Chapter 12

Lauren's p.o.v

When we got home i pretty much went straight to bed. After about half an hour of trying to get to sleep there was a knock at my door.

I didn't answer them but whoever it was came in anyway i couldn't see who it was cause i was looking out the window.

I felt the bed dip beside me a few moments later.

I knew it was Joey straight away cause he put his arms around my waist and his head on my shoulder.

The thought of everyone finding out about us scared the hell out of me there is only one thing that scares me more and that is the thought of losing Joey.

"We should really talk about it babe" he said after a few minutes.

"I know but can we just lay here for a few more minutes" i questioned.

"Course babe but we do need to decide what we are going to do " he said kissing the side of my head.

"What do you mean what we are going to do " i said turning round so i was facing him.

"Well you heard what Sharron said if we don't tell the family then she is going to" he said.

"Do you really think she will" i questioned sighing.

"She looked pretty serious to me babe" he said.

"Why would she do this to us what have we ever done to her" i said as tears fell down my face.

"I don't think it is cause of anything we have done. I think she meant it when she said she didn't want to lose your mum as a friend" he said wiping my tears away.

"Yer but she wouldn't have to who says that they would find out that Sharron knew. when we do decide to tell them we don't have to mention that she knew anything about it " i exclaimed.

"I don't know babe i guess we could suggest it to her see what she says" he said before kissing me softly.

The kiss deepened quickly and before i knew what i was doing i was straddling his legs and undoing the buttons on his shirt it was getting pretty heated when we heard foot steps on the landing. I sighed before getting off him as he did his buttons up.

"Us keep getting interrupted is getting very annoying"i said sighing before the door opened and Abi and Alice came in.

"Joey what are you doing in here" Alice questioned.

"Oh we were just talking" i said smiling.

"Right well i better go to bed let you girls get some sleep" Joey said smiling before he left.

"Are you OK Lauren you seemed upset when you came home and then you just came straight up here" Alice questioned concerned.

"Yer I'm fine just really tired and missing Bradley today that's all" i said seeing Abi smiling at me sympathetically.

I wasn't lying i have been missing Bradley a lot especially lately. I could always talk to him about anything and he would never judge me he would only give me advice no matter what the issue was.

Sure he was nerdy and he loved things that i really didn't like. But he was the one person in the world that i was closest to and when he died it effected me really badly.

I felt like i not only lost my brother i felt like i lost my best friend as well.

"Who's Bradley" Alice said bringing me from my thoughts.

"He was my brother" i replied.

"was?" Alice questioned.

"Yer he died almost 3 years ago " i said.

"Oh I'm so sorry" Alice said before hugging me tightly.

"Thanks Alice it means a lot really"i said smiling weakly.

A couple of hours past and even though i was really tired from everything that took place today i still couldn't sleep so i decided to go for a walk and i ended up at Bradley's tree. I haven't been here in a while it just brings everything back. I just wish i could go back to that night and stop Bradley from falling or make him tell the truth about what happened to Archy so i could still have my brother here.

"Hey Bradley look i don't even know if you can hear me but i needed someone to talk to and you were always a good listener so here goes. Everything is a mess first i fall in love with my cousin but i know i can't be with him. Then i realize i can't fight the way i feel about him so i give into my feelings. And then Sharron sees us kissing and tells us if we don't tell our family then she is going to. I just wish there was some way you could tell me what to do next you were always good at sorting out my messes. God i wish you were here Bradley i miss you so much you really were the best friend i have ever had .I'm sorry i haven't been here in a while i just brings it all back you know all the pain and guilt i felt after you died. I mean maybe if i was a better sister you could of told me what was going on and i might of been able to help you. I just wish there was some way i could see you again just one last time even if it was just to say goodbye."

"Lauren what are you doing here it is really late and its dangerous for you to be out by yourself late at night especially round here"Joey said from behind me making me jump.

"Did you follow me" i asked still recovering from being scared.

"Well yer as i just said it is dangerous for you to be out late by yourself" he said before sitting on the bench next to me.

"I just wanted to feel close to Bradley so i came here. Although we didn't have his ashes we still planted this tree for him" i said.

I had told Joey quite a lot about Bradley when he first moved in with us because he had heard my mum and dad arguing about my dads affairs and my mum said something like you were the one who slept with Bradley's wife your own son and you go and do that to said that he wished he had met Bradley cause he sounded like a really nice person.

"I understand babe but you should have come and got me i would have walked here with you . With you actually knowing about it of course"he said smiling slightly.

"Did you listen to everything i said.

"I tried not to but i couldn't help over hearing most of it" he said.

Grate now he must think I'm a right nutter for talking to someone who i cant even see.

"Maybe we should get back babe its nearly morning now" he said.

"Why don't we watch the sun rise then" i suggested.

"OK baby if you would like that"he said.

"I would that i love watching the sun rise is so beautiful" i exclaimed while Joey laughed.

Several hours later...

Tonight is my first shift at r&r and I'm really nervous about it manly because Sharron is going to be there and I'm scared that she isn't going to agree to our compromise.

"Come on Lauren or we are going to be late " i heard Joey call for the bottom of the stairs.

"Alright alright I'm coming" i said coming down the stairs dressed in the skinniest jean i could find and my favorite black vest top which showed quite a bit of cleavage. I saw Joey swallow as i walked down the stairs which made me smile from ear to ear.

"Oh good your both here i want a quick word in the office before you get to work"Sharron said before leading us to the office.

"So have you told your family yet " Sharron questioned as soon as we got into the office.

"No look Sharron if you don't tell them then when we are ready to tell them we won't mention you knew anything about it" Joey said.

"So what do you say " i added.

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