"Um, excuse me, Eli. I'm sorry. I-I have to go." Blaine said, getting all of his belongings and dashing out of Eli's apartment. Not hearing, listening, or even caring what he had to say right now because he couldn't believe what he had just done.
He couldn't believe it, but he did it.
And now he feels like utter and complete shit.
Tears were stinging his eyes as he rushed down the stairs to his car.
Yes, he admitted to himself, he had a moment of weakness with Kurt being in New York and all, but he never, ever thought that it would make him go and cheat on Kurt.
The man of his dreams.
His other half.
His high school sweetheart…
Blaine got into his car and as he was about to put his keys in the ignition, he stopped as he came to a late realization: Kurt was his soulmate….The only person in whole world you would understand him.
After that, the tears wouldn't stop coming.
He had cheated on the one person he truly and deeply loved.
Blaine continued to cry as he put the keys in the ignition and drove away.
Just the thought of seeing Kurt's broken face when he told him…
Oh god…, Blaine thought.
How the hell was he supposed to tell Kurt, but he was just…scared.
For the very first time in his life, Blaine was scared. Scared beyond all reason.
Scared out of his wits because Kurt is his shining light and there will never be anyone else like him in the world.
Blaine pulled up into his driveway. His parents weren't home.
Good.
He did not need them to be pestering him at the moment.
He got out of his car and quickly went into the house. Blaine rushed to his room and got under the covers.
And just cried. Blaine cried, cried, and cried until the only sound emitting from him were those terrible sounding hiccups a person gets after they just can't cry anymore.
His eyes all red and swollen. Blaine's body wrapped in his comforter, where the only thing visible was his face.
Blaine started to feel tired and his eyes fluttered shut.
He was so close to fully going to sleep until his cell phone rang. He completely forgot to put it on silent. Blaine struggled to get out of the covers, but ultimately succeeded and picked up the phone.
…And froze when he saw what the caller ID said…
It was Kurt. Blaine's eyes soon became watery again as he bit his lip as to whether or not to answer his phone.
Screw it, he thought.
It's his Kurt and he would answer the phone whether he has a huge lump in his throat or not.
Blaine tried to clear his throat as he wiped his eyes as he pressed the talk button. He could hear Kurt smile even before he started talking, which in turn put a very watery smile on Blaine's face.
"Hey, B!" Kurt said happily.
HI, honey." Blaine sniffled. "How are you?"
There was a slight pause at the end. "Go..od..?"
"Are you okay? Are you getting sick? I hear sniffling." Kurt added with concern.
"Oh yeah. Yup. A classmate gave it to me. It's no big deal. I'll get better." Blaine lied.
Kurt chuckled. "Okay then. You better! Anyways, I didn't think I'd catch you right now. I thought you'd be doing homework . How was your day today?"
Oh, I just did a very idiotic thing by cheating on you with a guy I met on facebook because I literally miss you too bits, Blaine thought. But, he actually just chuckled nervously and said, "Oh, nothing really. Just lying here in bed, taking some Nyquil. How's New York?"
Kurt beamed at that question. "It's amazing! is amazing and Isabelle is an absolute dream."
Blaine was happy that Kurt was happy.
He paused for a minute and sighed as the smile started to disappear from his face.
"Kurt, I-I"
"Yeah, Blaine?"
Blaine hesitated as new tears started to fall down his face. "I-I miss you, Kurt. So, so much."
"I miss you too, B." Kurt paused for a second. Blaine could hear Rachel in the background.
Kurt groaned. "Oh goodness. Rachel needs me. I'll try to call you back."
"Okay." Blaine whispered.
"I love you, Blaine." Kurt said tenderly.
"I love you too.
Kurt hung up and Blaine was left in silence.
He couldn't believe he almost told Kurt.
If there was anything that would hurt Kurt, it would be Blaine telling him he cheated over the phone.
If he was going to tell Kurt – and he most certainly would- he would tell him in person.
And out of all the pain he felt.
Out of all the guilt and disappointment he had within himself…
He felt a new emotion that he always took for granted until now.
Blaine felt so incredibly sad.
So sad that he felt like nothing could ever pull him out of the enormous hole that he had created for himself.