Chapter 10

Joey's p.o.v

When Lauren said earlier was a mistake i could feel my heart breaking.

I love her so much earlier made me realize just how much and i know Lauren felt it to i could see it in her eyes and she told me that she loves me surely that can't have been a lie. And now she is pushing me away i think my mum nearly catching us earlier has really scared her. It scared me two.

The way she makes me feel scares me but i want us to be scared together not pretending that we can move on like nothing ever happened because i don't think i could not now not even if i wanted to which i don't I need to talk to her i just have to know if there is any chance that i can convince her to give us a shot rater than running away as soon as we nearly get caught. I went upstairs and stood outside her door i was about to knock when i heard sobbing. I sighed heavily before deciding to walk straight in. As i walked in i saw Lauren crying into her pillow. I walked over cautiously and sat down next to her.

End of Joey's p.o.v

Lauren's p.o.v

I had been crying for a while i had no idea that one person could cry this much.

All of a sudden i felt the bed dip next to me i didn't even hear anyone come in. without even looking i knew it was Joey he is the only one who would see me crying like this and not ask me loads of questions.

After about another 10 minutes i had finally composed myself enough to ask him to leave.

"Please just go away Joey" i said in a whisper for some reason.

"No I'm not going anywhere until we talk about this " he stated refusing to move.

"There is nothing to say i told you earlier was a mistake and we can't be together and i meant it" I said sitting up and finally looking at him.

"No I'm going to accept that because i know you don't think earlier was a mistake. I know you think it was special just like i do" he said while wiping my tears away.

"It doesn't matter how special it was or how much i enjoyed it we still cant be together" i said as fresh tears fell.

"Why baby I love you and you love me" he said moving closer to me and grabbing my hand and holding it in his i tried to pull my hand away but he held on to it tighter.

"I don't " i said regretting the words as soon as i said them.

"Don't what " he said looking confused.

"Love you" i said trying to sound convincing.

"OK now that is just low and a lie " he said tilting my chin up so i had to look at him.

"Its not a lie i mean it i don't love you i lied when i said i did" i said still not looking into his eyes.

"OK then if you really don't love me look me in the eyes and and tell me you don't love me" he said smirking.

I tried my best to compose myself i had no idea how the hell i was going to get through the next few minutes.

After taking a deep breath i looked into his eyes trying to find the words.

I spent about 5 minutes just gazing into his eyes.

Right come on Lauren if you don't do this now your not going to be able to i thought to myself.

Taking another deep breath finally gathering my thoughts.

"I...I don't l" before i could finish my sentence he crashed our lips together.

As much as i new it would be for the best if i pulled away i just couldn't.

I felt myself respond to the kiss it was a kiss that quickly deepened.

I came to my senses as Joey started undoing my blouse. I reluctantly pushed him off of me.

"I told you this cant happen" i said doing my buttons back up.

"That's not what you were thinking while kissing me was it" he questioned.

"It doesn't matter what i was thinking or feeling and is doesn't matter how you feel" i said "we cant be together it will tear our family apart" i stated.

"Who says they ever have to find out " he questioned.

"How are we going to keep it a secrete from them we live in the same house they are going to realize that something is going on sooner or later." i questioned.

"We would manage somehow " he said.

"I don't think that if we are together i can hide how i really feel about you or how you make me feel" i said sighing.

"And you think it is going to be easier to hide how we feel if were not together" he questioned unconvinced.

" I dunno anymore you have got me so i don't know how to feel anymore" i said as fresh tears fell.

"You make me feel the same way babe" he said tucking a hair behind my ear.

We were sat there in silence for a few minutes not really knowing what else to say to each other.

"Talk to me babe i need to know why you have been avoiding me all day and trying to pretend you don't love me when you clearly do" he finally said smiling weakly.

"I'm scared" i whispered.

"I know you are so am i the way you make me feel scares the hell out of me " he said.

"I don't mean that although that scars me to" i admitted.

"Then what are you scared of" he questioned softly.

"everybody finding out and hating us or worse not wanting anything to do with us at all" i stated

"Oh babe" he said before hugging me tightly.

"I think they are going to understand it more than you think, they already think that something is going on i really don't think they are going to be that shocked" he said.

"I'm not ready for them to find out yet" i admitted.

"Then we keep it just between us Lauren Please just give us a chance" he pleaded.

"I dunno Joey i don't want to get my heart broken" i said.

"I promise you i will never break your heart. As long as we love and trust each other i know we can get through anything" he said smiling.

"OK but please don't break my heart i really don't think i could get through it if you did" i said before hugging him tightly once more.

A lot of you wanted me to continue so i hope you like this chapter. please please review so i know you like it and want me to carry on xxx