The next day Sam woke up. She couldn't believe that tomorrow she'd be on a plane to London. There she would start the next chapter of her life and be one step closer to becoming a doctor. Also while she was in London she'd be making a life changing decision to give up her baby. She didn't want to but she felt she was backed into a corner with nowhere to turn. Although this would be the most difficult decision of her life she knew it was the right thing to do. What was making her feel even worse was her decision not to tell John about the pregnancy. She knew if she did he would want her to keep it. She couldn't do that. She got ready for the day. She looked at herself in the mirror hanging on her closet door. She put her hands on her stomach.
"Hi." Sam said. "I wish circumstances were different." "I wish I was older and able to take care of you." "I wish your daddy could know about you." She started to cry. "I want to keep you I do, but I can't." "God if I love you this much already I can't imagine what it's gonna be like when I have to give you up." "I love you so much." "Never forget that." "Please."
Sam went downstairs to the kitchen. Sam's mom was in the kitchen.
"Hi mom." Sam said.
"Hi."
"Mom what's wrong?"
"Nothing I just can't believe my little girl is going to London tomorrow for a whole year."
"Aw mom don't be sad yet." "I'm still here."
"I know but after tomorrow nothing will ever be the same again." "You'll go to London then come back and finish up college, go to medical school, get married, have children." "You won't need me anymore."
"Yes I will." "I'll always need you."
"Samantha I just want you to know how proud I am of you."
"Thanks."
"I'm glad you didn't make the same mistakes I did." "Not that you were a mistake your dad and I love you."
"Just not each other right?"
"I know you hear us sometimes."
"Dad only married you because you got pregnant with me didn't he?"
"You gotta understand when I got pregnant with you your dad and I were still in high school."
"High school I thought you found out that summer?"
"I actually found out the day we graduated." "Technically it was summer." "We'd only been dating for three months." "He got into Duke University." "Full scholarship." "When I told him I was pregnant he proposed to me." "He said he wanted us to be a family." "He gave up his scholarship, stayed here, got a job." "Then eight and half months later here you came." "For awhile we were the happy family, we were in love." "As the years went on that slowly started to change and we're where we're at now."
"How come you never told me this before?"
"I didn't want you to get the wrong idea." "Your dad loves you." "It's me he hates."
"If you two are that miserable why don't you get a divorce?"
"Well I don't know about him but I don't wanna be alone." "That's why I'm so glad you're making something of yourself." "Going to college and seeing the world." "Something I never got to do." "Not that I didn't accomplish my greatest achievement."
"What was that?"
"You." "I'll never forget when I found out I was pregnant with you." "I was scared but there was nothing in the world I wanted more then you." "I know it's hard to understand what I'm talking about now but when you're pregnant, one day you'll understand."
"I love you mom."
"I love you to Samantha." They hugged.
Later that night Randy picked Sam up. He said he had a surprise for her.
"Honey where are we." Sam asked. She had her eyes closed.
"Ok open your eyes." She opened her eyes. She saw a huge Yacht. "I rented it for the night." "We're gonna go out on it."
"Sounds like fun."
They went out on the boat. It was nighttime. Sam was looking up at the stars.
"Baby do you want some champagne?" Randy asked.
"Thanks but I can't drink."
"Why not?"
"My stomach doesn't feel good."
"You're not getting seasick are you?"
"No."
"Come here." She went over to him. He hugged her. He sighed.
"What's wrong?"
"Nothing." "I just don't ever wanna let you go." "I'm gonna miss you so much."
"I'm gonna miss you to." She kissed him. "I'll be back before you know it."
"I know." They kissed. "Let's go to bed."
"Ok."
They went down below to the bedroom. Afterward they were laying there.
"That is one thing I'm definitely gonna miss." Randy said.
"There's always phone sex."
"We've never done that before."
"I know but we're not gonna physically be together for a year." "I figure it's something we can at least try."
"Alright." "I wonder if college will go by as fast as high school did?"
"I don't know."
"I figure we can get married after college." "Then as your finishing becoming a doctor we can start our family." Sam looked at him and smiled.
"You wanna marry me?"
"Of course I wanna marry you." "I love you."
"I love you to." They kissed.
The next day Randy dropped Sam back off at home. Sam finished packing and went acrossed the street to say goodbye to John. She went up his room and knocked on the door.
"Come in." He said. She went in. "Hi."
"Hi." "I'm leaving in an hour." "Randy's picking me and AJ up and taking us to the airport."
"So this is it?"
"Yep."
"Come here." They hugged. "I'm gonna miss you Sammy."
"I'm gonna miss you to John." They looked at each other.
"Sam."
"What?"
"Sammy, I-
"What?"
"Never mind." "I can't." "I can't tell you."
"Tell me what?"
"Nothing."
"Tell me what you want to tell me." Suddenly he kissed her. She kissed him back. It was passionate and slow. They looked at each other when it broke.
"Samantha." He took a deep breath. "Samantha, I love you." "I've always loved you."
"Really?"
"Yes." "I know you're with Randy and you love him." "I'm not asking you to choose." "I just needed to tell you how I felt." "I know you're gonna marry him one day and have lots of babies." "I just wish it was me you picked." "That night we spent together meant so much to me." "It gave me a glimpse of the future I wanted." "The one I'll never have."
"Oh my god." "That poem was about me?" She said with tears in her eyes.
"Yes." "You read it?"
"Yeah." "That was the sweetest, saddest thing I've ever read in my life."
"Randy doesn't know how lucky he is."
"John I can't tell you what I mean but in a way we'll always be connected." "Even though we can't be together, for that reason, I love you."
"What are you talking about?" She kissed him.
"Just say you love me to."
"I love you to."
"I've gotta go."
"Wait." "One more." "The last one, forever." They kissed it was very much like the first kiss except either of them wanted to stop. They finally did after a few minutes.
"Bye John."
"Bye Sammy."
She left and stood outside his door. She put her hand on her stomach.
"Well your daddy's in love with me." She thought. "I realize now that I'm in love with him to." "It's to late because I love Randy more."
Sam, AJ, and Randy were at the airport. The flight was boarding.
"Bye Randy." AJ said.
"Bye AJ." He said. He looked Sam. "Come here baby." They hugged. She started to cry. "Don't cry." "You're gonna have a great time."
"I love you Randy."
"I love you to Samantha." They kissed.
"Bye."
"Bye."
Sam and AJ got on the plane. They took off.
"Sam are you still giving the baby up for adoption?" AJ asked.
"Yeah." "I've already picked an adoption agency over there."