You all asked for it, but I'm just gonna say now that I might not update for a while. I just felt the need right now to relieve you all now. KEEP READING UNTIL THE VERY END! Because if your someone like me, I would be mad at my very own story, and stop reading it in the middle. Kay, enjoy!

Chapter 15: The Sad Life of a Vampire

I remembered all of the pain from before, and this was no better. Burning hot fire being stuffed down my throat, to the very core of my body. It was all the same. Even when I looked up, and saw Edward. We were on an island all alone. Edward had turned into a complete mother-fucker. My mother always told me that stupid people shouldn't exist. I was going to make that happen.

Opening my eyes, I put on the softest face I could muster."Edward," I whispered, in a whisper of love. He smiled down at me, and pulled my head towards his chest. I put my arms around his neck, seeming it to be an embrace, and SNAP! Edward Cullen was no more than a mere memory. I made sure to burn all of the pieces.

I was alone. Totally and utterly alone in the world. I couldn't go back to Jacob. He would say otherwise, but I know that I would never be accepted back, for what I now was, thanks to that bastard. I couldn't go to the Cullen's; they would be pissed off that I killed their son.

Before I knew what I was doing, my feet were taking off into a forest, and I was in the tops of the trees, watching Embry's house. There was tortured screaming inside, that I immediately recognized as Jacob. "JACOB! You have to stop this. She wouldn't want you doing this over her," I head Embry say inside. I looked through the window, and automatically wished I hadn't. Jacob. My Jacob was tied down to a chair, screaming his heart out, his eyes, and face red from screaming and crying. There were bottles and bottles of beer and wine all around him. All empty. I couldn't stand to see him this way. Especially over me. I'm not worth this.

"Jacob, Embry is right. If she walked through the door right now, she would say that this isn't right," Quil said softly from the chair next to him.

He suddenly breaks out of the chair, and gets up all in Quil's face. "BUT SHE ISN'T FUCKING COMING BACK! THAT'S THE WHOLE FUCKING POINT! DO YOU HONESTLY THINK I WOULD BE LIKE THIS, IF I DOUBTED THAT IN ANY WAY?! I'D BE OUTSIDE, FUCKING WAITING FOR HER TO RETURN!" With that, he ran out the back door into the forest below me. I made sure to stay very still. When he was gone, I followed his trial to where he was curled up under a tree. I hop down a few branches to get a better view at him. But I had hopped down too far. He gets up and looks at where I am. I quickly go to the other side of the tree. "SHOW YOURSELF!" He bellows in my direction. "YOU SHOULD GIVE ME THE PLEASURE OF DESTROYING YOU, YOU MOTHER FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT! ONE OF YOU KILLED MY GIRLFRIEND!"

I quietly whisper back to him. "I guess that's all I am to you now, huh? A mother fucking piece of shit?"

"What the hell
are you talking about? That's all your kind ever was to me! A cold, hard, slab of stone!" He screams back. I suck in a deep breath, and turn around to sit on the branch I was standing on. I look him right in the eyes and I see the truth play out in them. "B-B-B-Bella?"He was finally able to get out.

"Hey," I whisper just loud enough for him to hear.

He puts a hand over his mouth, and more tears starts falling over his cheeks. "I'm so sorry I didn't kn-"

I cut him off. "I know, baby." We just stare at each other, knowing that this can never work.

"Please come down?" He asks, like a child who was lost in a grocery store, and I can't refuse that face. Ever. I jump down, and he envelopes me in a hug. But it lasted less than a second when we both jumped back. He was like fucking fire, and I was probably like an icicle. All we can do is look at one another. Unable to do anything else, causing too much discomfort for both of us. Even this was uncomfortable. He smelled awful, with made me start making choking noises. I loved his Jacoby smell.

"Edward is dead," I say.

"Good. I hope he burns in the fiery depths of hell until the end of forever." His eyes never left mine.

I look at my feet. "I think it's time for me to go…" I say, after a long pause.

"Please don't?!" He begs, stepping closer, as if to stop me.

"Jacob, I have to. As much as I want to, we can't be in each other's lives anymore."

"But Bell-"

"No." I go up to him and touch his burning hot cheek. "Jacob, I love you. I always will for the rest of my… existence. Please be happy. I don't want you to mope around over me. I'm not worth it. I'm a filthy god damn vampire, that doesn't deserve your love. But the girl inside me does. And she wants you to go on like you would. Get married to a beautiful women, get old, and die happy. She's gone. And there's no way to get her back. You have to face it. She has, and now she wants you to. Be happy Jacob." I kiss him one last time, savoring his hot lips, for as long as I exist. "I love you," I whisper to him, and leave his life for what I'm planning on forever.

One year later

One year. I've been a vampire for one whole year. I needed to see him. Even if he doesn't see me, I need to see him. I've been on an island alone for most of the time, only coming into reality to go shopping for new clothes when my old ones get ripped up from a rough hunting. It was time to see him again. I needed to see his smile, to keep me going for another year.

I was outside his house, concealed in the trees, watching them all. I missed them so much. He was holding a pack meeting. How did I go on this long without hearing his voice? I honestly have no idea.

"So, if these vampires are using the trees to dance around us, we need to start keeping our eyes alert above us, and below. If you do see them in the trees, howl, and we'll figure it out from there." His face wasn't happy. Even when he was serious, there was always the shadow of a smile on his lips. But now, now there was nothing. "You can all go now," he says, and walks back inside. All of the wolves turn to the forest where I'm concealed, all looking up. It didn't take long for all of their eyes to focus on me.

"Jake! Come on! You were right! One of them was listening to our conversation!" Seth shouts, running into the forest before bursting into a wolf with the others. I then see Jacob sprinting out of the house, phasing mid-stride. I bounce off of the tree tops with ease, but they don't stop chasing. I don't know what the point in running was. I just stop. They all stop too, and stare at me in the treetops, none of them seeing my face. They all phase back, craning their necks to try to get a better look at me.

"Ok, Jake, oh mighty Alpha boy, now what?" Paul sneers. Well, a year later and Paul is still an ass.

"We could knock the tree down," Quil suggests.

"And then the fucker would just jump to a different tree," Leah says, smacking Quil upside the head.

"Really, Leah? He was just trying to help. Just all of you shut up!" I didn't like the grimace on his face.

"Jake, just because you lost her a year ago, doesn't mean you have to make the rest of us miserable!" Leah screams at him.

Jacob suddenly pounces on her, boiling with rage. "What about you Leah? Huh? Ever since Sam dumped your sorry ass, all you've ever been is a mother fucking downer, making us all feel like pieces of shit! Bitchy little hypocrite!"He gets off of her and starts walking the other way, punching trees as he goes. Quil starts to go after him, but Embry stops him.

"No, let him go. He needs some time alone. Let's get back to the bloodsucker in the tree." Little did they know that I was already gone.

"Jacob?" I tentatively ask, standing behind the shirtless man in front of me, heaving like a maniac.

He froze, recognizing my voice. He turns around slowly. "Bells?" His lip starts to tremble. In the last year, nothing has made me sadder than this. Him. In such pain. Over me. Before I can even react, he's pulled me into a giant bear-hug. I missed him so much, the feel of his skin beside mine, that I didn't even mind the temperature. The feel of him was heavenly.

The sad life of a lone vampire. Knowing that you can't have the things you most desired in life. Because it wasn't life. You can never be normal. Never be you. And most importantly, you can never fall in love with werewolves. It's been so long since I held him that it was almost like a dream.

And it was.

Those evil fillers. :)