I didn't sleep all night I had a nightmare. A nightmare that awoke me and that made me cry. And...I was crying. I had my back to te head of my bed as I hugged my knees. My face was down at my knees...crying. I coyldnt stop crying.
I cried silently so others wouldn't hear me. I didn't want anyone to worry about me. I said I was fine...but I'm not fine.
Why does this happen to me. I should of listened to myself in the first place. Where I said that love...was something that got in your way but...but sparks. He showed me that love can be a beautiful thing. Till now.
Love is a disturbance. Its only here to get in your way.
Then a knock came at my door.
"Nova?" I gasped and lifted my head up. It was Sparks.
"Nova...I know your awake. Please open the door." He said. I don't know if I should. I should probably just let him know my real feelings. And I would probably feel better.
I slowly got of the bed I wiped my eyes and opened the door. I quickly turned my back to him. I didn't want him to see me crying...for him.
"Nova...I want to take this chance...to talk." He said.
I sighed.
"Sparks...you don't need to say anything. I saw you the first time...A-And...the second...time." I said as my voice began to crack.
"What?" He asked.
I took a deep breath.
"Yesterday...next to the foot of the...R-Robot." I said.
He didn't say anything.
"I saw you with her...I saw you." I whispered the last three words. I crossed my arms and clenched my fists into hands. I took another deep breath.
"So its okay...Let me meet your girlfriend...I'm sure we'll be great friends." I said. Tears came to my eyes. "No...wait...Nova. I can explain this!" He yelped.
"Then explain." I said. I was going to let him talk. Because if I said nything else I would break up into tears.
"I...I was broken...what you said to me broke my heart. I was mad...I eas furious that Troy took out on a date...I was so mad that...Bri came around..."
Bri..so that's her name.
"S-She wanted me...I told her no many times but he woulnt listen. I then heard you and Troy. I heard you and I peeked over nd soon I saw how close he held you...how you let him! I felt anger explode inside of me. I grabbed Bri and kissed her...just hoping the saddness...and the anger wil go away. But it didn't." He said.
I stayed quiet.
"Nova...please face me." He said.
I didn't my back stayed towards him.
But I felt his arms on mine. He turned me around and saw my swollen eyes...He saw my tears...nd he saw my saddness.
"Nova.." he whispered.
I got out of his arms.
"Please go Sparks." I whispered.
He shook his head no.
"Please go." I repeated.
Instead he grabbed my waist and brought me closer. I felt my arms trapped between his chest nd mine. I stared at him and he just looked at me.
"You still care about me...don't you!?" He said as he shook me alittle.
"No." I said simply.
"Yes you do. You tell me you hate me...you tell that you don't want to see me when that's what you want to do. I can see in your eyes that you want to kiss me...hug me...you want me to kis you to touch you." He whispered.
I got out of his arms.
"No...I don't want you anymorme...you disgust me. I hate you. You think I still have feelings for you!...well I don't...its probably you thay can't except me loving you. Your a huge flirt that you want every girl to fight for you and except you anyways. Well I'm not like that...I'm not going to fight for a guy that doesn't love ...I'm not going to fight for a guy who doesn't respect me...so just go." I said.
I didn't want to cry and I was trying very hard to hold back my tears that burned me. He shook his head.
"You still love me...You cry for me just like I do about you. You think I sleep at night...you think I'm happy...no I'm not...I'm miserable. I did something that hurt you. I did something that I hate...because it made me loose the best girl ever." He said.
He grabbed my hands.
"Please forgive me Nova...Please." he whispered.
Review...will nova forgive him?
Should she?