You couldn't understand,
even if you tried,
the reason that she cries at night,
the reason she tries to hide.

Don't try to come close,
she'll just push you away,
there's something that you don't know,
words she couldn't say.

She tries with all her might,
to be herself around her friends,
but something doesn't feel right,
a broken heart that could not mend.

She pretends that she's strong,
a tough outer shell,
but there's always something wrong,
she's trapped in her Hell.

She wants to speak,
to tell you all the truth,
but she is way too weak,
broken without any glue.

Painfully shy;
the bird that couldn't fly.
Dying on the inside;
a body without a mind.

Is anyone out there able to fix her ?

" I will never leave you," Jacob whispered, pressing wet kisses up my neck and along my jaw to my ear. He covered my body with his, placing his forearms on either side of my face. His head lowered and he pressed his moist lips against mine.

" I will never hurt you," he breathed on my lips. I whimpered and attacked his mouth with mine, messily kissing him, my teeth pressing into his lips. He grunted softly and bucked his hips into mine gently.

" Jacob," I moaned and his hips rocked against mine again, this time more forcefully.

" God," he whispered hoarsely and trailed his tongue along my collarbone. " I have wanted to hear you say my name like that in so long."

I smiled, and opened my eyes to complete darkness. It must be the middle of the night. I lay still and allowed my eyes to adjust to my surroundings. I knew precisely what had just happened. I had just dreamed of Jacob. Jacob. Not only did I not have a nightmare about him, but instead I had a very erotic dream about Jake. Surprisingly, I felt utterly calm, utterly serene, and even a little happy. I quickly replayed all the parts of the dream I could still remember and felt my cheeks and neck turn hot with my blush. I had not really thought of my best friend this way before, but surprisingly I was not completely mortified at the train of thought in my head. Jake was beautiful in every single way and for some reason he loved me. My brain must have just expressed all this knowledge in the form of an erotic dream.

Just then, a noise at my window broke my train of thought. Is someone out there? My heart started pounding frantically in my chest. I slid of the bed and pulled the curtain open. Jacob. I was both relieved and confused at the same time.

" What are you doing here?" I whispered, knowing he would be able to hear me.

His lips mouthed for me to open the window. Was he really going to climb into my bedroom in the middle of the night? I hesitated, unsure of what to do. I didn't want Charlie waking up and finding Jake in my bedroom. That would be really bad, but one look at his pleading face and I conceded. I pushed the window up and climbed back into bed.

He jumped lithely through the window and smiled breathtakingly at me. I arched an eyebrow in response. I was waiting for an explanation as to why he was lurking around my yard in the middle of the night. He rolled his eyes before taking a step towards the bed and freezing. His eyes dilated and a strange expression crossed his face.

" Jake? "Why is he acting so strange? I looked down at myself. No, I wasn't naked.

" Is something wrong?" I untangled myself from the sheets and scooted to the edge of the bed.

He exhaled slowly and shook his head once.

" Nothing is wrong," he whispered hoarsely and sat down next to me.

" What were you doing? How come you're awake?"

Why was I awake? The memory of my erotic dream hit me full force and I blushed , breaking eye contact with Jake. I swear I saw an amused expression cross his face before I looked away.

" I had a dream. And I woke up." I said and waved my hand dismissively.

" The more important question is why you are lurking outside my window in the middle of the night?"

" I was patrolling the nearby area when I heard you talking. At first I thought you were talking to Charlie, but then I realized you were talking in your sleep." He paused ,studying my reaction. I looked away and bit my lip nervously. Oh God. What did I say? Is this why he looks so strange?

" And once I realized that you had woken up I decided to come in and say hi. I missed you. I haven't seen you in days Bella." He grabbed my hand and gently skimmed his lips across my knuckles. His eyes seemed darker than usual. I realized his entire chest was expanding and contracting with the deep breaths he was taking. It almost looked like he was tasting the air?

" Why are you breathing like that?" He couldn't be tired.

He seemed to be contemplating on how to answer me. Seconds passed and he still didn't say anything.

" Jake?"

" I can smell you, you know."

I looked at him confused. Did I smell bad? I took a shower before I went to sleep.

" What do you mean?"

" Bella," he started off slowly. Was he blushing?

" I can smell you… your… arousal." He whispered huskily.

I kept looking at him like an idiot. It took me a few seconds for what he had just said to click together.

" Jacob. Oh my god." Heat flooded my entire face and I tried twisting away from him, but he held my hand tightly. When did I? The dream!

" Shh. It's okay. I could have lied, but I'm being honest with you here." He attempted eye contact with me, but I kept looking away. " That's why I was acting like an idiot when I came in." He paused and took another deep breath. I groaned , completely mortified. " You smell, phenomenal."

I still couldn't meet his eyes. I attempted to twist away from him again. Instead of letting me go, he pulled me in tightly against his chest.

" Don't be embarrassed honey. You really do smell phenomenal." He let out a shaky breath " Better than I ever imagined."

I groaned and molded myself closer against him. At least this way I didn't have to look at him. I refused to analyze what he must be thinking or the fact that he just admitted to having imagined how my… how I might smell like. Minutes passed before I finally looked up at him. He smiled.

" Okay. These are just some of the things I have to deal with you being a werewolf and all. " I shot him a glare when he chuckled.

" So does that mean you're going to tell me what your dream was about?" He laughed quietly when I tried to smack him.

" Not a chance. It's late. Shouldn't you be out somewhere peeing on a tree?" This time when I tried untwisting myself from him, he let me. I crawled under my covers.

" I really did miss you Bells. I haven't seen you at all this week."

" I know. I missed you too." His face softened and he smiled at my words. " I've just been swamped with homework that's all"

We both yawned at the same time.

" You look so exhausted. How long were you on patrol? "

" A few hours."

" You should go home and get some sleep."

" I don't want to leave." Something about the way he said it made me feel that he desperately needed to be close to me. I wouldn't make him leave.

He wanted permission to sleep over. I quickly scanned my room. No, I wouldn't make him sleep on the floor.

" Climb in," I whispered quietly and patted the spot next to me.

A huge smile broke out on his face and he nodded eagerly. He looked both cute and positively beautiful climbing under my covers. My small bed barely provided enough room for the both of us. I turned around so that I could face him.

" No funny business." I warned jokingly and attempted to give him a stern look.

He chuckled darkly and pulled me in close. I brought my nose against his naked chest and inhaled deeply.

" I love the way you smell. "

" I love the way you smell," he retorted huskily.

Hell, I walked myself into that one.

After a few minutes of him humming into my ear, I found myself completely relaxing in his arms. They felt so strong. I would never tell him that his strength secretly thrilled me.

" Bells?"

" Hmm?"

" The pack is hanging out in Port Angeles tomorrow. Wanna come ?"

" Sure. Count me in. " I mumbled sleepily against his chest.

" Good." He pulled me in tighter and brushed his lips against my forehead. They seemed hotter than the rest of him.

As I was entering the first stages of sleep and on the last verge of consciousness I swear I heard Jake whisper ,

" Fuck, I love you so much."

But maybe I was already dreaming.

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