A/N: First of all I would like to thank Ellstra, dyceymeow, Hunter Hatake and Neko Uchiha, Forgotten Dragon and Lu-the fallen angel for reviewing! As well as I would like to thank everyone who has favorited and followed the story! You guys make me really happy ^.^

Okay, so there wasn't a song for the first chapter, but there is for this one! ( warning, my song choices can be VERY random and VERY different from each other ) The song for this chapter is Highway Don't Care by Tim Mcgraw

And I would like to share a bit of a haha! I am corrupting my sister's step daughter (muhahaha she will be one of us)! Yesterday when she wanted me to pick her up I got her to say beam me up scotty! As well as, even though she's three, I got her to say live long and prosper! I think I am the best aunt ever :P

Once again, I do not own any of the Star Trek characters as much as I wish I could sleep cuddled up to Spock every night!

On with the show!

Chapter 2: Highway Don't Care

I woke up alone to Bones rustling around the room, placing a glass of water and my clothes on the nightstand beside me. I blinked and looked around, the chair had been replaced but Spock was gone.

"If you're looking for your pointy eared friend he left after the flash of my camera woke him." Bones muttered, scratching the back of his head. I stared at him incredulously and he shrugged. "I had to lock myself in the bloody bathroom to keep him away from me! I thought I was a goner!"

"You took a picture of him? Why the hell did you do that?" I yelled, pulling the blankets off of myself and swinging my legs around to the side of the bed. I groaned, stretching slightly. Shit I was stiff.

"I had to! See why for yourself, I brought you some souvenirs of your unconscious time." He said, smirking as he handing me a small pile of pictures. I flipped through them quickly. Three of him in different sleeping positions on the chair. Five of him in various positions, either in the chair holding my hand, or his head on the bed holding my hand. The last one was this morning, his leg around mine as well his arm. My arm was around him and my head was tucked under his chin and a small smile was on his face. I started blushing and wondered when he would come visit me. What if last night's kiss was lust for him and not love like it was for me.

"You're free to go Jimbo. Scotty and Uhura said they would probably stop by your apartment later. I'm going to give you some iron pills and, just in case you need them, anxiety pills." He said, handing me a small paper bag before patting my shoulder and leaving. I sighed, standing up and taking off the hospital robe. Damn… I'll need to eat a little more, I look a little twiggy…

I sighed, pulling my clothes on and grabbing the apartment keycard and my car keys and leaving the room. I signed the necessary paper work and within half an hour I was sitting on my living room couch, trying to keep all thoughts of Spock out of my head. Damn him… Damn him for making me fall in love with him!

It had been two and a half weeks after I was released from the hospital and still Spock hadn't even bothered to contact me. I scared him off I guess. I was lying in bed, half asleep and trying to decide whether or not to get up and do groceries. Scotty, Sulu, Uhura and Chekov had come to visit me, as well as Bones coming to check up on me, but no pointy eared sex god.

I sighed and suddenly I felt a body slide over mine. I froze as my hands were pulled up and tied to the bed post and a cloth was tied around my eyes. What the fuck was going on, and why didn't I fight it?

"You have no idea how long I've wanted to do this Captain." Spock whispered in my ear. I moaned as he bit down on my neck, his hand sliding down my chest. Odd, I don't remember going to bed naked. The blindfold made everything feel ten times as strong and when his lips came to mine I moaned again.

"I love you Spock." I groaned as he pulled the blankets off of me. There was no reply and I heard a pop and then a lubed finger slipped in to my virgin asshole. I inhaled sharply as his digit probed around and then cried out his name when he hit my prostate. I heard him chuckle and another finger was added. It hurt slightly as he scissored me, but the way he hit my prostate almost every time had me moaning in pleasure. He withdrew his fingers and I was embarrassed when I realized I was whining for more.

"Don't worry Captain." His voice sounded… off, but I couldn't place why. Maybe he was that turned on? Slowly, I felt his dick sliding in to my ass and I clenched my jaw to keep from whimpering in pain. It felt like forever before he was fully in, his hands gripping my waist. I wriggled my hips slightly and heard his intake of breath as he started slowly pulling out before ramming in to me. I cried out and when he hit my prostate again I screamed his name. I heard a deep laugh that really didn't sound like him and I felt his hand wrap around my throat as he kept pounding in to me, taking off my blindfold.

I cried out when I saw Khan overtop of me and squirmed underneath him. His hand clenched my throat painfully and I whimpered pathetically.

"You really love him that much, don't you?' He growled, slamming in to me hard enough that tears started to flow. "Pathetic. How does it feel Captain? To know that I am the only reason you are alive? To know that just moments ago, I was bringing you immense pleasure." I felt like someone was shaking me and I clenched my eyes closed before opening them again.

I was in my room, it was no longer dark, the sun was shining in and Spock sat beside me, his jaw tight and his hand on my naked shoulder. I was wearing pj bottoms, unlike in the… Nightmare. That's all it was, was a nightmare. I shuddered and looked away, feeling the tears streaking down my face.

"I… Apologize Captain. The door let me in when I said who I was and when I touched your shoulder after you mumbled my name I… saw your dream." He grumbled. I groaned as my cheeks flushed.

"How much of it did you see?" I whispered.

"You cried out my name… Why?" He asked, gently grabbing my chin and making me look at him.

"Because I thought it was you, obviously. It sounded like you… At first." I admitted, removing his hand from my face.

"And me doing such acts to you would cause you pleasure?" He asked, blinking in confusion.

"Why are you here?" I growled, throwing the blanket off. Thanks to Khan's appearance in the dream, I had no boner. Which was a good thing in this case. Having morning wood would have probably made this a very awkward situation, even though it was pretty awkward already.

"I wanted to clarify some things about the other night. When you kissed me." He said, standing up and placing his hands behind his back as he backed away to give me space. I stood up carefully, running a hand through my hair.

"Don't bother, I already understand perfectly." I growled, walking in to the closet so he couldn't see me change.

"Captain, it was obviously an adrenaline rush caused by seeing my memories that caused you to kiss me the way you did. I apologize, I should not have allowed that to happen, after all it is prohibited for the Captain to have sexual relations with a lower officer." He said as I threw on a black pair of jeans and a plain white t-shirt. I stormed out, getting in his face as he froze, unsure of what to do.

"No, you listen! For one, we are off duty, and it appears that we will be for almost a year before the Enterprise is back up and running. Fuck the god damn rules. It was not adrenaline for me. It wasn't lust and clearly you weren't listening or you would have heard me say I love you!" I yelled, grabbing my car keys from behind him.

"Captain, wait. Where are you going?" He said, following me as I left the room.

"I'm going for a drive." I growled. "That okay with you, Dad?"

"I am in no way your father. As well as I do not believe that you should be driving in your current condition, you could get in an accident and hurt yourself." He said. I narrowly dodged him grabbing my arm and I spun around.

"Shut! Up!" I screamed. He froze and I noticed I was breathing heavily. "Just shut the hell up Spock! Stop acting like you actually give a shit. I am sick of feeling sorry for myself because I let you lead me on you pompous douchebag!"

He stood motionlessly, a look of shock on his face.

"Captain, I-." I didn't give him a chance to finish as I stormed out the door. The more he yelled "Captain" down the hall, the quicker I started walking. He couldn't even call me by name. Why did I think an emotionless elf would fucking have feelings for me?

I was lucky and the elevator opened as soon as I hit the button. I slid in and heard his footsteps quicken in to running. I hit the ground floor button and started mashing the door close.

"James!" he yelled, arriving just as the doors finished closing. I collapsed, tears forming in my eyes. I refused to let them out until I was in my car. I didn't need to have people questioning me. The elevator doors opened and I quickly walked out and through the door to the parking complex. I pressed the button on my car remote to unlock the door and slid in to the driver's seat.

I sank down and started to cry harder than I have ever cried. The tears came streaming out and I could do nothing to stop them. I sniffled slightly, wiping at my cheeks as I sighed and put the key in the ignition. The passenger door opened and I jumped as Spock sat down in the passenger seat, closing the door gently behind him.

"Get out of my car." I growled, not turning to look at him.

"James." He said stiffly. I turned to look at him, my rage boiling up again.

"Oh, so I'm no longer Captain to you? How convenient for you to finally start using my god damn name!" I yelled. "Now, get. Out. Of. My. CAR!"

"You are going to listen to me." He growled, grabbing my right arm and shaking me slightly. I hissed in pain as his gripped tightened and I wouldn't be surprised if he broke my arm.

"What the hell do you want?"

"I wasn't afraid to die. But when you were dying in front of me and there was absolutely nothing I could fucking do, I lost it. I cried. I didn't even cry when my own mother died in front of me!" He yelled. I blinked slightly and clenched my jaw as his grip tightened even more. "Do not EVER insinuate that my feelings for you are a fabrication!" He yelled, shaking me. I looked down, ashamed of myself. I was just so broken hearted and angry that I let the words fall out when I should have thought them through.

"Sorry." I whispered. He shook me again and I cried out. He gasped and let go of my arm as I looked up at his pained face. His eyes were on my arm, which already had an angry black bruise in the shape of hand on it. He lifted a hand and I unconsciously flinched back from him. His face contorted in pain and then he was out of the car and gone before I could blink.

I screamed out in frustration and turned the key, pulling out of the parking lot and quickly going to a back yard stretch of road. There were no cars around me and I stepped on the gas.

I don't know how long I had been driving in silence for when my comm started beeping. I dug in to my pocket, flipping it open and glancing for a second at the screen to see Uhura.

"Eyes on the road." She said. I smirked and returned my eyes to the long stretch of pavement in front of me.

"What's up?" I asked, pressing down on the gas some more.

"What happened between you and Spock?" She asked. I rolled my eyes and my grip on the steering wheel got tighter.

"Straight to the point, huh?" I growled.

"I'm worried, I've never seen him so… Distraught. Emotional at all."

"Odd, seeing as you would think he'd show emotion during sex. You guys dated for how long, after all."

"KIRK!" She yelled. I chuckled darkly and narrowed my eyes as my smile faded.

"What happened doesn't matter. I shouldn't have been revived. I should have stayed dead." I grumbled. "Everyone and everything would be better off if I were dead."

I heard a loud crash somewhere in the background and looked over at the comm when I heard Uhura protesting. Spock appeared a second later, a look of anger and horror on his face. So he was there and had gotten Uhura to call for him. Wow, almost as pathetic as me making sure he always had access in case he came by while I was in the shower or sleeping

"Don't ever speak like that!" He yelled. I looked away and tightened my jaw.

"It's true." I whispered.

"No it's not! I wouldn't be better off if you were dead!" He yelled. I closed my eyes for a second, then opened them and looked in to his.

"Bye Spock." I whispered, closing the comm and throwing it in the passenger seat.

I drove for a while, the only noise being the sound of the comm beeping non-stop. Finally I couldn't take it anymore and turned on the radio, blaring the volume and stepping on the gas pedal ever so slightly. Tears started falling down my face once more as the lyrics sank in.

I bet your window's rolled down and your hairs pulled back. And I bet you got no idea you're going way too fast.

I pressed as hard as I could on the gas pedal in defiance, wiping my tears away and setting my jaw.

You're trying not to think about what went wrong. You're trying not to stop till you get where you're going. You're trying to stay awake so I bet you turned on the radio, and the song goes:

"I can't live without you, I can't live without you baby. I can't live without you, I can't live without you baby, oh baby." I sang along, shutting my mouth when I realized what I was doing.

The highway won't hold you tonight. The highway don't know you're alive. The highway don't care if you're all alone, but I do, I do! The highway won't dry your tears, the highway don't need you here, the highway don't care if you're coming home. But I do, I do!

My tears started all over again as I thought of Spock. If you don't wake up, I don't want to either. And then just today. I wouldn't be better off if you were dead!

I wiped at my cheeks again and hit the steering wheel.

I bet you got a dead cell phone in your shot gun seat.

I looked over at the comm, which I couldn't hear over the music but was blinking. Close enough.

Yeah, I bet you're bending god's ear talking about me. I chuckled and shook my head silently.

You're trying not to let the first tear fall out. You're trying not to think about turning around. You're trying not to get lost in the sound. But that song is always on, so you sing along.

"I can't live without you, I can't live without you baby. I can't live without you, I can't live without you baby, oh baby." This time I smiled slightly as I sang along. I took a deep breath and leaned over, grabbing the comm and flipping it open.

"Finally, James!" Spock yelled.

"Shut up." I said, smirking slightly. "I'm sorry. That was a stupid and selfish thing for me to say." He was silent for a moment as the chorus went off in the background.

"I do care." He grumbled. "When are you coming home?"

"Now." I said, slamming on the brakes as I spun the wheel and tried to spin the car around. I say try because I really didn't realize how fast of was going and I cried out as the car rolled on to its side. The comm fell from my hand and I gripped the steering wheel, my eyes closed. The only thing going through my mind, the only sound I could register was the radio. I can't live without you, I can't live without you baby…

It was silent and I realized I must have blacked out. The engine was off, a slight squeaking, puttering noise ringing in my ears, and then I realized Spock was calling out my name.

"James!" I don't think I've ever heard him so scared. I groaned, rubbing my forehead and pulling back a hand sticky with blood. I looked around for the comm and tried to reach it. It was too far away for me to grab it and when I tried to reach my seatbelt I heard a sickening crack and cried out in pain.

"I'm alive." I managed to breathe out. "Barely."

"Oh thank god." I heard Uhura say. I could hear an engine in the background of their comm... Oh god no, I wouldn't let Spock see this again.

"We're tracking your comm, we'll be there soon." He said, confirming my fears. Blood was dripping in a steady stream from my forehead, hitting the roof of the car with a small plip sound.

"No Spock… I don't think I'll make it out, I'm trying really hard to keep my eyes open but… You don't need to see that again." I groaned weakly, using my other hand to undo my seatbelt. It gave way quicker than I expected and my body crashed on to the roof with an audible thunk. I whimpered slightly when I landed on my arm, not realizing I had reflexively put it out to break my fall. I could feel my mind slipping and I was tired… So fucking tired. I couldn't go again without seeing his face, and it was as cruel and selfish and wishing I were dead. But I just needed to see him one last time.

"Don't talk like that, James." He growled. I groaned in agony as I finally managed to wrap a bloody hand around the comm and pull it to me, coughing slightly and feeling a warm liquid ooze out of the corner of my mouth. All I could taste was metal but I shook it off and propped myself up so I could see his face. He inhaled sharply and I knew it was as bad as I felt.

"Uhura." I grumbled, holding back another round of coughing.

"Yeah?" She called, her voice strained. I looked in to his human brown eyes, filled with fear and I swallowed hard.

"Take care of him." I said, placing my finger over the off button as darkness crept up in to my mind. "Love you."

Yay, long chapter :) Out of the chapters I've written so far, this one is prooobably one of my favourites :) Anyways I hope you enjoy and stay tuned for the next installment on Sunday! THANK YOU FOR READING, YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST