Three months had passed. It was almost time for Christmas break. Sam was going home for Christmas. She really didn't want to but she wanted to see Randy. She was more depressed then usual. In a few days was Isabelle's first birthday. Sam was having a therapy session before she left for New York.

"Samantha you seem very sad today." The doctor said.

"I am."

"Does it have anything to do with Isabelle's upcoming birthday?"

"Yes." "I just keep thinking about all the stuff I've missed." "She's probably walking now." "Maybe she's even said mommy." She said with tears in her eyes.

"Samantha how do you feel?"

"Guilty, alone."

"Why alone?"

"No one knows what I'm going through." "How sad I am, how guilty I feel." "Not even AJ."

"Would you feel better if you confided in her?"

"I don't know." "Maybe."

"What are your plans for the Christmas holiday?"

"I'm going home." "If I didn't want to see Randy I wouldn't even go."

"Why?"

"I don't want to see John." "He deserves to know about Isabelle but I can't tell him." "I feel so guilty and so shameful for not telling him."

"I think you should." "I think it will help you heal."

"Heal?" "John would hate me forever." "It would also ruin a life long friendship."

"So you would rather live with the guilt the rest of your life?"

"I have to." "I have no choice."

"Yes you do."

The next day Randy had arrived home a few hours ago. He knew Sam was coming home today. He decided to go visit John. He needed someone to talk to. He went to John's house and up to his room. He walked in the room.

"Hey man." John said. "What's up?"

"Not much." "How have you been?"

"Good." "I have a new girlfriend."

"Cool." "What's her name?"

"Riley." "We've been going out for about three months."

"Good for you." "Listen I have a problem and I don't know what to do about it."

"What's wrong?"

"I cheated on Sam."

"You what?" "How could you do that to her?"

"I know." "It was only one time." "In the library." "I wanna tell Sam." "Do you think I should?"

"Do you still wanna marry her?"

"More then anything."

"Then you have to tell her."

"I hope she doesn't break up with me but I wouldn't blame her if she did." "I feel so bad."

Later that night everyone met at the "Dairy Shack" to catch up.

"Hey Trish." John said. "How are you doing?"

"Good."

"How's that Chris guy?"

"We're not together anymore."

"Oh sorry."

"I don't even go to Hudson anymore." "I transferred to NYU."

"Oh I forgot Phil and Trish don't know yet." Randy said.

"Oh yeah they don't." Sam said. "Look guys." She held out her ring hand.

"You guys are getting married?" Trish said.

"Yeah."

"Congratulations."

"Thanks."

"That's great." Phil said. "Well I guess I should share my news." "I'm married."

"What?" Everyone said.

"Yeah." He held up his ring hand. It had a wedding ring on it.

"When the hell did this happen?" John asked.

"Last month."

"Well thanks for the invitation Phil we love you to." Sam said.

"We eloped." "No one was there." "We wanted to get married before the baby came."

"Baby?" Trish said. "She's pregnant?"

"Yeah."

"That great I'm so happy for you."

"Thanks."

The next night it was Christmas Eve. Sam went over to Randy's house. They were in his room laying on his bed watching TV.

"Randy what's a matter?" She asked.

"Sam I have something to tell you."

"Ok."

"Baby I'm sorry."

"What did you do?"

"I cheated on you." "It was only one time." "I'll never do it again." Sam's eyes filled with tears. She got up and put on her coat without saying a word. "Sam I'm sorry." She walked out the door.

She went to AJ's and told her what happened. They were in AJ's room.

"I can't believe him." AJ said. "What a bastard."

"I'm upset but I suppose I can't be to mad at him." "I'm not perfect either."

"What do you mean?"

"I only got pregnant by his best friend, hid the pregnancy from everyone but you, then went to another country gave birth and put my daughter up for adoption." "If that doesn't say I'm at fault to, I don't know what does."

"Sam I know you're upset about what happened with Isabelle but that doesn't give Randy the right to treat you this way."

"It hasn't gotten any easier." "I've been on anti-depressants for a year." "I'm in therapy."

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"I didn't want anyone to know what a basket case I've become." "My therapist thinks I should tell John about Isabelle." "I can't."

"Why?"

"If I do it'll be like I gave Isabelle up for nothing." "Everyone will get hurt."

"What about how much you're hurting?"

"That's just something I have to live with."

The next day Sam was all alone in her room. She got a cupcake and one candle. She held the cup cake in one hand and the picture of her and Isabelle in the other.

"Happy birthday Isabelle." She blew out the candle. "Mommy loves you."

After that she went to Randy's. He was in the kitchen.

"Can we talk?" Sam said.

"Yeah."

They went up to his room.

"You really hurt me Randy." Sam said.

"I know." "I'm so sorry."

"Why?"

"Because I'm an idiot."

"Was it because you really don't want to get married?"

"No I want to marry you more then anything." "I want to build a life together, for you to have my children."

"You swear that was the only time?"

"I swear."

"Ok I'll forgive you this time." "If there's a next time I won't be so forgiving." "Do you understand?"

"Yes." "There won't be a next time." "I promise." "Come here." They hugged. He kissed her. "I love you Sam."

"I love you to Randy."