Chapter 6: The Second Misery

JACOBS POV

"But what if the same thing happens to me when I see her? For all we know, it could!" I shout at Sam. He was so annoying sometimes. He was making me stay away from Bella for a week now, just because I was a werewolf. I know I was a possible threat to her, but I trusted myself that I wouldn't hurt her. After all, she was my best friend, and hopefully…soon… more than that… Suddenly a voice came from the window. A voice that made my heart fly. I whip around (it was really weird because my hair would normally smack me in the face by now…), and that's when I see her.

"Yeah, and I thought I already told you I knew you didn't have mono." Her voice was so angelic. But it was nothing, to the way she looked. If she looked beautiful to me before, it was nothing compared to now. I could really see her in a way that I never had before. I took this new Bella in with my eyes, but wanting to take her in more. This hunger I felt towards her, I had never felt before.

Gravity was changing. I staggered towards the new force of gravity, unable to stop myself, from being pulling in. Nothing mattered anymore. Nothing, except one; my new force of gravity. I would be anything for her; A friend, a brother, a boyfriend, a dog.

I was aware of the talking, but none of it made sense. "What are we going to do with her? She knows our secret and won't tell us how! What if everyone knows?!" Sam booms.

"She can't be trusted!" shouts Paul. If he took one more step forward he would be… and he stepped forward. Before I knew what I was doing, I heard my clothes ripping off of my body, and a long menacing growl erupts from my snout. DA FUCK IS HE DOING!? I just wanted to scream GET AWAY FROM HER ASSHOLE! He phased too, and we were wrestling on the floor. Sam and Embry phased, to try to split us up but I wouldn't relent. It was only when Sam thought a thought, that I forced myself to stop.

Jacob, stop! You might run into Bella and hurt her! –Sam

I stop at once, and turn towards Bella. I expected her to look horrified, and scared. But she seemed nothing less that calm. I trotted into a room, phased, put on a different pair of pants and walked back out. Everyone else had phased in another room too, and they were all staring at me. By now, they would've heard in my thought about my imprinting…

"So Jake…" says Embry, gesturing to Bella while waggling his eyes. I laughed and look back at Bella.

"Oh Embry, I knew before any of you did. While you were all staring at me, you couldn't see his expression," She says. What? How did she know? How did she know about any of this?

"How?" I ask.

"Ummm," she says, looking uncomfortable, "I'll tell you all later…"

"Why not now? What's wrong with now? Tell us, god dammit!" Paul says.

"She doesn't have to tell you if she doesn't want to!" I shout back at him. She was my first and only priority. I look back over to her and see that she's close to tears, and staring off into space. She looks back at me, and I just have a feeling that my expression set her off. She jumped back out the window and ran to her truck, but we could all hear the tears streaming down her face before she was gone.

"Weird," says Paul. I shove him into the wall and storm out of the room. Nobody should be able to make Bella cry and live to tell the tale. I decided that I would see her tonight, let her be alone for awhile…

BELLA'S POV

"Why not now? What's wrong with now? Tell us, god dammit!" Paul screams at me. I immediately think of what he wants me to tell them. My life for years… the misery… the pain… I was aware of Jacob speaking, but then I looked at his face, his face that meant he was protecting Renesmee…

I couldn't hold the tears in any longer, but I didn't want anyone to see me cry like this. I jump back out the window and sprint to my truck, the rain covering up some of the tears that have already spilled over. I start up my truck and speed back to my house, unaware of anything. I get into the bathroom, stripe down, and turn on the shower. I sit down and cry until the water turns cold, and my eyes can shed no more tears. I get out and put on a pair of grey sweatpants and a bright orange tank top. I brush out my wet tangled hair, and tie it up into a pony-tail.

I walk out of the bathroom with my head down. I go into my room and sat on my bed for a long time. It seemed like just a few minutes, but when I opened my eyes, it was dark, and raining outside, matching my mood. My stomach growled, so I got up and shuffled out of my room and down the stairs for some food. I open the fridge and pull out a box of strawberries. I sit at the counter, eating strawberries until my stomach can hold no more, and then I walk back up the stairs.

I sit on my bed, and stare at the ceiling for a few minutes. Bella, what the hell is wrong with you? Why should you be moping about the past! This is a new future for you. You can start over with the man of your dreams, and not have to worry about someone he's dated in a different future! He doesn't even know her name! You should be happy about this good fortune.

I was right. Why should I be sad about something that will never happen? Then I think about Jacob. This was my chance to shine. Not Renesmee's. And I was going to make it count.