So I have taken a long needed time away from this unexpectedly due to school (im a senior so im getting ready for grad) however im back now and if i ever stop updating on chapters on schedule, i shall let you know. Anyways, you are allowed to beat me with sticks, however, before you do, read the chapter and tell me how i did?
for being an awesome beta and I thank my amazing Mira-chan95 and thanks to sapphireangel09 for getting me going on finishing the chapter. Thanks :] and Enjoy!~
"So, what was it like for you before you came here" he asked me curiously; his head laid down on the chilled grass. It was nearing dark.
"Hmm?" I murmered back, somewhat dazed. After he repeated the question, I paused, not quite sure how to answer him. A part of me wasn't sure if he was really curious or if he was just asking out of false sincerity."Uhh, good, I suppose?" He let out a low chuckle at my response though it sounded somewhat forced. At least it was as akward for him as it was for me. "Well...it was...interesting. Being with a human and all. You know." I turned to him as his expression changed. It was no longer readable. Realising what I said, I stammered out a quick and barely audible apology. I could feel the heat rise to my face. "I-I'm Sorry, I-I forgot that you don't remember" He shook his head silently, a smirk creeping onto his face.
"No. Don't worry about it."Suddenly, we lapsed into another long silence that it wasn't as akward as before anymore, it was more like a comfortable and understanding silence. I felt how calm the air seemed now.A crystal clear sound broke through the air and it took me a few moments to realise what it really was. He was the forced laughs you hear or the sarcastic ones. No, this one was real, and it was all mine.
"What is it?!" I gasped as he continued to laugh. He pulled closer, his face inches from mine."You're quite the oddball huh?" I could feel a soft breeze brush against my shoulders making my body quiver. It suddenly felt much colder then before.
"What do you mean by that!" and it took me a moment to notice how dumb I really had just sounded. His laughing faded, however, a smirk was still noticeable on his face. It looked like he was hiding a laugh.
"Well, your different" He answered back, however his words were careful. Well thought. I frowned. Was different good? Bad? Indeed he was different too, however I wasn't sure.
"You know. Your different too." His smile faded and he frowned.
"good or bad?" I thought to myself for a moment, trying to figure it out myself.
"Im not sure yet" I answered truthfully. There was more silence. Then, suddenly, his eyes changed, turning an ice blue, almost white.
"Why not" His tone, like his eyes had reformed, becoming more polite. Distant perhaps. I wasn't sure exactly.
"Im trying to figure you out." I told him. It was true. She wanted to know him better, it wasn't until now that she realized how little she knew.
"Well don't" He demanded, his tone forceful and angry. I was about to protest when he turned his head, facing away from me. He didn't sound happy. Suddenly, anger boiled in me and I found myself angry. What was he to tell her what she can and cannot do? With as much force as he had, she demanded something herself. "I want to!" I yelled back, surprised my sudden anger. My hands turned into fists. "You cant say I cant. I want to learn more about-" He got up abruptly, pushing me away with a hard force that sent me careening backwards, falling onto the ground. The fall was hardly noticed by my surprise, shock by his harshness. Then, I landed, head hitting the ground, sending my vision ajar. I stayed like that for a moment, my anger fading to fear. I had made a mistake, I crossed the line. When, I could see again, my vision no longer a blur of colors, I looked up but upon doing so, automatically sorry I had, facing his cold icy gaze and amazing turqious eyes. He looked at me hatefully and I automatically regretted what I had said, although I wasn't sure what it had been. "We have to go back now" He informed me, turning around. His tone was stoic and he sounded distant, cold. Openning my mouth, I found no words, so I closed him, then followed, dissapointed yet relieved it was all over.
I found myself back in the dwelling before I even had noticed the change, and like the setting around me, Hyourinmaru remained the same, quiet and distant. With curtesy however, he led me back to my dorm, though he remained silent the whole way. Then, when he felt his duty done, he turned and began to leave again. "W-wait!" I called out, before I could even think about what I had been planning on saying. He stopped in recognition, however, he hadn't said a word, though I needed none. I knew he was listening. "Did I say something wrong?" I had worded it in my head much better but now, it sounded like a jumble of words, hardly audible at all. But he seemed to understand, turning around to me. He walked up and placed his hand on my forehead, which startled me with his frighteningly cold touch.
"No" He answered, his voice was still austere, however, it seemed softer, not as sharp as before. "You said something that made a lot of sense" I wanted to ask what I had said exactly, however I was taken away by him, no longer able to speak. "It will just take me time to accept it" Then, with that said, he moved his hand and turned, leaving me in absolute awe. It was then that I discided something. I would find out his story, whether he liked it or not.
After cleaning myself up from the trip into the woods, I left my dorm into the main cave of the dwelling where many of the zanpactous were hanging out idly, awaiting instructions from the boss. My eyes scanned the area, searching for Hyourinmaru's familiar reitsu I was accustomed to, however it had vanished and a part of me wondered if he had been all in my head or not.
A loud laugh made me stop and without really trying, I came across Haineko from across the room. She had been keeping herself occupied, flocking around the other zanpakuto, greedily eating up any gossip she could get her paws ahold of. I shook my head, a silent laugh keeping. She had been talking with one of the boys, who looked at her like a tasty sandwich rather then another zanpactou. However, if Heineko noticed, she didn't say so allowed. I removed my eyes from the two and kept searching but sadly I found nothing. I must have looked pathetic standing there because I could see Heineko shaking her head and pointing in my direction, probably talking about what a newbie I was without her guidance. It nauseated me. Then, with there conversation ending, she left the strange zanpactou and came over to me, waving playfully. It wasn't hard to see how fake she was being. It was hurting her being around me as much as it hurt me to be around her. But to her, I was just another unfortunate soul, an apparently unfashionable one, according to her.
"So, where the hell were you!" she scolded, wagging her finger. "You leaving all sudden like that, it makes you look bad" I held in a laugh. Yeah, it wasn't hard to know that she was referring to herself. It makes her look bad. She didn't need to say it, for it to be true. I rolled my eyes.
"I was just busy okay? Im here now" Heineko scowled, her catty facial features shriveled and I found her suddenly very unattractive. She started to whine but I was blocking her out, not on purpose but because of something else that had caught my eye. Or rather, caught in my brain.
I felt my fingers began to colden till they were numb and a bright swollen pink. Opening my eyes that I didn't remember shutting, the whole surrounding seemed to vanish and I found myself among a plain of ice. The frigid air seemed to surround me, clinging to my body, sucking away all its heat as the harsh winds greedily licked at my frozen skin. Unable to bear it, I closed my eyes in vain, trying to hold back the heat and keep the cold. It seemed to work even in the slightest, the air becoming warmer. It was all in my head. The loud winds began to calm till they were reduced to a small blizzard. Then, as fast as it came, the feeling vanished and I was back in the dwelling with the other zanpactou, my body shuddering as if I was still in the cold, as Heineko spoke to me in muted words I couldn't hear. Not that I needed to hear all her shit anyways. I shook my head and spoke to her, although, I still couldn't hear my own voice.
"I have to go." Then I ran, leaving her behind, yelling inaudible words. I didn't have time for her though. I needed to find someone. I needed to find Hyourinmaru.
I ran down the hallways, damp and cold as most caves are. I ran as hard as I could, stopping sharply at a fork in the road, both leading to two unfamiliar paths leading to places I didn't know. Starring into the two halls of blackness, I realized that I had ran farther then the headquarter confines, long past any of the lighted caves that served as dorms for the zanpactou that stayed there. I was about to turn around when a familiar shiver ran down my spine in a wave. Automaticly, my thoughts went to Hyourinmaru. Was he here? Did he know I was here? I called out his name but I got no answer, only echoes of my own voice bouncing off the cave walls. I was ready to pass it off as my imagination when I felt it again, a familiar feeling of cold winds dancing on my skin. I was so surprised, so unnerved, I stood there, waiting it to pass as the other one did. But It didn't, it only grew stronger. I attempted to move my hands, which were dumbly in front of me. It took me a few seconds to feel the weight of an object in them. Something heavy, yet smooth and small. I looked my hands was a small heart made of Ice.
Next chapter should be on schedule. if not ill let you know. :] Anyways, let me know what you think and ill see you next week. Remember, if you have questions, let me know. Thanks for everyones support! Your all the world to me, my ultimate muses!!!