A chapter from Jacob's point of view will be coming up really soon! ( Here's a lil poem ; something that perhaps poor Jacob might be feeling :)

Looking at those eyes that don't lie
She's got me entranced
Just by chancing a look at her hips
I'm envisioning so much…
Our sexual tension doesn't lie
It's her and I and no one else
The temperatures rising

I want her too much, so much it hurts

The thought of tasting her lips keeps me up at night

Every time we're together our sexual tension

Hits me like a steel freight train

I steal a moment to catch my breath
We're in our own world
The sexual tension just building
Begging for its release
Praying just to be free

I want to scream at her

That It's about time she let go

Because I want her, I want her, I want her…

" Thanks Mike. See you in school guys !" I waved to everyone as I made my way up the stairs to my house. Angela whispered , " Call me, " to which I nodded. My curiosity spiked even higher. I really wonder what's up. She wasn't the type to gossip. It had to be something good.

I turned the key in the lock and threw the front door open. " Hey dad! I'm home, " my voice was loud and steady but I must admit I was a little nervous. I hope Charlie wasn't too mad about me staying out all night. I still didn't know if it was a good or bad thing that it happened to be Jake's house I slept over at again this week. I didn't need Charlie thinking something was up between us. It would only make him mindful of how much time I spent with Jake. I also didn't want him drilling me every time Jake and I planned to hang out. I walked into the kitchen and threw my stuff on the table. I heard the television in the front room click off. Great. A talk was imminent.

Charlie walked into my view and leaned against the doorframe. He looked exhausted. He must have stayed up half the night worrying about me. I felt guilty about staying out all night without letting him know in advance. He was much more lenient and easygoing about things like curfews and friends ever since I went catatonic because he left me. Oh no, please don't let my thoughts wonder to him, to them. I don't want to cry today. Please. Now I'm almost hoping Charlie will try and ground me so that I can get angry and start a fight with him effectively distracting myself from all other thoughts. My sadness and then immediate panic afterwards must have registered with Charlie because he walked up to me and put a hand on my shoulder.

" Promise me you will let me know the next time you plan to spend the night at a friend's house. "

I nodded. " Sorry dad, it was really irresponsible of me not to call."

He walked over to the fridge and pulled out a beer. " Yes it was. I was worried kiddo."

" Sorry."

I busied myself with cleaning up the dishes in the sink. After he didn't leave the kitchen like I expected him to, I knew he was gearing up for part two of the conversation. A hunch told me Jake's name would come up in this part. Sigh. I knew I was a fool for expecting it to be this easy. Charlie sat at the kitchen table and cleared his throat. Here we go.

" So, you and Jacob really grew into close friends. " That was more of a statement than a question so I just nodded without turning away from my task at hand.

" I'm glad that you have someone to talk to Bells. Jake is a good kid."

Silence. I hope Charlie knew better than to bring him up.

" But I see how that boy looks at you. He wants more than friendship. I'm sure you know that too?" Charlie was playing with his beer can. He was just as uncomfortable as I was. Good.

" Yes I know. Dad we are only friends. Jake knows I'm not ready to date." Oh please let this conversation be over. There was too much talk about dating and boys and they were triggering too many bad memories. " He's not the type to push it." Too much I thought to myself. " Don't worry."

" Well," he looked out the window thoughtfully, " I just need to know the moment you two are more than friends. That's when the sleepovers end." He took a long sip of his beer, finishing it, and crushed the can in his hand.

I didn't feel like arguing or explaining to him that I am beyond broken and unsure if I will ever be ready to date so I just nodded and made my way upstairs. Besides, I thought to myself, Jacob deserved so much better than a shell of a person I once was. He was kind, caring, funny, and handsome and he deserved a girl without baggage. I just didn't know how I would stop myself from clawing her eyes out once Jacob finally found her. Just the thought of Jake imprinting on some girl out there made me sick to the stomach. I turned on my small bedside radio in an effort to distract myself. It's been ages since I listened to any music. I tidied my room up a bit just in case Jake would want to hang out here later tonight. I also remembered I was supposed to call Angela, but decided on another shower first because Jake's orange unscented soap left my skin feeling dry. I turned up the radio and made my way towards the washroom. Just as I closed the bathroom door I heard one of Rihanna's new songs " Cold Case Love" come on the radio.

C'mon, c'mon pick up the damn phone I thought to myself. On the fifth ring she finally did.

" Angela, hey, what's up? You told me to call." Let's see what this is all about. I was honestly curious.

" Yeah I really want to talk to you. First, how come you never told me that Jacob Black is downright gorgeous?!" Her voice went up a few octaves towards the end. I couldn't help but laugh. She was completely right though, Jake is beautiful.

" I dunno Ang. We're best friends, it's a little weird to be focusing on his psychical looks so much."

" He is completely gaga over you. Lucky girl. The way he stares at you is so intense that I feel like I'm interrupting a private moment when I observe him watching you."

Her words made me blush. Thank god she couldn't see me through the phone. I decided to switch the topic.

" You said you needed to tell me something?" I grew nervous and began to drum my fingernails against my desk.

" Oh yeah, listen to this. Lauren is such a bitch. Do you remember last night when we were all dancing around the bonfire?"

" Yeah?" What was she getting at?

" Did you notice she was nowhere in sight?"

" Yeah? What's this about Angela just spit it out already." I began pacing around my room. Nothing to do with Lauren is ever good.

" Well, when we started dancing around the bonfire she left to go after Jacob. It was her intention to seduce him."

I gasped. " No way! How do you know this?" It was a struggle to keep my voice even. Inside I was seething with anger and jealousy.

" After you and Jake left she became really pissed off. After a small tantrum she started blabbering all about it. She still hasn't given up. Supposedly she has some moronic plan to seduce him during our vacation on spring break. Honestly, Ben and I think that's the only reason she invited you. She wanted to make sure Jacob would also be there. "

I couldn't speak . I was too furious. How dare she try and make a move on my best friend? If I have to I'll rip out all her limbs in order to stop her from making a play at Jake. Yes, that's what I'll do. First, I'll rip off her arms and legs. Then I'll chop her to pieces until there's nothing left but her stupid head. Lastly, I'll cheerfully parade her head on a stick through town. I hope my dad won't mind.

She is such a bitch. Tears stung my eyes and I was yet to answer Angela.

" Bella, calm down. You honestly don't think she has a chance do you? Jacob Black didn't acknowledge her once at the bonfire. He sees only you. Honestly, you should be able to laugh at this because you'll have a front row seat when she tanks and bombs." Her voice was hushed and meant to soothe me.

" I'm okay Angela. I calmed down a bit. I just can't believe someone can be such a fake bitch. It's like she takes pleasure in bringing me down." I sat on the edge of my bed and let out a shaky breath. I kept telling myself over and over that she didn't stand a chance. Jacob would never hook up with her.

" I honestly think she does enjoy bringing people down. I think the only reason she wants Jacob so much is because Jacob wants you. That has her fuming. She is utterly jealous that all the best looking guys want you and not her." She said the last sentence quietly and carefully and I knew why. Before Jake there was him, and he was also undoubtedly beautiful.

Now that I was over the initial shock, I needed to recap all of this. I wanted to be alone with my thoughts.

" Thanks for letting me know Ang. I can't wait to see her fail. I'm pretty sure she'll be an even bigger bitch to me now that she's after Jake. I'll see you tomorrow in class." I didn't wait for her to say goodbye but just hung up the phone. I'm sure she would understand.

That little bitch! Was I honestly surprised she would try to go after Jake? When I thought about it I really wasn't. Lauren was cruel and evil. I let out a dry laugh when I imagined her leaving the bonfire to go look for Jake on the beach. Too bad she didn't know he was probably halfway to Seattle by the time she decided to follow him.

I was laying down on the bed with a pillow over my head. My whole body was stiff with anger and jealousy. I turned the volume on the radio to full. John Mayer's " Half of my Heart" came blasting through the speakers. C'mon, John, your songs were always able to calm me down in the past.

What would have happened if Lauren would have found Jake on the beach? Would he have been interested? I squeezed the pillow tighter at all the possible ways Lauren would have surely tried to seduce him. She certainly wasn't shy nor a virgin. Would she have slept with him? I chuckled to myself. Of course she would have if given the chance. Wait, but would Jake? No, I had to believe he wouldn't go for someone as shallow and empty as Lauren. But again, he was a man, and every man has his needs and desires. C'mon Bella, Jacob is different than that. I don't believe he would do it just because an opportunity presented itself. He's much deeper than that. Yes, I'm sure Jake will not go for Lauren. Let that bitch make a fool of herself and try. I'll be silently laughing the whole time.

I sat up and looked at the clock. It was already past five pm. Billy and Jake would be here in about two hours. I changed into a pair of blue jeans and a white baby tee. I decided to wear my hair down, so I put some moose into it and scrunched it up a bit for that messy wind blown look. Messy-wind blown look? Someone's been watching too many hair care commercials, I thought shaking my head.

I went downstairs to clean up a bit in the living room and get some food ready for the men. Just as I was pulling out the lasagna out of the oven, one of Jake's favorite, I heard Billy's truck pull into the driveway.

" Dad! They're here!"

Jacob didn't need any help pulling Billy out of the car and into the house, but of course Charlie didn't know that and went to help him.

I went out on the front porch to watch them. The three of them were too funny. Billy had a mountain of beer in his lap and was yelling at Charlie to be careful and not dirty up his wheelchair. Jacob was clearly impatient, pretending to need Charlie's help lowering Billy into the wheelchair. His mouth was stuffed full of what looked like potato chips.

" I hope you guys are hungry. I made a huge dish of lasagna." Honestly the only reason I made so much was because I know Jacob will need to eat a bigger half of it to be full. I didn't want him to go hungry all evening.

" It's my favorite, but you already knew that." His tone was saturated with an emotion I couldn't quite place. I was leaning against the kitchen counter and he was standing two feet in front of me, his eyes burning into mine. When I blushed at the intensity of his gaze, his lips twitched into a breathtaking smile.

" Yeah, anyways, the game will be on in a few minutes. Bella, I hope you don't mind us eating in the living room?" asked Charlie. He was studying Jacob and I intently , looking back and forth between us.

I broke Jake's eye contact and looked at my dad.

" Umm, no , not at all. You guys go and make yourselves comfortable and I'll bring you your plates." Charlie and Billy both grunted in approval; they were clearly excited about the upcoming game.

I turned around and got busy preparing their plates. Jacob was still standing in the same spot, completely relaxed, with his hands in his jeans. I could feel his gaze travel down my back and thighs. It must have stayed there for a minute before it moved and began to scorch my hips and butt. I played oblivious to his wondering eyes, trying really hard not to squirm under his fervent gazing. I let out a whoosh of air I didn't realize I was holding when Jacob left the kitchen to go hand the men some cold beers.

Okay Bella. Stay calm and try to look relaxed. It's Jacob Black; your best friend. Sure the electric current that seems to jump between us two whenever were in close proximities is intense, but that just means you find him attractive. Of course you do , he's very good looking. He's growing bolder and bolder lately, subtly blurring the lines here and there. Other times he holds no regard for the boundaries of our friendship at all. Maybe I have stronger feelings than just friendship, but I can't act on them. I just can't. If we took that step and he, gulp, imprinted, I wouldn't survive it. I was sure of it. Besides, I'm not the girl I was once. I'm broken now. I don't deserve him. I have to gently remind him that we are in fact only friends. I hated the thought of hurting Jacob, but I needed to do this before his hope swelled too much. I also needed to apologize for reacting the way I did to his touch. Once again, I would remind him that I'm just a shell that has nothing to offer him. Besides ,he didn't imprint on me, I wasn't his soul mate.

I spent the rest of the afternoon seated between Charlie and Jake, pretending to be interested in the game playing on the television. I don't think I fooled anyone. I kept stealing glances at Jake, but every time I looked at him he would suddenly become engrossed in the television. I let out an annoyed huff of air a few times, but that only made him smirk. From time to time I could also feel Billy and my dad watching us. That made me a little nervous, I didn't want them to read more into our friendship than what was really going on. I tried to get Jake's attention so that we could finally talk about what happened at the bonfire, but he kept studiously ignoring all my signals to meet in the kitchen. Fine. You can't delay this forever. I grew more and more anxious as the night went on. I was mentally prepared and I wanted to have this discussion with Jake tonight.

The game finally ended; Jake and his dad were getting ready to leave. Charlie and Billy were upset over the loss of their team; they were talking heatedly in the hallway. I saw my chance and grabbed Jake's arm and pulled him out on the front porch closing the door behind me. I knew this wasn't the right place or time for this conversation, but I had to at least scold him for playing dumb all evening. I looked up at him. He had a huge grin on his face, yep, he was playing dumb.

" What the hell Jake! You know very well that I've been trying to get your attention all evening. We need to talk and you know it." I crossed my arms.

He put a hand on my shoulder and looked into my eyes. " Yeah, I suppose your right Bells."

I brushed his hand of my shoulder. I didn't want to be touched. " Why were you ignoring me all night?"

" Because I figured if we didn't get a chance to talk while I'm at your place, then you would allow me to take you somewhere cool tonight. That way we get to talk," he motioned between us, " and I get to take you somewhere special."

What the hell is he talking about? He knows very well that Charlie will be angry with me going out this late, especially since I have school early tomorrow morning. He was about to be disappointed.

" I don't want to get on Charlie's nerves. He'll be upset. Anyways what is this special place?" I unconsciously took a small step away from him. This was sounding too much like a date. Jacob's eyes didn't miss the small movement.

" It's a place I like to go to when I want to be alone and clear my thoughts. You'll love it. It's beautiful, there's a waterfall and even a small lake. The water is crystal clear too." It seemed like he wanted to close the distance I put between us , but then at the last second thought better of it.

" You mean it's somewhere out in the forest?" I wasn't expecting this.

He let out a throaty laugh. For a few seconds I was distracted by his Adam's apple bobbing up and down. It looked like he was about to be a smart ass and say something witty, but instead he just rolled his eyes, " Yes, Bella, the forest. Now are you going to come with me or not?"

" How will I get there? You know I'm a terrible hiker."Again, he rolled his eyes and after a second pursed his lips. Was I being dense?

" I can carry you. Or if you prefer you can ride me."

He raised an eyebrow in question and I blushed. Furiously. I broke his gaze and suddenly found the porch interesting. I could feel the heat rising up in my face. My heart started drumming out a fast rhythm.

" Jeez Bells. Dirty mind much?"

Jackass. He knew exactly what he was doing. He enjoyed teasing me like this. I still couldn't meet his eyes. He stepped in front of me and raised my chin, making me meet his eyes. He had a huge grin on his face.

" What I meant was that if you want, you can ride on my back while I'm in wolf form."

" Yeah. Got it. Thanks." He thought he was so smart teasing me like this. Suddenly Jake in wolf form sounded very appealing. I wouldn't have to listen to any more of his smart ass comments on the way to wherever he was taking me.

I could hear Charlie pushing Billy towards the front door. We had only seconds of privacy left.

" I'll be here at midnight, " Jake whispered at the last second and I nodded quickly.

I was dressed the same as earlier except I put on a black cardigan over my baby tee. It was 11: 53 and I was ready, quietly waiting for Jacob on my front porch. Charlie was upstairs snoring lightly in his bed, asleep for over an hour. I was both excited and a little nervous about tonight. I was slightly dreading the talk I knew I needed to have with Jacob, but at the same time I was excited at seeing Jacob, no of riding on Jake's back, while he was in wolf form. I've seen Jake in wolf form several times, but he never asked me to touch him, and not knowing proper werewolf etiquette I was too afraid to ask if I could. He didnt scare me when he was a wolf, on the contrary, I found him even more amazing like that. I looked at my watch, 11:57. I had a few more minutes to gather my thoughts and so I closed my eyes and played our impending conversation, imagining the way it will go, in my head.

I felt liquid trails of fire on my face and neck and opened my eyes. A big russet wolf was standing directly in front of me, just several feet away from me; it's eyes boring into mine. Jacob. I had to choke back a scream at having been startled like that. Jerk. I shot him a glare and stood up. He was huge, and magnificent, and completely breathtaking. Alright, here we go I thought. I smiled and took a small, but shaky step towards him.