I was okay, but I was still worried. Worried about the others, what they were going to do, if they were going to treat me differently. I wouldn't blame them if they did. Especially the twins.

Sideswipe...

I knew he hated me. This whole time, I was thought I was only in love with Sunstreaker, when I was actually in love with both of them. This whole mess made me angry at Sunstreaker for not telling me about the whole "twin bonding" thing. I know I'm not bonded to Sideswipe. I haven't sensed him or anything, I think we'd have to establish the bond together, but I don't know if Sunstreaker would go for it. Why wouldn't he? Their brothers, twins! No...Sideswipe probably wouldn't want to go through with it...not with me. He's probably trying to convince his brother to not have anymore to do with me. Who would blame him? After all, I betrayed the both of them.

And Ratchet, the one whom I actually considered my father, what would he think of me? How mad would he be at me when he walks through those doors and sees me awake?

My thoughts were interrupted when the doors opened with a swish. I didn't move my body, but I did look from the corner of my eyes and saw Ratchet walk in. He was looking through a data pad, mumbling about something I could not decipher. I looked back to the floor, holding my breath and waiting for him to notice me.

I heard him stop abruptly coupled with a quick gasp and the clanging of the data pad on the metallic floor. I could feel his gaze on me and I tensed, still refusing to make eye contact. I heard some shuffling and, before I realized it, I was in someone's arms. It took me a minute to realize I was in Ratchet's arms. He held me tightly to his chest as if he was afraid I was going to disappear any moment. I felt my muscles slowly relax and my breath being released. I didn't respond to his actions, I just sat there and waited. Waited for his reaction.

Waiting for those words, something about how mad he was at me for making trouble for everyone, something like that. But those words never came. We just sat like that in silence. I shifted only slightly but that made him increase his hold on me. I couldn't take that damned silence anymore.

"Ratchet?" I croaked tentatively.

"I'm so glad you're okay." he whispered in my hair so it only came out as a muffle, but I still heard it. I also heard the pain and relief in his voice. I felt something rise in my throat, but it wasn't vile. It was a choking sob and I realized I was crying when I felt tears run down my face. I tried to stop, but when I did it made it worse and I hiccuped. I quickly wrapped my arms around him and clung to him for dear life.

"Daddy!" I cried into his chest like a weak child who was afraid. I was afraid though. I was terrified.

A few hours later, after numerous scans and questionings, he released me from Med Bay much to my surprise, though I didn't mention it. I might as well enjoy the little freedom I have. He did, however, mention something just before I left.

"Make sure you stop by the rec room. I'm sure the others will be relieved to see you up and about. But please, for the love of Primus, don't make me regret my decision of letting you out early. If you feel even slightly unwell, come back here immediately." I just nodded and left.

Walking to the rec room was very awkward. It wasn't like people were suspicious of me or avoiding me completely, it was more like they were being cautious around me but were doing a horrible job at hiding it. It was like they were afraid of me. Afraid I could snap at any moment.

I couldn't blame them either.

I made to the large doors that led to the rec room. I could only assume, due to the amount of noise on the other side, that there was a bunch of people and mechs in there. I took a deep breath and tried to shake out my nervousness.

"It's now or never." I mumbled to myself. I could only hope that the twins weren't in there. I wasn't ready to face them yet.

The doors opened and the talking immediately stopped. Everything was quiet. I walked forward, my footsteps echoing throughout the room. I shrunk into myself when I felt every single eye and optic on me. It made me extremely anxious.

I looked around for a familiar face, but my nervousness made me temporarily forget who everyone was. I looked ahead to a table and saw the familiar colors of red and yellow. I froze in my tracks.

They had been staring at me since I walked into the room, and I couldn't turn my gaze away from them. It was a long, tense, and awkward moment of just us three staring at each other, completely forgetting everyone else in the room. I couldn't read their emotions on their faces, they were just blank, perhaps there was some shock that I wa suddenly here.

The shuffling of chairs broke me out of my trance and I realized that they both stood up. I took a step back when their gazes never left me. They took a step towards me and I took another step back. I don't know why I was acting this way, but all I did know that I wasn't ready to talk to them and that I would do anything to stay away from them until I was ready.

They started full on walking towards me and I stumbled backwards, running in the opposite direction. I heard my name being shouted behind me, but I couldn't stop my legs from moving.

I felt something grip in my chest, like someone was trying to break through, and that was enough to make me stop completely. Was this the bond? But I thought Sideways had destroyed it. What was going on?

In my little freakout moment, I failed to hear two sets of heavy feet catching up with me. I turned around to see the twins looking down at me, huffing from the running. I couldn't tell what they were thinking, but it seemed darker than back in the rec room.

I squeaked when Sunstreaker suddenly picked me up roughly and started to walk away, Sideswipe trailing behind with the same dark look.

We entered their room and they closed and locked the door. Their eyes rested on me now and I became nervous. I felt that same feeling enter my chest again but with a little more force. I got scared and pushed it away.

"Damn it, femme! Stop blocking me out!" I heard Sunstreaker growl. I looked back up, his blue eyes glowing brightly.

"W-What?" I stuttered.

"Every time I've tried to contact you through the bond, you've either blocked me or pushed me out." he snapped. I unconsciously flinched at his overbearing tone.

"That's not possible. I thought that the bond was destroyed by Sideways."

"Well it wasn't." he sounded extremely frustrated. "I was constantly feeling your pain and fear, but I couldn't do anything about it. Do you know how frustrating that is?"

"I'm sorry Sunstreaker!" I didn't mean for that to come out as a terrified squeak, but it did. The room had gone still and quiet and all I wanted to do was turn invisible from the heat of their stares on me. Neither of them made any attempt to speak so I continued.

"I'm so sorry! I didn't know what was happening. Sideways was in my mind, making me do things I didn't want to do. Then, when I was unconscious, he tried to erase my memories completely...and he almost did."

This time I heard both of the twins growl, Sideswipe finally giving an indication that he was there listening.

"But then, something kept making me remember. I wasn't sure what it was, but everything started coming back to me." I paused, taking a deep breath. "I saw my mother." I felt Sunstreaker stiffen and I'm sure Sideswipe did the same thing.

"She helped me remember who I was. She told me there were people I needed to patch things up with." I looked over to Sideswipe as I said this, he caught my look and looked down.

I looked back to Sunstreaker with a stern gaze. "Why didn't you tell me about the twin bonding?"

He seemed to stutter for a moment, trying to think of some plausible excuse.

"I thought you knew about it." he mumbled. I stood up from his hand, completely facing him now.

"Why would you think that? I had no idea!" I yelled at him.

"I though you did!" he yelled back, making me noticeably flinch. He toned his voice back down to a growl. "After we bonded and Sideswipe you off the base. Remember? He told you he could feel whatever I felt. He knew about the bond the moment it was placed."

I didn't say a word, knowing that was true, but I was still confused. Sunstreaker sensed this and continued.

"We are twins, Sam. Which means we share the same spark. Which also means that whatever happens to one twin, happens to the other. It's a package deal, Sam."

"So..." I started, already know what was going to happen. Sideswipe decided at that moment to step forward.

"So you bond with one twin, you have to bond with the other. If you don't, the strain from the unbonded spark will weigh too heavily on the other twin, ultimately causing strain on their bonded, until neither of them are survives." Sideswipe said solemnly. Okay, that made me confused all over again.

"Wh-What does that mean?" I asked, afraid I that I already knew the answer. I felt Sunstreaker's body tense and hold me closer to his spark.

"It means that if the three of us don't form a bond, the strain will kill all three of us."

Yep, figured. There's always a catch.