School was boring today like every other day. I walked around from class to class like a zombie. No one talked to me . Since I was always spaced out in class I rarely answered any questions correctly. Teachers must have taken pity on me because they finally stopped calling on me.

The only time I would find myself smiling slightly was when I would think of Jacob. Sometimes I couldn't believe how patient and how caring he was with me. He was far too good to me.

He knows how broken and vulnerable I am, but he still insists on always being there for me. Somehow I believe he always will be. My strong belief in our friendship is what keeps me hanging on to the last strand of sanity. He might be a year younger than me but his maturity is that of a grown man. And that body. Yes his body is not that of a 17 year old boy. I wonder what he's up to right now.

" Bel-la ! You didn't hear a word I said did you?", Mike was waving his hand in front of my face.

It was lunch time and Mike, Angela and Ben, Jessica, along with Lauren and I were seated together around a round table. I looked up and my eyes automatically shifted to the empty Cullen lunch table.

It will be as if I never existed.

What a cocky bastard Edward is. Didn't he realize that everything around me would trigger his memory?

" Jesus ,she's daydreaming about Edward Cullen again. It's been months . Stop acting like such a nutcase already" Lauren's nasally voice jarred me back to reality.

I looked at Lauren and she was smiling at me cruelly. Her sidekick Jessica had an evil gleam in her eye. Stupid bitch enjoyed watching me flinch whenever Lauren uttered his name.

I choose to ignore her comment and instead looked out the window pretending to take interest in the school parking lot.

" Anyways", Mike began, " I was wondering if you wanted to come with us down to La Push this Saturday night. Were all driving there in my van that way only one person has to be the designated driver, " he wiggled his eyebrows at Angela and she nodded.

" I don't mind being the designated driver at all guys, " Angela looked around the table and then focused on me." Bella I really want you to come. It will be fun. Please come," she flashed me the sweetest smile.

" Yes Bella please come, " Lauren sneered and rolled her eyes at Jessica who in turn shot me a cold glare.

Bitches. Well now I knew I had to go even if it was just to spite the both of them.

I smiled sweetly at them and turned to Angela , " You know what actually I would love to go with you guys I've missed hanging out with you Angela. Mike and Ben I've missed you guys too."

I purposely left out Lauren's and Jessica's names which did not go unnoticed.

" I might just tell my friend Jacob to stop by along with the rest of his pack. Nobody minds right?," I laughed at my inside joke.

" Not at all Bel-la, " Lauren answered sneering my name. " I heard the Quilette boys are hot. Jessica and I will just have to make sure to look super cute on Saturday," she giggled evilly and then winked at Jessica.

The bell signaling the end of the lunch period rang then and I swiftly grabbed my bookbag and proceeded to shuffle out of the dining hall without even stumbling once. For some reason I suddenly had a very strong urge to also look cute on Saturday.

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"Ang! Angela! Wait up!," I was practically panting by the time I reached Angela at the back of the school parking lot.

" What's up Bella? You know I'm really sorry about Lauren and Jessica those two don't know when to quit sometimes. I should have said something. I feel bad." Angela fidgeted nervously while she said this and I saw Ben give her a reassuring squeeze on the arm.

" No worries Ang really. I try and let their comments roll of my back whenever possible. But I was hoping you could do me a small favor?" it was my turn to smile sweetly.

" I'd love to Bella. What do you need?" she leaned in closer and looked at me expectantly.

" Well, I was hoping you could come to Port Angeles with me tonight. I'm in dire need of some new clothes." Angela smiled. " I cant even remember the last time I went shopping and I want to wear something new on Saturday" Angela smiled wider. " So , umm, I was hoping you could help me pick some new stuff out?"

Why is she looking at me like that?

" Well?" I asked suddenly nervous.

" Jacob?" she whispered his name like it was a question.

What was she hinting at? Finally it hit me. She thought I wanted to look cute for Jacob Black. I swallowed the urge to laugh out loud and answered her calmly.

"No, jeez no Angela he's just a friend. I really do need some new clothes that's all."

Angela's smile disappeared and she whispered in my ear, " Bella it's alright to have feelings for someone else than, well than him, you shouldn't hang on to a false hope anymore. I see the way your eyes sparkle whenever you mention Jacob's name. No worries though , your secret is safe with me."

I choose not to say anything and just nodded. I didn't feel like explaining to her that Jacob was my sunshine and that I would forever be in love with a vampire.

We agreed that I would pick her up from her house in an hour to go to Port Angeles. I bid her goodbye and climbed into my truck to go home.

I really did just need new clothes didn't I ? Angela was completely wrong. Of course I loved Jacob but I was not in love with him. I already gave my love away. It's too bad that he choose to step on it. Yes, Jacob was beautiful , handsome even, but that just meant I wasn't blind to the obvious. Fine, so I knew a part of me wanted to look cute on Saturday because Jacob would be there. But no ,that wasn't the reason I wanted to look cute. Those two bitches Lauren and Jessica would be there and they'd have to walk over my dead body before I let either of them sink their claws into my Jacob. I was simply protecting what's mine. A cute set of clothes would simply give me the confidence to do it more effectively.

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I smiled to myself as I hung all my new clothes in my closet. Shopping with Angela was a lot of fun. We walked around the whole mall and I was even a little surprised to find out that I actually enjoyed myself. She helped me pick out the perfect outfit for this Saturday – a pair of black skinny jeans paired with very feminine black sandals, and an off the shoulder blue top. It was nice but not overly dressy. A small part of me was undeniably curious to actually see Jacob's reaction to my outfit. As soon as I started thinking about Jacob the phone rang. I ran down the stairs and answered breathlessly.

" Hello?"

" Hey Bells! It's your best friend calling!" he sang out cheerfully. It was so good to hear his voice. I saw him this morning but I already missed him terribly.

" Jake , hey, I miss you already! What's up?" I sang out just as cheerfully as I made my way upstairs.

" Did you forget? I 'm calling to tell you what's going down at La Push this Saturday night!"