does it matter if your roommates know? You told Cristina, right?"
"Yes, but Cristina is different. We've been friends since our first year of med school. She was friends with me when I was pregnant with Conner and when I asked for help with my crying infant." Meredith sighed.
"If they make a bigger deal out of this than Cristina did then you know they were not meant to be your friends." Derek informed. Meredith groaned.
"I do really want to see you. But they moved in this morning and I don't want everything to be…" She trailed off.
"You don't want it to be weird. Think of it this way; if you tell them we can spend nights together." Meredith could just see that arrogant grin on his face.
"I'll meet you on the front porch." Meredith sighed.
"Fine." Derek moaned. Meredith smiled and closed her phone. She looked down at Conner and frowned. Meredith crawled onto the bed and softly rubbed his back.
"Mommmmy." He mumbled half-heartily. Meredith kissed his soft cheek and breathed in his natural little kid/outside/soap scent. She saw car lights coming down the street.
"I'll be back soon." She whispered before running out of the room.
"Hey, Meredith." George called out to her before she could get to the stairs.
"Hi." She smiled awkwardly. "What are you doing upstairs?" Meredith asked. George stood in the hallway.
"Bathroom." He pointed. Meredith nodded her head. "I noticed Conner's door is open and he isn't in there. Do you know where he is?" George asked with slight stuttering.
"He wanted to spend the night in my bed. He's fine." Meredith informed. George nodded his head and walked slowly to the bathroom. Meredith shrugged and walked do the stairs.
"Meredith, someone's in the driveway." Izzie called out.
"I know." Meredith answered walking to the door.
"Who is it?" Izzie asked following her. Meredith turned around before Izzie could step outside.
"A friend." Meredith shrugged. Izzie scrunched her face up.
"Are they coming in?" Izzie looked back into the house.
"No." Meredith answered quickly. Izzie looked back at her confused. "He um… he's just here to say hi. I was on the phone with him earlier and he was in the neighborhood and wanted to see me." Meredith lied. Izzie lifted her eyebrows at Meredith.
"Are you going to um…?" Izzie left the question at that.
"No. He hasn't seen me for a few years and he wanted to catch up."
"At eleven in the night?" Meredith froze for a second.
"I'm going to go out to lunch with him tomorrow."
"So you won't be at lunch?" Izzie asked. Meredith swallowed and wrung her hands.
"No." Meredith answered slowly.
"I'm going to ask this and I don't want you to take it the wrong way but I have to ask. Is he a drug dealer? Cause all this stuff is weird. And you're lying. So I just want to know." Izzie said quickly. A drug dealer! What?
"No." Meredith answered firmly. "He's a friend. He is a doctor and just got off a shift that is why he is here at this time. I'm going to go talk to him." Meredith pointed to the car.
"As long as you're not into anything illegal I don't care." Izzie informed. Meredith nodded her head and raced to Derek's car.
"Was that Stevens?" Derek asked looking to the door as Meredith got into the passenger seat.
"Yeah. She asked if you were a drug dealer. Oh and if we were going to have sex." Meredith sighed and leaned over to him. Derek smiled and kissed her.
"It would be so much easier if you just let me come in." Derek mumbled against her lips. Meredith pulled back.
"I told you not yet." Meredith breathed. Derek frowned and pulled her closer to him.
"I'm good with that. As long as you do tell them." Derek kissed her again. Meredith moaned and giggled.
"You want to sneak upstairs?" Meredith suggested as she tried to pull him closer.
"Conner is in your bed." He reminded. Meredith sighed.
"What are you doing tomorrow morning? Besides the Webber thing." She asked pulling back.
"I have to work. When does your shift start?"
"I have to be there for rounds at five. Should we meet up around four or something?" Meredith mumbled. She turned her head to look out at the front yard and sighed deeply.
"Can I come pick you guys up?" Derek asked softly.
"I get off at six." She whispered.
"I can wait thirty minutes." Derek shrugged. Meredith bit her lip and pulled her knees up to her chest. Derek smirked to himself and turned her face to him. "Meredith." He breathed. She tilted her head into his touch and stared into his big blue eyes. "What's wrong?" He whispered.
"I don't want you to leave." She whimpered. Derek pulled him to his chest and kissed her head. Meredith gripped him tightly and pressed her cheek against strong chest. "I don't want Izzie and George to hate me." She added. Derek drew circles on her back and kissed her hair.
"Meredith, Conner's asking for you!" Izzie yelled. Meredith sighed against Derek and pulled back.
"You can go." Derek answered. Meredith looked up into his eyes.
"I don't want you to leave." She whispered again. Derek ran a hand through his hair.
"You won't let me inside but you don't want me to leave. Meredith, I don't know what to do. I'm not spending the night outside your house." Meredith frowned and looked at the front door seeing Izzie standing talking to Conner.
"Come on." Meredith caved. She quickly got out of the car and waited for Derek to follow her. He jumped out of the car and grabbed her awaiting hand.
"Are you sure?" He whispered excitedly. Not fully, but mostly.
"I love you and they're going to find out sometime." Meredith sighed and rubbed her eyes as they walked up the steps. Izzie turned around and her mouth dropped staring at Derek and Meredith holding hands, walking up to her together.
"Derek!" Conner yelled running up to him and hugging Derek's legs tightly.
"Hey, buddy." Derek greeted softly. He ran his hand over Conner's soft hair and looked up at Izzie. Meredith saw Izzie's disgusted face and confused eyes. Izzie, shut up.
"I love you too, Derek." Conner exclaimed. Meredith could just see Derek's heart soar.
"I love you too, Conner. Why'd you say too?" Derek said with a small laugh.
"Because before you left me and Mommy in the parking lot you said you loved us. You said, 'Love you, Conner." Then you said, "Love you, Mer." That's Mommy's name. But only Aunty Cristina calls her Mer. You call her that too. But I love you, Derek." Conner took a deep breath and smiled up at Derek. Conner's awake.
"Conner, it is way past your bedtime. Why are you up?" Meredith half heartily scolded.
"I was thirsty." Conner lied.
"Really?" Meredith walked into the house with Conner in Derek's arms and Izzie stewing behind them.
"No." Conner hung his head as Derek adjusted him. "I had to go potty, then I heard a bang downstairs and I wanted to know what it was."
"You wanted to go down the stairs night stairs?" Derek asked before Meredith could say something. Conner looked around the room.
"I saw the light on." He mumbled. Meredith walked into the kitchen and grabbed a water bottle.
"Now you have water." Meredith turned around with Derek following her and they started up the stairs leaving Izzie standing in the living room. "We'll be down in a minute Izzie." Meredith informed. Izzie huffed and plopped down onto the couch.
"Why is Izzie mad?" Conner looked to Derek with his eyebrows knit together. Derek looked back at him with the same confused face. Meredith held in a groan of frustration. Please don't tell him. He won't understand then he'll ask more questions and stay up later and it won't be good.
"Can I sing you a song my mommy would sing me when I was little?" Derek asked nicely. Conner put his hand to his face and leaned his head on Derek's shoulder.
"Fine." Conner mumbled sleepily.
"Somewhere, over the rainbow, way up high. And the dreams that you dreamed of once in a lullaby. Somewhere over the rainbow, bluebirds fly. And the dreams that you dreamed of dreams really do come true." Derek sang softly.
"Someday I'll wish a upon a star." Joined in Meredith with a grin over her shoulder to Derek. "Wake up where the clouds are far behind me. Where troubles melt like lemon drops. High above chimney tops that's where you'll find me. Somewhere over the rainbow, bluebirds fly. And the dream that you dare to, oh why, oh why can't I?" Conner let out a small murmur of sleep and Meredith opened his bedroom door with a small smile on her face. You're awesome, Derek. He gently placed Conner on his bed and kissed his head.
"Sweet dreams, Conner." Derek whispered and walked over to the door.
"Goodnight, Conman." Meredith whispered into his cheek. She covered him with his blankets and tiptoed over to Derek. They softly closed the door and Meredith reached up to kiss his cheek. "Thank you." She whispered. Derek lifted an eyebrow.
"For what?" He grabbed her hand and they glided to the stairs.
"Singing and carrying Conner." Meredith leaned on him as they descended the stairs.
"That was nothing." Derek shrugged as Meredith looked over to the living room. She saw an angry Izzie on the couch. Where's George?
"Did your mom really sing Somewhere Over the Rainbow to you?" Meredith asked. Derek laughed and shook his head slightly.
"I was really little. She sings it to my nieces and nephews. My sisters sing it to their kids." They walked into the living room and Izzie stood up.
"Dr. Shepherd." She nodded her head and stared Meredith down.
"Please call me Derek outside of the hospital, Izzie." Derek sat down as if it was a normal thing and looked up at Meredith.
"Can I talk to Meredith?" Izzie asked through clenched teeth.
"Where's George?" Meredith asked suddenly.
"He got paged by Bailey." Izzie shrugged. Why would Bailey page him and not us.
"Was he on-call or something?" Meredith continued. Izzie gave her a look and crossed her arms over her chest with attitude.
"He said he was late for a shift." Izzie shrugged. "Meredith, can I talk to you?" Izzie growled.
"Whatever you have to say to her you can say in front of me." Derek informed. Izzie looked down at him then over to Meredith. Thank you!
"Um…" Izzie looked over at Meredith again.
"He's right." Meredith sat down next to Derek and looked up at Izzie.
"Before you say anything I want to tell you something." Derek began. "We didn't meet at work. We met before. We've been dating for almost two months. I love her. This isn't a fling." Derek firmly informed. Izzie stood with her mouth agape.
"What do you have to say, Meredith?" Izzie asked.
"I love him. Not that you should know, but he is the first guy I've ever introduced to Conner. I don't think it's a fling. We did meet before work. In fact when I met him and we started dating I didn't know what his job was and where he worked until our third date. That was my choice not his." Meredith sighed and felt Derek grab her hand.
"Are you doing it to get ahead with surgeries?" Izzie grumbled.
"Has she gotten any surgeries that anyone else didn't have the ways to get?" Derek reminded.
"The first surgery. The one you let everyone try and help." Izzie stopped her sentence.
"Everyone had the chance."
"So she's not getting ahead in work?" Izzie asked.
"Really you think I'm getting ahead. I carried a frozen penis around for a day and a half. I suture and deliver labs and do everything you do." Meredith defended. Izzie nodded her head and huffed.
"Don't favor her. If you do I'll tell the chief." Izzie threatened. Derek shrugged. Derek, you better not favor me. I don't want to get in trouble with the chief.
"I'm exhausted." Meredith stood up and dragged Derek with her. "Goodnight, Izzie." Meredith started up the stairs with Izzie following them.
"Night." Izzie grumbled walking into her room. Meredith opened the door, quickly closed it behind her and Derek and locked it.
"You're locking it?" Derek asked surprised.
"Izzie came into my room in the morning. That is not happening with you here." Meredith informed crawling onto the bed. Derek stripped down to his boxers and slipped into bed beside her. He pulled her to him and kissed her hard on the lips. As they pulled apart Meredith sighed and her head went right down to Derek's chest.
"Get some sleep." Derek whispered into her hair. Meredith smiled against his skin and quickly gave him a little kiss before she turned around. She wiggled her bottom into his lap until she was comfortable and grabbed his hands as they wrapped around her. "Love you." Derek murmured.
"Hmmm love you too, Der." Meredith mumbled. Derek smiled against her neck. I like this. The last thing Meredith could remember was the unique smell of Derek, his warm body, and that peaceful feeling she couldn't get unless she was with him.
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"Oh turn it off!" Meredith whined into her pillow. Derek rolled on top of her and turned the alarm off. He rolled off her and rubbed her back.
"We have to get up." He rolled her shirt up her back a little and kissed along her spine.
"Mmmmhhm I don't wanna." She moaned. Derek chuckled and rolled over Meredith to get out of the bed.
"What do you want in order for you to get out of bed?" Derek asked crossing his arms over his chest. Meredith turned onto her back with a grin on her face.
"A good morning kiss." She simply stated. Derek smiled at her and leaned down to give her a hot kiss. As they pulled back Derek noticed Meredith kept her eyes closed for a second. Oh my god.
"Good enough morning kiss?" Meredith nodded her head with a smile.
"Wonderful." She whispered. Derek pulled her out of the bed and grabbed his clothes. Meredith got her towel and robe. "You're not going to take a shower?" She asked softly.
"I'll be quick." He ran to the bathroom and Meredith shook her head. She knocked on the door and entered with a towel in hand.
"You forgot a towel smart butt." She laughed. Derek turned around and grabbed it from her.
"Thank you." Meredith looked him up and down with a grin on her face. "We have to get to work." Derek warned. Meredith laughed and shook her butt as she left the bathroom.
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"Derek, you stayed!" Conner yelled jumping up and down in his bright green pajamas. Derek laughed and nodded his head. There was no way I was going to let him go.
"I stayed the night, Monster." Derek ruffled his hair and gave him a smile. Monster? Well I guess Derek needs to give Conner his own nickname.
"Well Conman needs to go get dressed." Meredith said walking into the room and kissing Conner's head. She tiredly got cereal, bowls and milk out.
"Why can't I go in my pajamas?" Conner whined. Meredith looked back at him and gave him her stink eye. Don't laugh Derek. Conner's eyes went wide as Derek held in a big smile. "I don't know what to wear." Conner slumped over and pouted up at Meredith.
"Well I can help with that." Meredith smiled at him and steered him up the stairs.
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"Derek, Mommy says I look good. I don't think so." Conner crossed his arms over his chest. Meredith looked down with a shocked face at Conner. He was wearing an orange t-shirt and orange and green with a white base stripped shorts.
"You look good." Derek nodded his head. Thank you! Derek grinned up at Meredith.
"The girls will like it?" Conner asked softer. Derek laughed this time and looked down at this little five-year-old boy.
"The girls will go crazy for you." Derek gave him a high five. Meredith grabbed Conner's shoes and handed them to him.
"You want me to tie them or do you want to tie them yourself?" Meredith asked grabbing a granola bar from Derek. He went into the kitchen as Meredith tied Conner's shoes.
"Mommy, did Derek have any nightmares?" Conner asked quietly looking through his eyelashes to his mother. Nightmares. No he didn't have nightmares. He did have really god dreams that he woke me up for but no nightmares.
"Why?" Meredith asked making sure Conner didn't think something.
"I didn't want him to get scared. And this morning when I went to wake you up the door was locked. I thought that Derek got scared and locked the door to keep monsters away. Did you have any nightmares?" Conner asked squishing Meredith's cheeks into a fishy face.
"Derek didn't have any-" Derek walked into the room and kissed Meredith's head.
"I didn't have any what?" Derek asked rubbing Meredith's back.
"Derek, you're supposed to kiss the fishy face not Mommy's hair. Like this." Conner made Meredith's face fishy again and gave her a quick kiss. "See." Conner looked up at Derek and smiled. Derek laughed and turned Meredith's face to his. "Do the fishy face." Conner ordered. Meredith giggled as Derek squished her cheeks together making her lips pucker out. He stared into her laughing eyes and smiled at her. "Derek, you're supposed to kiss her." Conner groaned. Derek hummed and kissed Meredith's puckered lips. Meredith smiled, as best she could with his hands making her face in the fishy position, against his lips.
"Was that right, Conner?" Derek asked pulling away from Meredith and releasing her face. Conner giggled and nodded his head bringing his hands to his mouth.
"Meredith, can I get a ride with you?" Izzie yelled from the kitchen. Meredith sighed and looked down at Conner.
"Yeah, Izzie." She yelled back. "Looks like we have to say our goodbyes to Derek." Meredith sadly informed Conner. Conner pouted and gave Meredith puppy dog eyes.
"Why?" Conner whimpered. Meredith bent down to him and cupped his chubby cheeks.
"Because I have to go to work, and you have to go to daycare and Derek has to go to work." Meredith sighed. Conner frowned deeply.
"Can't Derek come with us?" His bottom lip began to tremble.
"He has to take his own car, Connie." Meredith whispered.
"Can I go with him?" Conner asked taking a fist full of Meredith's shirt in his hands. Meredith quickly looked back at Derek frowning down at the two people he loved dearly. Conner, don't do this to me. Please don't do this.
"What about Mommy?" Meredith whispered. Conner looked at her sadly.
"We can meet you there." He whispered back. It was Meredith's turn to frown deeply at him.
"But I love my boys and I don't want to leave you." Meredith sighed. Conner dropped his head.
"I love you too, Mommy." Conner whispered pulling Meredith into a hug. Derek walked around and stared into Meredith's big eyes.
"How about I meet you two in the lobby." Derek suggested. Conner turned around as he pulled away from Meredith and looked at Derek. Thank you.
"Can we, Mommy?" Conner said getting more pep in his voice.
"Yes we can. Derek and I will take you to daycare." Meredith informed standing up and running her hand over Conner's soft blonde hair.
"Really?" Conner asked jumping up.
"Yeah." Derek smiled. Conner grinned up at him and took Meredith's hand pulling her toward the door.
"Izzie, come on!" Meredith yelled. She grabbed Conner's backpack and handed it to him.
"Okay." Izzie ran out of the kitchen and out the front door.
"See you in a bit." Derek kissed Meredith's cheek and ran out the door to his car.
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"So, Conner, what do you like to do?" Izzie asked looking out the window. Izzie, really? What do you like to do?
"Um I like to color and draw. Mommy sometimes lets me play catch with her. But that's not a lot. I like to ride my bike." Conner answered looking at Meredith through the rearview mirror. Meredith winked at him and he smiled back at her.
"Meredith likes to play catch? With what?" Izzie asked surprised.
"A baseball or a football. Sometimes we kick a soccer ball back and forth." Conner answered. "Mommy, I like this song." Conner informed. Meredith grinned and turned the radio up. That's my boy. Avoid the best you can. Izzie is a bit weird for asking you those questions and it was awkward.
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"Conner, can you be quiet for Mommy while we get on the elevator next to Derek?" Meredith asked softly. Conner looked up at her confused but nodded his head. They walked up to Derek and stood beside him. Derek looked over at them and had a little grin on his face but kept quiet too.
"Meredith, you're here early." Cristina greeted. Meredith gave her a look and Cristina nodded her head shutting her mouth. "Dr. Shepherd." Derek nodded in her direction. "I think I'm going to take the stairs. The elevator seems to be a little slow." Cristina walked slowly away. Derek chuckled and looked over at Conner.
"Your Aunt Cristina is a funny person." He whispered. Conner giggled and turned toward Cristina.
"Love you too, Cristina Yang!" He yelled out. Cristina froze and turned around. Meredith giggled and took Conner's hand as she saw several people's heads turn in both Conner's and Cristina's direction. Cristina rushed to the stairs and disappeared. Nice.
"Good job, Conman." Meredith praised. Conner grinned and they all walked into the strangely empty elevator.