Sorry I haven't updated I've been sick like really bad. I just got out of the hospital and am still stuck on bed rest. I have to admit I am not a really smart person who never really had a way with words so finding the words that Maura would say was the hardest thing I have ever written. I just knew that she would give Jane one hell of a speech because, lets face it. It's Maura we're talking about Hopefully I found the right ones. thanks for the reviews and kind words. I hope to have this finished by Christmas day.

Maura walked into the hospital room seeing Jane laying in that bed brought bad memories. Last time they were there everyone thought Jane was dying. Walking over to the window she stood looking out for a few moments not know that she was so close to Jane and Michael both could have reached out and touched her. Turning around the blonde walked over to the bed picking up Jane's hand she held it close to her heart and started to tear up. Jane wanted nothing more then to wrap her arms around her and hold her close.

Jane noticed how Maura looked she wasn't wearing any makeup and looked really tired and pale. She was wearing nurses scrubs and what looked like the pair of sneakers that Jane had left in her mothers car. In all the years Jane has known Maura she has never once seen her look like this even showing up at her house at two in the morning Maura looked like she was ready of a photo shoot. In Jane's eye though the blonde was still beautiful smiling Jane just watched her friend while Michael placed his hand on Jane's shoulder. Turning around she looked at him.

"Listen carefully to what she has to say it may just very well change your life." Michael said pointing back toward the blonde standing near the bed. Jane just shook her head and turned back toward the bed.

"Jane, I don't know what to say. I can say thank you but it doesn't feel like thats enough. But I am very thankful you took a bullet for me. Why I may never know, but thank you Jane Rizzoli thank you for probably saving my life today." Maura sighed looking at the sleeping brunette. "Maybe it's time to tell you the truth."

After a moments silence Maura spoke. "I love you Jane, I love you so much. To me you are the most beautiful, gorgeous, stunning, breath-taking...So breath-taking that I choke on my coffee when you touch me. To me you are perfect. I love you for who you are, both inside and out." Maura let go of Jane's hand, but only long enough to grab the chair near by and to put the bed rail down so she could hold Jane's hand better.

"My life was a total wreck before I met you. I thought that it would stay that way forever, but when you came into my life, everything took a turn for better. I became a responsible and trustworthy individual. Without you even knowing it. You taught me how to be strong, you've shown me the value of life and most of all you taught the real meaning of Love!" Maura wiped a tear from her face.

Jane would have been stunned had it not been for the rest of her friends and family saying that Maura had feelings for her. Hearing it direct from the source however was different from hearing it from everyone else. Jane had feelings for the blonde she's had them for awhile, she never wanted to ruin her friendship with her though. So she hid them and was happy just being able to be Maura's friend.

"You are the most beautiful woman I have ever had the pleasure of knowing. I can't describe this incredible feeling I have when I see you, and you only have to be in the room. Whenever I speak to you, I feel like I am melting. It takes me all of the energy I have in my body not to let it show. I feel completely in love, completely smitten with your every move, your every word, and I am too petrified to do anything about it. Why am I having such intense feelings for you only to be accompanied with such a fear of telling you? At the moment, I am afraid I have no answers." Maura ran her fingers through the curls that were laying on Jane's pillow. Smiling Maura loved Jane's hair and had wanted to run her fingers through it for as long as she could remember. Jane was a little shocked Maura Isles had no anwsers she would normally take that chance to tease the blonde, but she couldn't not that she would if she was awake this seemed way to important to make a joke about.

"You have no idea how many time's I have had to cover up hives or breath into a paper bag after you left my office. I have wanted you like you'll never know. I want your entire heart and soul. When I see your face, I see your heart. I want your love, I NEED your love, but I won't tell you because I can't. I cannot tell you how I feel, because I know you're just my friend. I know that you're happy with that. I know you're not looking for someone like me to love. I know, I know, I know! But, I don't understand; I don't understand why it has to hurt so very much when you laugh, when you get so close. I don't get that. I don't know how to move on, I don't know how to let myself live without you. I just don't know." Maura had started to ramble which made Jane smile.

She never knew that she made Maura hyperventilate or that she gave her hives. Maura always blamed it on something else like her mother calling or an allergic reaction. Now that Jane really thought about it she realized it was her doing that to her friend.

"As much as it pains me Jane, we both know I haven't been that subtle in front of you. You make me lose all self-control. I am making you this promise Jane when you wake up I will tell you the truth regardless of our jobs and families. It's time to sink or swim. We both owe ourselves this. If you don't want to I completely understand I mean you have your job and family." Maura smiled sadly at Jane. Looking out the window agian the blonde smiled before turning back to Jane.

"Come on Jane you need to wake up now it's snowing and I do believe you owe me a snowball fight." Running her fingers over Jane's scar. The blonde let go of Jane's and rested her head on the bed near Jane's leg closing her eyes her hand resting on Jane's leg her face close to Jane's hand.

As always feel free to review good or bad i can take it. I must confess i had help with this chapter