Scarred for Life
Chapter 22
Hey guys! Spring Break is over and I have to go back to school tomorrow. :( This means that I will probably have to go back to updating weekly. Maybe every Saturday or Sunday?
I have to warn you. Things get weird. ;)
Clary P.O.V
I looked up when Isabelle walked back in. "Is Jace coming?"
Izzy sighed, looking disappointed. "No Clary, he isn't. What you did to him was kind of a dick move. You can't expect him to just forgive you. He really liked you. He feels like you betrayed him."
I felt a tug at my heart. I wanted to defend myself, but everything Izzy said was true. I lied to him. I killed his dad. Can I really expect Jace to willingly hear what I have to say?
No… I can't.
"I have to go find him and explain."
"No you don't!" I looked to the person who spoke and was surprised to see Simon. I didn't even know he's been in the room. "Listen Clary, if that asshole doesn't want to listen, then leave him alone! He doesn't deserve you. Why do you want him so badly anyway? " Simon reached out and grabbed my hand.
"Because I love him!" The confession just slipped out. I didn't even try to take it back, it felt good now that it was out in the open.
"You can't love him, you've only known him for a month! You are way too good for him. Just forget about him Clary!"
I ripped my hand out of Simon's, hurt. "Who the hell do you think you are? You can't control my actions. You don't have that right! Why do you want me to forget all about Jace so bad?"
"You may think you love him, but you're lying to yourself. I love you Clary! I've loved you for 8 years. Ever since you and Luke moved in across the street from me, I knew it. You love me too Clary, you just don't want to admit it to yourself."
I was too shocked to speak. Luckily, I didn't have to.
"Wh-what?" I twisted around, again, and saw Isabelle. She had her hands covering her mouth and tears were welling in her eyes. "You told me you were over her Simon. You told me that you didn't have any more feelings for her. How could you?"
She didn't give Simon any time to answer. She turned around and bolted for the Institute door. I thought that maybe Simon would follow after her.
He didn't.
He returned his focus to me and in that instant; I was scared of Simon Lewis. He looked evil. His eyes burned with hatred for Jace, and lust for me. It reminded me of Jonathan. I shrank back into my pillows, terrified.
This wasn't the Simon I knew. The Simon that I knew was dorky, loved manga, and always had a huge smile on his face. The Simon I knew was also the one that had been my only friend for 8 years. This was so messed up!
This wasn't my best friend anymore.
"I don't know what is going on with you right now Simon, but you need to figure it out. By order of the Clave, I, Clarissa Morgenstern, hereby banish you from this Institute."
He started getting pulled back towards the door, but he resisted. He pushed against it, trying to get to me. His skin started to burn and blister but still, he fought. "I will get you for this. This isn't over. You may think it is, but I will be back." With that, he allowed himself to be forced out of the Institute."
"One problem to temporarily fixed, now let's go solve another one." I mumbled to myself, getting up and leaving the infirmary. I headed towards Jace's room.
.o.O.o.
I knocked on his door, again. "Jace Wayland, open up this god-damn door! We need to talk." I'd been knocking on Jace's door for 10 minutes and he still hadn't answered. I knew he was in there, I could hear him breathing.
Finally, it opened. Jace looked downright pissed. "No, you're going to listen to me. Did you think it was funny, knowing that you could trick me? Did you enjoy watching me fall for you? You knew for a fact that I swore to kill you, and decided that this would be a fun little game to play while you help break Daddy out of prison. Well listen up, I don't want you here anymore. Every time I look at you I want to puke. You deserve to be dead."
I felt like I couldn't breathe. I knew what I did was awful, but having him say that made it even worse. "Why don't you just kill me now? You can finally fulfill your oath."
He looked up at me with disgust and I felt a piece of my soul break off and drift away. "Eight years ago I vowed to kill you. Then, when we started dating, I made an oath to protect you. See how they conflict? After the Greater Demon battle, I was about to kill you after you told me what you were. The angels stopped me. I had to choose just one oath. In my moment of weakness, I chose to protect you. I regret that decision, but there isn't anything I can do about it now."
"Jace please-"
His gaze hardened and something in him seemed to have snapped. "No! I want you to leave the Institute and never come back! Or else I'll find a way to make sure you die."
I felt my heart disintegrate. Nothing was left. My best friend just turned into a mini Jonathan, my family was on a rampage to destroy the world, and the love of my life just told me that he wanted to kill me. I had no one.
Except Luke.
I ran to my room and dug around for my cell phone. I finally pulled it out of a pair of dirty jeans and dialed Luke.
"Hey kiddo, I thought you weren't going to call until Saturday. The last time I checked it was only Wednesday. Is everything alright?"
"Have you sold the apartment yet?"
"Not yet, but I found a young couple that's interested in the place. I was gonna sign over the deed tomorrow."
"Don't!" I screamed into the phone. "Don't sell it! I want to come home."
"What happened Clary? Are you in danger?"
"It's hard to explain. I'll tell you everything as soon as I get there. I'll be home as soon as I can."
"Do you need me to call Ragnor to make a portal?"
"Nope, I can make one myself." I paused. "Luke,"
"Ya Clary?"
"Thank you."
He sounded confused. "For what?"
"For being there for me."
"Anytime Clare-Bear. I love you."
Despite the how bad my situation was, I found myself smiling. I could always count on Luke to make me feel better. "I love you to Luke, be there soon."
First I just want you guys to answer this question.
1.) What the hell is wrong with Simon?
Second, I've decided that I'm going to dedicate each chapter to a different follower. This chapter is dedicated to heroherondaletotheresuce.
Until next time,
ByTheAngel99