Chapter four
Sunday 22nd September
The next morning i awoke to a lot of banging and shouting.
"JASPER CALM DOWN!" I heard Esme yell. I sat bolt upright, not even bothered that i was now wearing one of Bella's revealing sets of PJs. I was shocked though to find Jasper being restrained by Emmett and Edward with Bella sitting next to me.
"What the hell?" I yawned raising an eyebrow.
"You're not scared?" Bella whispered looking terrified seeming to be somewhere else entirely, "Jasper just tried to bite you! Edward managed to get here in time to stop him," I shrugged and leaned back, watching them take Jasper out the room to calm down.
"Bella it's what i get for sleeping in a room, perfectly aware there is a Vampire in it... i mean i know he would never hurt me on purpose, so he made a mistake, so what?" I said stretching. Bella looked furious.
"You could have been killed! We're vegetarians! We only live off animals! Jasper finds this the hardest," She explained running her fingers through her hair in frustration, "I knew this was going to end badly..." I shook my head and gave her a serious look.
"I told Jasper even before i knew he was a Vampire that i was not afraid of Vampires, if i died i died, if i lived i lived... i am not afraid of him, of any of you. Life if life, there is no point fearing what may happen, it's better to live what is happening...if Jasper kills me then i wont be around to know..." I said pushing the covers off me, "And i bloody hope you changed me..." I gave her a look and she laughed slightly.
"Yes i did change you," Bella said and pointed to Jaspers desk, "I brought you up some clothes,"
After i was changed i went down stairs into the kitchen. Esme was in there cooking.
"Hey... where's Jasper?" I asked taking a seat at the breakfast bar. She looked sad.
"Jasper has left to the Denali's," She said putting the food in front of me. I looked confusedly at her for a moment and she smiled softly.
"Jasper was very upset about what he almost did to you... you see before Bella was turned he almost bit her as well. He thought he was better controlled but Bella cut herself and he attacked. He was so upset earlier because you didn't even have any cuts," Esme explained as i ate.
"He' being an idiot," I muttered. I pulled out my phone.
"He probably won't answer," Esme warned me. I just gave her a smile that said 'i know'. I thanked her for breakfast and headed up to Jaspers room and dialled his number and then went straight to answering machine.
"Jasper you are being silly. I knew the dangers of having you there while i was asleep and i didn't care. You know my philosophy so stop being an arse and come home, everyone misses you. I miss you now come back!" I said calmly as i recorded my message.
Bella took me home shortly after that; i was feeling depressed and didn't want to ruin the mood when Renesmee turned up.
Saturday 28th of September
Jasper hadn't shown up for school all that week, and he still wasn't home. I tried his phone daily but all i got was the machine. I scowled as i got in my car and headed over to the Cullens. I hadn't been there all week and i felt like i was becoming antisocial.
I tapped the door with one finger and waited for it to open. I was surprised when a girl who looked about 10 opened the door and smiled to me. She was adorable, with long copper coloured locks, pale face and brown eyes.
"Hello, who are you?" She said smiling, "I'm Renesmee,"
"Uh hi i'm Lizzie," I said, thinking my nickname was inappropriate in this household, "Is your mum in?" I smiled to her warmly. She shook her head.
"Mum's out shopping with Grandma Esme, but Uncle Emmett and Auntie Rose is in the living room," She said as i kicked off my shoes. Renesmee took my hand and lead me into the front room. It was surprising how hot her hand was, i was used to the Cullens being ice cold but this girl was boiling.
"Uncle Emmett a lady called Lizzie is here," She said politely before taking a seat next to Rosalie on the sofa. He looked away from his football match and smiled to me.
"Hey there!" He said with a grin, "Come to join us?" I laughed and shrugged, sitting next to him on the sofa. I had never been a fan of sports but i didn't have much of a choice, and anyway, Emmett watching sports was hilarious, especially when he started yelling at the TV.
"HE CHEATED! CAN'T YOU SEE THAT YOU IDIOT," He yelled shaking his fist at the telly.
"Emmett i hope your aware that they can't hear you," I said with a smirk. I shivered as a breeze hit my face. He looked at me and then looked to the stairs.
"I know... i'll be right back," He said and shot Rosalie a look before going up stairs.
I sat staring at the TV for a moment before i felt the sofa go down and turned to see Renesmee sitting next to me.
"You're pretty..." She said with a smile. I smiled to her awkwardly.
"Um... thanks," I said watching as she scooted up to me, "You're very cute yourself," She grinned and showed me her iPod.
"I like music, do you like music?" She said smiling, "I love Mozart and Beethoven and Chopin and lots more," I blinked as i realized that the girl was listening to classical music.
"That's good... i like modern dance music," I said calmly, feeling the girls heat was starting to make me sweat. Luckily that was when Edward entered the room. Renesmee turned around beaming and ran over to him.
"Daddy i've been talking to Lizzie... she said she was looking for Mummy," Renesmee said taking her fathers hand. It was weird thinking Edward was a dad for a 10 year old when i went to school with him and he was a grade below me.
"She's just turned five," Edward said to me, correcting my thoughts. I was not going to get used to this.
"Oh..." I said smiling to Renesmee.
"Nessie go sit with Rose ok? I'm just going upstairs," Edward said and motioned for me to follow.
"Where are we going?" I said when we reached the top of the second flight of stairs. I looked into Jaspers room and was surprised to find him sitting there with Emmett. Emmett shook his head at Edward as he got up and left, taking Edward with him. I walked over to Jasper who just sat there, his head in his hands.
"Jasper?" I said sitting next to him slowly. He didn't look at me or say anything. I smiled softly and moved his hair so that i could see his face.
"Lizzie... i'm sorry..." He whispered so quietly i barely heard him.
"You have nothing to be sorry for, "I replied soothingly. He sat up and looked at me.
"I am dangerous Lizzie... you can not be friends with me anymore... i... i don't want to near me... just go away," He said, seeming to get slightly hysterical.
"Ok then," I whispered, careful to keep the emotions i wanted to feel bottled up before Jasper could sense them, "Bye,"
I made my way down stairs. Emmett and Edward where waiting at the bottom of the stairs, but i just walked straight past them, grabbed my coat and put on my shoes and left. I wanted to talk to them but i was afraid if i did i would cry, and then Jasper would feel bad and might leave again.
I was half way home before i let my first tear fall, and by the time i was home i was straight out sobbing my heat out. I darted up to my bed room and cried into my pillow. It was hours before i stopped, and that was only because i felt a cold hand rubbing my shoulders and turned to see Bella.
"I came in the window," She explained, a pitying look on her face. I felt dead inside; i couldn't even bring myself to reply to her.
"Jasper didn't mean anything he said... he's just upset with himself...you did an amazing job bottling up your emotions. Jasper was shocked you just agreed to what he said and left, feeling nothing he said," Bella just looked at me, her eyes looked scared.
"You need to talk to me Lizzie," She whispered, her cold hand on my cheek, "you have to stop this, he is just an idiot, he has lost a good friend and it's his loss, you need to pick yourself back up,"
But i knew i just couldn't, i was falling for him, hard. I couldn't imagine not talking to him. Although i had only had a week of school with him, the past week he was gone it was as though there was a hole in my life, like something wasn't right. I needed him in my life.
"I can't..." I whispered, closing my eyes, "I won't just give up," I sat up and looked to Bella. She smiled at me.
"Good," She said and hugged me, i hugged her back, "Jasper will come round eventually, and don't worry. Ignore him completely and he'll realize what he's missing,"
"And what is he missing exactly?" I said with a struggled smile.
"The woman he's been waiting for," She said with a grin. I scowled and got off my bed feeling very stiff.
Monday 30th September
When i got to school on Monday i found a very confused looking Jasmine waiting for me.
"Where's jasper?" She said looking around, "I thought you and he where joined at the hip, is he still ill?" I shrugged looking indifferent.
"Don't know don't care," I said. I could feel eyes on me and i heard the jeep pull into school.
"Lets go," I said and we made our way to History.
Jasmine looked at me worriedly.
"Did you two have a fight?" She asked as the door opened and the three Cullen's entered.
"No..." I said sighing, looking boredly at my text book.
"Then why aren't you speaking to him?" Jasmine hissed, thinking he couldn't hear.
"It's none of your business," I hissed back. Emmett turned around to us.
"Hey there Vamp..." He said grinning at me. I waved unenthusiastically.
"Hey Em," I said sighing.
"Why so blue?" He said, his face looked worried.
"Just tired, i haven't slept in ages..." I said with a yawn. In truth i hadn't slept since the night i spent at the Cullens, but i didn't say because i didn't want to worry Jasper.
"Know the feeling," He said with a wink, "I'm sure i can come round and knock you out tonight if you want," I chuckled half heartedly and shook my head.
"I'll take my chances thanks Em," I said as the teacher came in.
I walked to maths on my own, having left quickly as soon as he said 'dismissed'. I hadn't even looked at Jasper all through class; i knew if i did i would just feel pain. I had to keep my emotions in check so i just made myself feel numb. For once i completed all my maths problems and more during the lesson. And by the time i met Emmett out side of Chemistry i was like a machine, cold, hard and with out emotion.
"Vamp... you in there?" Emmett said waving his hand in front of my face. I swatted it away and sighed.
"Just get on with the experiment," I growled and handed him the beaker. BANG. It blew up as soon as he added the last chemical.
"MR CULLEN, MISS DAXON! FRONT NOW!" Our teacher yelled. I glared at Emmett, who shifted uncomfortably and made my way to the front.
By the time i got to lunch i couldn't be bothered to even eat. I took my seat next to Bella without even getting a tray of food.
"Where's your lunch," She said frowning.
"Not hungry," I said, twirling my hair around one of my fingers and pulled out my history text book and started to read as i heard the others join us.
"Hello Lizzie," Edward said.
"Hey..." I said, not really listening. Bella shifted and they left me alone for the rest of lunch. I could feel Jasper's gaze on me but i ignored it, it's what he wanted after all.
French was boring and by the time i got home i was barely functioning at all, i didn't even notice the other cars outside my house as i parked and went in side so i was shocked to find my dad and Carlisle in the living room.
"Dad? Carlisle?" I said standing in the door way.
"Hello Lizzie, your dad is worried about your health and wanted a second opinion," Carlisle said as i sat down.
"I'm fine..." I said plainly.
"No Elizabeth, i haven't a clue why but you have gone into depression... i know you have!" My dad said firmly, "Where has your smile gone Elizabeth?" I rolled my eyes at him.
"I have no clue what your talking about...i'm fine!" I almost shouted. But inside i knew that wasn't true, no matter how hard i tried i couldn't smile.
"Derek why don't you let me talk to her, you should be starting work now, so go, i'll stay and sort everything out ok," Carlisle said flashing one of his dazzling smiles. My dad sighed and nodded, grabbed his stuff and left.
I looked to Carlisle and sighed.
"Edward told me what happened on Saturday," Carlisle said calmly, "About what Jasper said to you, i was surprised at how close you both had gotten over the week. If your dad thinks your bad, he should see what we have a home, Jasper is a nightmare," He seemed to be trying to get me to relax and it worked. I felt comfortable with Carlisle, which was silly as he was a vampire, but i trusted him.
"I don't know what's wrong with me. I haven't a clue why i'm so upset," I murmured, knowing he could hear me. He laughed softly and tilted his head slightly.
"You'd be fine if you'd stop bottling it all up inside. It might do Jasper some good to see how much he has hurt you... he may then realize he's being a fool. He is stronger than he thinks, i know if Edward hadn't intervened he would never have bit you, he cares about you to much to. Like Edward never hurt Bella even though there where many near misses," Carlisle spoke softly, and it helped. I gave him a crooked smile.
"Come on," He said holding out his hand to me, "Lets go sort this out before Jasper destroys all the furniture," I took his hand and chuckled softly
"He's destroying furniture?" I said weakly. Carlisle nodded as we left and got into his very nice Mercedes.
"Esme is going to kill him if he doesn't stop," We drove fast, which didn't surprise me. Vampires seemed to have a need for speed.