Scarred for Life

Chapter 16

*Hides behind pillow*

I know its been over a week since I updated... again. I had this chapter finished on Saturday and sent it to my Beta, but it's now Tuesday and she hasn't sent it back to me yet. So here is my Un-Beta'd chapter... please be gentle. :'(

Clary P.O.V

I woke up feeling dizzy and disoriented. It took me a few moments, but then I remembered what had happened with Valentine and Jonathan. I looked around, expecting to be locked up in a dirty cell, and was surprised to find myself in my room at the Institute.

I got up and walked over to the in-suite bathroom. I looked at myself in the mirror. I looked normal, maybe a little older than I had when I first arrived, but I still looked like Clary. I twisted my neck a little and saw the weird rune that Jonathan must have put on me last night.

Was it just last night?

I hopped in the shower in an effort to scrub away my sense of unease. Once I had showered and changed my clothes, there was a knock on the door. "Come in!" I screamed over the sound of my blow-dryer.

My heart sped up as Jace walked through the door. I quickly shut off the blow-dryer so I could hear what he had to say. "Hey. How's your head?" He gently laid his palm on my forehead and I leaned into his touch.

I decided that I had to stop pushing him away. I didn't care anymore about how it would affect our relationship when he found out the truth. I just wanted to live in the moment and spend as much with him as I could, before he hated me. "I'm so sorry Jace."

His perfect eyebrows furrowed in confusion. "Sorry about what?"

"I've been a total bitch to you. I've repeatedly pushed you away, and I don't deserve to have you. I understand if you want nothing to do with me." I was surprised when my voice came out steady. Now was not the time for tears.

"Listen Rebecca, I don't know what's gotten into you, I'm not mad. I know that you're hiding something from me, and it hurts that you don't trust me enough to tell me." I opened my mouth to protest, but he silenced me with a look. "Hear me out, I know that if it was important enough, you'd tell me."

I was blinded by how much he trusted me. He shouldn't trust me. It will only make this so much harder for him… and for me. "I want to tell you Jace, so much that it hurts, but I just can't."

Jace looked into my eyes, green meeting gold, and looked deep into them. He looked like he was searching for something. I knew that if he looked long enough, my defenses would fall and he'd know my secret. I couldn't let him find out.

I crushed my lips to his. He responded immediately and wrapped his arms around my waist. I circled my arms around his neck and played with the little blonde curls at the base of his neck. I tried to convey everything I felt in that kiss. The sorrow, the guilt, and the love.

Wait a second… did I just say love? I felt my lips curl into a smile. Yes, yes I did. I love Jace Wayland!

His tongue darted out of his mouth and swiped across my bottom lip, asking for entrance. I gladly gave it. I felt his tongue explore my mouth and I knew that I could spend the rest of my life like this.

After what felt like hours, I finally broke away and rested my forehead against Jace's. We were both breathing heavily. "As much as I love this, and I do, was there a reason that you came into my room?"

"Of course, I came to ask you if you wanna do rounds with me tonight. Demon activities have been down lately and I thought we could finish quick, and then go to Taki's for a late dinner."

I put hand over my heart in mock surprise. "Why Jace, are you asking me out on a real date? Wouldn't that be against tradition?"

"If you're gonna be a smart ass about it then I guess I won't take you." Jace got off the bed and started walking towards my door.

"Wait!" I ran over and jumped onto his back, trying to tackle him to the ground. "I'll go! I think it would be nice to go out, just the two of us."

I jumped off Jace's back and walked in front of the door, preventing him from leaving. Jace noticed my actions and smirked. "Don't worry baby, with me there, it'll be the best date ever."

I rolled my eyes and laughed, playfully pushing him away. "Naturally."

"So, are you going to move out of the way so I can leave, or are you going to keep and in here forever and use me to fulfill all you wildest, and dirtiest, fantasies? Personally, I'm leaning towards option two."

"You know, I would pick option two, but I'd get tired of you after a while and regret my decision."

As soon as the words were out of my mouth, I was slammed up against my bedroom door. Jace was hovering over me, his lips just a few inches from mine. "Please Becca, you haven't regretted me once."

We kissed again. This one was slower, and more sensual then the last. We didn't have anything to prove to the other. We were just happy being in each other's arms. Jace was the one to break away this time. "I should probably leave. Alec wants to get in some extra training before we leave tonight. Be ready to go at 6:30." With another kiss goodbye, he was gone.

I dropped back onto my bed and fell asleep, dreaming about what adventures tonight would hold.

So there you have it. A cutesy little filler chapter. I got a review saying that Clary was kinda being a bitch to Jace, and I just wanted to clarify that it was because she didn't want to fall in love. She thought that if she acted rude then he wouldn't want her.

But alas, Clace always prevails!

Anyone wanna take a guess about what's gonna happen when Jace and Clary go patrol? (Hint: I got this idea from Serenity Shadowstar.)

Let me know what you thought!

P.S I'll be replacing this chapter with the Beta'd one once she comes out of hiding. :)