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It was difficult for the others to not follow Sunstreaker as he left to retrieve Sam, but they knew they had issues that they needed to work out on their own. It had been nearly an hour and a half since then and the others were beginning to worry. Sideswipe tried to reach through the bond, but Sunstreaker had blocked it. Optimus tried the comm. link, but it was shut off. Sam didn't have her cell with her, so Ratchet couldn't call her. All they could do was wait for their return, and hope that their relationship would be mended. However, there were some mechs who were impatient.
"Optimus, why are we just sitting here? We should be out there looking for them." Ironhide let out a growling sigh.
"We have to let them work things out on their own, Ironhide." Ratchet said, though he would jump at the option to look for them, he knew he had to let Sam handle things for herself. Too long has he tried to make her decisions for her in hopes of keeping her safe. He knew this was something she had to do herself.
'Primus, Nina, help me through this.' he silently prayed.
"Ratchet is right, Ironhide. Sunstreaker is more than capable of protecting Sam should the need arise. This is something that needs to be worked out before it escalates into something uncontrollable. For now, let us return for the night." Optimus said. Everyone ultimately agreed and decided to head to their rooms. Barricade, not having a room, transformed into his alt mode and fell into recharge in the hanger.
I don't know how long we've been sitting there, not moving, with him staring at me and me staring at the ground. My legs were starting to feel tingly and I was worried that if I stood up to run off again, I would end up face-planting.
"Sam, what is it going to take for you to trust me again?" Sunstreaker asked. Though I couldn't see his face, I could hear the pain in his voice. I looked up at him and my suspicions were confirmed when I saw the hurt in his blue eyes.
"It's not enough to say it, Sunstreaker. I need you to prove it." I said. His expression softened to the point where it was unreadable. He almost looked pensive with a hint of determination.
"Fine, I'll prove it to you." He closed the space between us and locked his lips onto mine forcefully. Too shocked to think clearly, I tried to fight him. This only made him press harder. He forced me on my back as he continued to assault my neck. My futile attempts to stop him grew weaker and I slowly began to submit.
I stifled a moan as he ferociously began to nibble my collarbone, his hands exploring my body. My hands, having gained minds of their own, reached up and began rubbing his hair. My hips, subconsciously, began to rub against him, and he responded by pressing his hips onto mine. I let out a heavy breath.
I could feel heat rising up within me to the point where it was getting unbearable and I felt the need to shed my clothes. Sunstreaker obviously let the same as he started lifting my shirt ever so slowly. When he suddenly stopped, I became a little disappointed. Seeing my face, he lowered his to my ear.
"Not here." he breathed, sending chills of excitement down my spine. He pulled me up and took me to his waiting alt mode. Gunning his engine, we sped back to base. On the way there, I began gently rubbing my fingers along the seat, making his frame shake from pleasure. His engine growled and the air conditioner suddenly blasted on. A slight smirk appeared on my lips as I continued to rub the seat.
"You're driving me crazy, femme." he growled. My smirk only grew.
When we made it to the hanger, Sunstreaker pulled up and parked, unfortunately it was next to Barricade. I felt his frame rumble, he was growling. Great, Sunstreaker was going to try and start another fight. I got out and stood in front of his vehicle form, his growling ceased. He must have seen the pained look on my face, telling him that I wasn't in the mood for another argument. His holoform stepped out and he wrapped his arms securely around my waist. I turned to look at Barricade and was curious to see he hadn't moved or anything.
'He must be asleep.' I thought. My attention was brought back to Sunstreaker as he pulled my hand and made me follow him into the hall. I was wondering where he was taking me, but then quickly realized he was taking me to my room. The door opened after he entered the code and we were greeted by darkness. I was about to reach to turn the light on, but he swung me around and kissed me passionately. I eagerly returned the kiss. Without breaking the kiss, he guided me to the bed and laid me down. And before I knew it, we were picking up where we left off. The heat was returning and Sunstreaker responded by taking off my shirt and tossing it carelessly aside and dragging his lips to my chest. His holoform flickered a little and the next thing I realize was I had a shirtless Sunstreaker on top of me. I took a moment to take in his perfect features, my hand exploring his chest and tight stomach.
I closed my eyes as our lips made contact again, but I could feel his hands slide down my stomach to the button on my jean shorts, tugging them a little as if asking for permission. I opened my eyes, breaking the kiss, and saw him looking at me, his eyes asking permission before going farther. I smiled gently, granting him permission. He smiled back and continued unbuttoning my shorts.
We ended up not getting a lot of sleep that night.
I groaned as I started to wake up, my head feeling like someone took a hammer to it several million times. I sat up and removed the blankets, surprised to see I was only in my underwear. Memories from last night came back and I blushed furiously.
'I guess this means we're together now.' I looked around my room, but saw no signs of Sunstreaker. I felt a little disappointed and hour that he wasn't there. 'Or maybe not.' I got out of bed and made my way to my dresser that had clothes hanging out of the drawers. I'm not a very clean person. Grabbing a black tank-top and a denim skirt, seeing as how I can't ride my board I might as well wear a skirt. After brushing my teeth and hair, I was finally decent enough and walked out of my room. On my way to the rec. room to grab something to eat, a few soldiers passing by said hi and 'glad to see you're doing better'.
The doors opened and I inwardly groaned at the very many soldiers and Autobots that were there. Unfortunately, I'm very noticeable, so they all saw me the minute I walked in. After grabbing a bowl with some cereal and orange juice, I walked around, trying to find a table. My eyes immediately fixed on Will and Epps waving me over with a few younger soldiers. I smiled back and made my way over. Might as well since they saw me.
"Hey, kid. Glad to see you're still alive." Epps greeted as I sat down next to Will, I gave him a mock glare. Will and I sat next to each other while Epps and the two young soldiers, I think they were Terry and Jones, sat across from us.
"Hey, yea, you were that girl that was kidnapped by that crazy Con, right?" Terry asked. He looked fairly young, only about 20 or 21, with dark skin and shaved black hair.
"Easy, Terry." WIll warned.
"Yea, the kid's probably traumatized enough." Jones elbowed Terry. Jones was a little older, probably around 25 with shaggy brown hair.
"No way, man." he looked back to me. "Dude, what was it like?" Epps smacked him on the head. "Ow, man, what ya do that for?"
"You don't ask a young girl who's been through what's she's been through that kind of question, man."
"Yea, Terry, why would you ask that?" Will asked as if he couldn't believe he really asked that. Both seemed to be embarrassed by the young man, but his buddy, Jones, was trying not to laugh. Poor me, however, I was invisible to the conversation, making me feel incredibly awkward.
"What? I was just asking." Terry said, raising his hands in defense. I coughed to get their attention, which worked, because now they were looking to me. Epps and Will seemed to realize the awkwardness I was forced into and that I wanted a subject change.
"So, kid, how are you and Sunny?" Epps asked. I almost face-palmed.
'That's not exactly what I had in mind, Epps.' I looked to will with a 'save me' face. He seemed to get it.
"Anyway, Sam, when are you planning to head back to school. You still have all those detentions to make up, don't you?" Okay, I couldn't help it. I slammed my head on the table, earning an 'oh' of pain from Terry and Jones.
I had completely forgotten about school! Mr. Cravers is going to kill me! I still remember his threat. If I miss one detention, I'm done for. I must have missed at least three! I groaned.
"That bad, huh?" Epps asked. My only reply was another groan.
"Don't worry, Sam. I'm sure your principal will understand if Ratchet tells him you were in an accident." Will tried to reason. Yea, that was a great idea. Surely Ratchet must have told him about me being in some kind of accident. Maybe I'm off the hook and I can graduate! I lifted my head off the table, feeling a little better.
"Yea, and the best part is, you have all those scars to prove it." Terry said. Good mood gone. I slammed my head on the table again. I heard a smack and an 'ow' from Terry, telling me Epps waked him again. Today was not going to be my day!
I spent the afternoon wandering around the base, It was Thursday, which meant I missed yet another day of school. Cravers is going to have no mercy from me, but this was moved to the back of my mind when I remembered my little mission- find Sunstreaker.
I haven't seen him since last night, but I saw his brother in the hanger, trying to settle a little dispute between Barricade and Bumblebee. Apparently Bee can still hold a grudge for a long time. I asked Sideswipe if he'd seen his brother around at all, but he shrugged saying he hasn't seen him all day.
"Your best bet would be our room." he said. I thanked him and left him to play ref.
After about twenty minutes of walking, I stopped in front of the giant door that led to the twins' room. Boy, I haven't been here in a while, but I can still find my way around. Reaching out a tentative hand, I stopped a few inches from the door.
Why am I so nervous all of a sudden? He cares about me after all, doesn't he? A sudden depression welled up inside me. 'What if he doesn't care? What if he was just using me?' My mind wandered to when I was with Sideways, when he was trying to convince me.
'He never loved you like you love him. To him, his job was to baby-sit you.' My conscious had said. What if that was true?
I shook my head furiously, knocking those thoughts out of my mind. 'No! That's not true! He told me so last night! He told me he would never hurt me.'
'What if he told you what you only wanted to hear?'
…
Would he really do that? No, it can't be. He's not like that.
I knocked on the door. I heard heavy shuffling inside and heavy footsteps approaching. The giant door slid open and Sunstreaker stood there, staring down at me with a look of surprise on his faceplates.
"Sam? What are you doing here?" he asked. I wasn't sure what I must look like to him. I was pretty sure my face showed anger and hurt, even though I wanted to suppress those emotions.
"I could ask you the same thing." I replied.
"What do you mean?" he asked, sounding confused. I was starting to reach my breaking point, but I tried to keep in control.
"Why did you leave me? After you promised?" I choked. That seemed to strike a chord with him as he realized what I was talking about. He knelt down.
"No, no, Sam, it's not like that." He said gently. "You were still asleep when I woke up, and you looked exhausted, so I wanted to let you sleep." After he explained, my face softened up a bit and the depression died down to regret. So I was upset about nothing?
"Oh." That was all I could think to say. Boy, I must have looked so stupid to him. Sunstreaker lowered his hand for me to climb on, which I did. He lifted me up and held me to his chest. I could feel the warmth and feel the soft 'thrumming' of his spark, which always calmed me down.
"I need to talk to you though." he said, sounding serious. I looked up at him.
"Okay, what about?" I asked. He walked into his room and shut and locked his door. I looked up at him nervously. "Um, Sunstreaker?"
"I love you, Sam. You know that, right?" He sat down on his berth, still holding me.
"Yea."
"And you love me too, right?" Where was he going with this?
"Uh-huh." He paused for a moment.
"I never want you to get hurt like that ever again, Sam. But I'm afraid I'm not going to be around as much as I would like. I'm afraid that something bad is going to happen and I won't be there to protect you." I felt his chest get warmer and his body grow tense.
"Where are you going with this, Sunstreaker?" I asked. I felt him growl a little.
"Primus, are you always this dense, Sam?" he growled. I flinched at his tone. He noticed and relaxed. "I want you to be my sparkmate, Sam." My eyes widened in shock.
"W-What?" I asked. His eyes dimmed and his holoform appeared next to me. He wrapped his arms around me and held me close.
"Sam, will you spark-bond with me?" he whispered. I stood there, frozen, while he held me. A familiar feeling returned to my body, but it wasn't fear. It was love. The longing to be with him. I pulled away from him.
"Yes." We both smiled at each other.
His holoform disappeared and he reactivated his true form. Holding me to his chest, he lowered himself onto his back on his berth.
"How is this going to work?" I asked. His chest let off a 'psshh' indicating it was opening. It reminded me of a semi releasing the air from its brakes. When his chest opened, I saw his spark.
I couldn't help but gasp at how beautiful his spark was. It glowing bright blue that seemed to swirl with heat and electricity. It was the most amazing thing I've ever seen. Something inside me told me to reach my hand inside and touch it, I wasn't sure what it was though. It was almost as if I knew what to do. I couldn't control myself. My hand reached inside and started rubbing the metal inside around his spark. Something told me I was doing it right by the way he shuddered from my touch. His spark started to glow even brighter and I heard his cooling fans kicking on.
As my hand came closer to his spark, my arm and my chest began to tingle. It wasn't painful, but it felt good. Sunstreaker's body continued to quiver indoor my hand and started to groan in pleasure.
"Touch it." he groaned. I knew he meant his spark and I hesitated. If I become sparkbonded to him, it is permanent. It's forever.
I reached farther and touched his spark. Sunsteaker's chest rose and let out a loud grown, the tingling in my body increased and tickled my chest. It felt so good, so i began to experiment. I began rubbing his spark and my chest began to tighten. I almost couldn't breathe.
"S-Sam." he grunted. This caught my attention and my hand immediately pulled away from his chest. I fell back on my butt, and he collapsed to his berth, both of us panting heavily. The tingling was gone, except for the slight tingle I still felt in my chest.
"What was that?" I finally asked. Sunstreaker sat up, cradling me in his palm as he looked down at me with a smile.
"That was spark-bonding."
Well, they made it official. Now the only problem is: how are the others going to react to this? Especially Ratchet? Uh-oh, I sense a conflict!