Six months had passed. Sam and AJ were on plane back to New York. After summer break Sam was enrolling at Stanford University, so she could continue towards getting her medical license. Her summer break was only going to be a month long. She was going to take summer classes at Stanford. The internship gave her a year of college credits. For six months she'd been taking anti-depressants. No one knew. Not even AJ. She felt extremely guilty ever since she gave up Isabelle. The doctor who prescribed the anti-depressants suggested therapy. Before she left London she called around to find a therapist in New York. She found one twenty minutes away from her house. The plane landed. Sam and AJ were walking through the gate. Sam's parents were waiting for them.

"Welcome home you two." Sam's mom said.

"Hi mom." "It's great to see you." Sam said.

"It's great to see you to." "I'm so glad you're back. They hugged.

"It's good to be back."

"Ok." "My turn." Her dad said.

"Hi dad." They hugged.

"Hi AJ." Sam's mom said as she hugged her.

"Hi Mrs. Jenner." AJ said.

"AJ I've known you since you were two." "You can call me Jamie."

"I know."

"How was London?"

"Good."

Sam and her parents dropped off AJ at her house then went home. Sam went upstairs to unpack her stuff. Hidden underneath all her stuff was a small medal locked box. She unlocked it. Inside was Isabelle's hospital bracelet and a picture of Sam and Isabelle. On the back was written "Mommy and Isabelle." "December 25th 1997." "Six lbs. Seven oz."

"Hi Isabelle." Sam said out loud. "I love you." She kissed the picture locked it back up and hid it on the top shelf of her closet.

Later that day Sam was sitting on her front porch. She saw John's mom working in her garden.

"You have a beautiful granddaughter Carol." Sam thought. "I'm sorry you never got to meet her."

Sam got up and went acrossed the street.

"Hi Samantha." Carol said.

"Hi Carol."

"I thought you were in London."

"I was." "I just got back a few hours ago." "How's John?"

"Good, he's glad to be back."

"He's home?"

"Yeah he got back yesterday." "I had him run to the store for me." "He should be back soon."

"Well it was nice seeing you."

"You to."

Sam went back to her house. Twenty minutes later she was laying on her bed in her bedroom. There was a knock on her door.

"Come in." She said. John walked in.

"Sammy." John said smiling. Sam sat up.

"Hi John." He sat down next to her. They hugged.

"I missed you."

"I missed you to."

"How was London?"

"Great." "How was your first year of college?"

"Good."

"Get a lot of girls."

"None."

"Why not?"

"I didn't want any of them." "Ironically the only woman I want I can't have because she's my best friend's girl." "That hasn't stopped me from thinking about you every single day." "Missing your face, your smile, your voice."

"John you need to forget about me."

"I can't." "I love you."

"I'm not gonna lie and say I don't love you." "I do love you." "I'm with Randy though." "I love Randy to."

"I know."

"I wish I could be with you both but I can't."

"I know." "I love you more then he does."

"John you're gonna find someone who makes you happy." "To do that you have to let me go." He kissed her. She kissed him back. She pulled away. "John there's something I should tell you."

"What?" She got up and opened her closet door. She was getting ready to reach up on the top shelf when her cell phone started ringing. She went to get it.

"Hello?" "Hi Randy." John left.

The next day Samantha went to her first therapy session. She sat on the couch.

"Hello Samantha." The doctor said. "I'm doctor Green."

"Hello."

"Why are you here?"

"The doctor who prescribed my anti-depressants suggested therapy and I thought it was a good idea."

"Why are you on anti-depressants?"

"I've been on them for six months." "Ever since I gave up my baby." She said with tears in her eyes.

"You placed your child up for adoption?"

"Yes."

"Why?"

"Last year my boyfriend broke up with me." "Not long after that I slept with one of my best friends." "He's also my boyfriend's best friend." "About six weeks after my boyfriend broke up with we got back together." "Soon after that I found out I was pregnant." "I knew my boyfriend was not the father." "I didn't want to ruin my friend's plans for his future." "The only person who knew of my pregnancy was my best friend." "I had gotten accepted into an internship in London." "It was a year long." "I went there had my baby and gave her up for adoption."

"Do you regret it?"

"Every day since but I know the adoptive can give her a much better life then I ever could have." "I thought the pain would eventually go away." "It still hurts just as much as the day I did it."

"If you had it to do over again, would you make the same decision?"

"No."

"The father of the baby." "What's his name?"

"John."

"Do you love John?"

"I love him very much." "I also love my boyfriend and I've chosen to be with him."

"Does John love you?"

"Yes." "It breaks my heart to tell him I can't be with him." "When he tells me he loves me I can feel how much he means it." "I know he means it with all his heart and he wants nothing more then to be with me." "On the other hand I love my boyfriend, Randy." "We've been together four years." "He's wonderful."

"Do you feel guilty for not telling John about your pregnancy?"

"As guilty as I feel for giving up our daughter."

"What do you want to get out of these sessions?"

"I want the pain to stop."

Later that night Sam was in her room. Her mom called her to come downstairs. She was walking down the stairs. When she got about halfway down she couldn't believe who she saw waiting for her at the bottom

"Oh my god, Randy!" She ran the rest of the way down the stairs and jumped into Randy's arms. "I missed you so much." They kissed.

"I missed you to baby."

"I thought you weren't coming home for another week."

"I lied." "I wanted to surprise you." He put her down. "I wanna give you your Christmas present." Sam looked over and saw her parents and John and AJ standing there.

"Why are they all watching us?" Randy took a box out his pocket.

"They wanna see me do this." Randy got down on one knee.

"Oh my god." "What are you doing?"

"I know we said we'd wait until after college and we will." "Being away from you this past year made me want to ask you this all the more." He opened the box. A beautiful ring was inside. "I love you." "Samantha Emily Jenner, will you marry me?"

"Yes." He put the ring on her finger. They kissed. As they were hugging she looked at John. He was trying to hide it she could see the pain and hurt in John's eyes.