JPOV

I sulk; it's what I do now I guess someone had to replace Edward. I understand a little why he did though. I'm in a house with 3-mated couples, and I feel what they feel towards each other lust, love, and desire.

The ink has barely dried on the divorce papers and Alice has already found her mate. She met him 2 ½ months ago. Mykel is good for her, he actually enjoys going on her shopping trips. I've never seen Alice the way she is with him. He's gifted too, he can project images for everyone to see, a nice compliment to Alice's gift. Three weeks after we met him we figured out when Alice and him are touching during her visions he can project them.

I can hear them in our old room, Alice sketching new clothing for him, and him giving her his input. I'm happy for her of course; we always knew from the beginning that we were never forever. She helped me through my dark time, and together we found the Cullens. We watched each other's back, and she has helped me so much with the vegetarian diet.

I always feel like shit when I disappoint her, or the family. Which is why we had to move here in Alaska, where we have our transition house whenever we need to move fast and are unprepared we come here. It's deep in the wilderness of Alaska so we get no human interaction for miles. Everyone is here except Edward, he ran off 4 months ago after the Bella incident. I didn't think that I was trying to hurt her. I smelled her drop of blood just like everyone else did, but when he pushed her into the glassware I felt drawn to her, her blood smelled delicious. I didn't have time to process what was happening because I was being dragged outside. I wanted to protect her. He hasn't spoken to me ever since.

I walked out of the game room and make my way to my study; I can hear Em, and Rose playing naughty nurse. They recently got into role-playing and I'm extremely lucky I decided to soundproof my study and bedroom. I shudder. No one needs to hear that. I walk pass Carlisle on my way and he laughs softly at their antics. "They're using your stethoscope," I murmur. His face drops and his eyes widened in horror. "No," he whispers. I nod my head and walked pass him. "I put a new one in your bag," Alice said from her room. "Oh thank God." Carlisle sighed. I heard Mykel's uncontrollable laughter mix with mine. "Man you guys are a riot." I send him a wave of amazement, and entered my study and closed the door. Things around here haven't truly been the same since we left forks, but it's nice to see we haven't completely fallen apart.

I feel a sudden wave of despair, sorrow, and helplessness bend over in pain and place a hand over my dead heart. Is it possible my heart could be breaking? Ever since we moved here I've been getting this surge of strong emotions. Although we've all felt those emotions after leaving Forks, even Rosaline, but everyone else is nowhere near this magnitude. No these are different they come from within me, like they are apart of me, but are not my own emotions though they do mirror mine. The wave knocks me off my desk chair.

I struggle to stand on my feet and run out of the house as fast as I can before I can no longer handle the weight of the emotions and start projecting. I make it 2 miles before I can no longer take it and crash down on the snow-covered floor. I can hear varies animals falter and give up under the pressure of the sorrow and fall to the forest floor. The quiet hum of heartbeats in the forest turns to silence.

"Jazz, please." Alice sobs on the border of my projecting range. I reign in my power as she walks closer to me now that it's a safe. "You didn't have to follow me Alice." The first time I got the waves of these emotions I didn't even realize when I started projecting until my family started crying out in as much pain as I was in. Poor Esme clung to Carlisle for dear life. After that the whole family worried about me constantly. Even after explaining it wasn't all of just my emotions but someone I was picking up from a mysterious location.

"I know, Esme is at home hysterical we only felt the tip of what you were feeling but it was still pretty powerful." I drop my head down in shame; I thought I managed to get away. "Jazz you need to leave now before it destroys you."

With the mysterious emotions comes this pull that sometimes consumes me, and tugs at me so strongly. Alice has been trying to get me to follow it for months. "I'm not really Ali." She looks off in the distance while her eyes gloss over. "I can't see what it is but your future is better off if you decide to follow the pull."

"I can't." I whisper. "I- I don't want to disappoint you guys if I don't come back- if I revert back to my old ways." Alice gives me a long hug. "You won't, you're too strong for that now." I really do hate disappointing them, and my biggest fear is running into Maria again and going back to my old life. But maybe it's better to find out what's going on with me and save my family from all the misery I've plague them with the last few months.

"I can see you've already decided." She stands and reaches for my hand. "Come on let's tell the family."

When we walked back to the house everyone had grim faces on. I assured them I was fine before telling them the news. They were all supportive and understood why I needed to go, Esme made me promise to come back and I couldn't deny my mother. I decided I would leave in a month so I can get use to being around humans again after being in seclusion for months. Alice of course decided it was the perfect opportunity to go shopping for my new wardrobe, but I had to remain her that I was essentially going to be a nomad so she agreed to minimize her purchases.

Mykel warned me of random attacks on covens and nomads around the world none have been reported in the US but I should be careful anyway. No one knows why it's happening or who is behind it many suspect the Volturi are behind it since they have yet to speak of the matter. Nonetheless it was important for me to go and I plan on going wherever the pull took me.

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