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The song for this chapter is No More by Three Days Grace
I don't freaaaaking oooown theeeem
Chapter Thirteen – No More
I sputtered quietly in the dark alley that I had shoved the man in to, my body once again covered in blood. The silver blade was still in my hand and I suppressed a sob, thankful that my comm was left in my jacket pocket.
"Spock." I whispered, not turning on the video. He didn't need to see this and I needed to hide the body and get out of here. Fuck, it was broad daylight! And I couldn't blame Kahn… I… I had done this!
"James, what is wrong?" His voice was strained, and he had every right to be.
"I just killed someone." I said quietly, grunting as I pulled the body behind a dumpster and hid.
"I thought Khan had faded?" He said, sounding alarmed. I heard shuffling through the comm and knew he was about to come find me.
"No, I did this. I don't know, it was like I was in a trance… Spock, don't come, you don't need to see this." I said, looking around. I jumped when Kahn appeared, his face blank as he leaned over, grabbing the knife and closing it before slipping it in to his pocket with a frown.
"How did you get my knife…?" He asked, trailing off as he stared at my wide eyes.
"Tell me where you are." Spock demanded, I could hear the elevator in the background of the comm. Before I could protest, Kahn grabbed my comm and told Spock where we were before crushing it.
"You just admitted to murder on an unsecure channel, we'll get you a new one." He responded, swearing as he looked at the damage I had done. I had completely shredded his face, exactly like the other time.
"Why are you doing this?" I growled, glaring at him. I was no longer the "golden boy" everyone believed me to be. His smile grew and he leaned forward with a Kleenex, wiping at some of the blood, his smile disappeared when he realized he was making it worse.
"I did not influence this, you did. Which means you do enjoy the power. Perhaps pet was a little hasty, why not be my partner." He said, leaning in with a smile.
"He will be no such thing." Spock said, leaning down and taking in the dead body before looking at me.
"Well, now that you are in good hands." Kahn disappeared and Spock pulled out some wet wipes, trying to clear my face of blood.
"Ashaya..." I whimpered. His eyes met mine before he stopped what he was doing.
"I do not think any less of you for this, my Th'yla." He whispered, brushing my hair from my face.
"Khaf-spol spes, Spock, ri pen Khan hi t'nash-veh sha'glu spes var-tor ish kah-if-farr-tor ran… Tor riyeht-stau…. Tor nekhau-tor Khan heh nam-tor tersu… Than ri aitlu ish." I said fluently, unsure as to why I had just spoken in Vulcan. Spock's face went blank but he continued trying to clean me.
"Du potau tevan-tor svi'kup-whl'q'n, sos'eh kah-if fayei t'dh'to'ovay tel tor." He responded.
"Spock-."
"I'll take care of the body while you change." He said, cutting me off and handing me a bag.
"Leave it there, he knows better than to leave evidence linking him to the crime, we have to go." Kahn said, reappearing with his back to us.
"What is the matter?" Spock asked, crouched slightly.
"Someone heard him yell, there are police on their way." He slowly turned around and met my eyes. "I can take you both back to the apartment the way I have been when he was covered in blood. But you have to go now."
"Why are you helping?" I asked, skeptical as he walked over to us.
"Don't jump to any conclusions, Captain, my interests lie within myself." He replied, grabbing my arm and Spock's.
"Simply put, if you get arrested, so does he." Spock replied, eyeing Kahn warily. I heard footsteps and stiffened, grabbing on to both of them.
"Maybe I should give myself in." I whispered.
"That is not happening." They both said at the same time. I looked between both of them and choked on a sob. I was a murderer, I couldn't even say it was Kahn's fault anymore. I did this.
"Let's go." Spock said, nodding to Kahn.
He pulled out a small device, flipping a switch before grabbing on to us again, and suddenly we were in my apartment again.
"Jimbo, are you here?" Bones yelled down the hall.
"Shit." I whispered, backing up and looking for a place to hide. It was too late though, he walked around the corner and froze, staring at me in horror.
"My god man, what happened to you?" He asked, looking unsure of whether or not he wanted to come near me.
"I was just giving him another lesson doctor, I like watching his fear when he wakes up and realizes I killed someone in his body." Kahn said, smirking and then disappearing. I stared at where he was for a few seconds, absolutely confused.
"I thought he couldn't do that anymore?" Bones asked, frowning.
"Bones, can you give me a few hours, we'll meet up somewhere to talk, but I need to shower." I asked, frowning and looking at Spock. I could feel his shock echoing mine, but he stayed perfectly composed.
"Alright, sure Jim, but the crew is coming, they haven't seen you in a while and they're worried." He muttered, scratching the back of his head.
"Sure just message Spock's comm, I broke mine." I said, smiling sheepishly. Bones threw his hands up and shook his head as he left the room, leaving me and Spock stunned.
Kahn reappeared and I stared at him for few minutes.
"You lied for me. Why?" I asked, shaking my jacket off and looking for a place for it. Spock pulled out a garbage bag and I cringed slightly before shoving it inside.
"Protecting my interests." He said simply, appearing to be examining his nails.
"And what are your interests?" Spock asked, tensing when Kahn stepped towards us with a knowing smile. He stroked my face once before smirking and turning to Spock.
"Do you really want to know?" Spock's eyes narrowed but he nodded. Kahn broke out in a grin and grabbed me by the arm, pulling me to him as I cried out in surprise. Kahn frowned slightly, but for some reason Spock stayed put.
"Let me go." I whispered, looking in to his cold and dark eyes. To my complete and utter surprise, he did, looking at Spock behind me.
"You know what I want, Commander." He whispered, disappearing.
I awoke again to four pairs of arms and I forced myself not to stiffen. When I opened my eyes, I found myself face to face with Kahn, his arm under my neck, his other on my waist. His body was pressed so tightly against mine that it was almost impossible to turn my head to look at Spock without touching noses.
Spock was pressed just as tightly against my back, morning wood pressing in my ass, one arm around my waist, his hand gripping Kahn to me, while his face was nuzzled in to my neck and resting on Kahn's hand. I blinked, unsure of what to do or say when I couldn't even move.
Spock blinked his eyes open at me, saw my expression and looked over me at Kahn. He didn't say a thing, just looked at me before pressing in to me, making me press against… Kahn's… erection? Oh fucking god, what the hell?
Kahn's hand left my waist, gripping my chin gently and turning me to look at him.
"Is there a reason you just grinded against me Captain?" I blushed furiously and kicked Spock, who actually laughed and nuzzled my shoulder. What happened to the Spock who almost stormed out this morning because we woke up with him in our bed?
"Morning." Spock whispered in my ear, making me moan and arch my back in to him, and consequently shoving my crotch against Kahn.
"What are you doing?" I groaned as he bit my shoulder and Kahn pressed closer.
You are afraid of him, Thy'la. Spock said in my mind. I am showing you that you have nothing to fear. Suddenly Spock's hand was undoing my pants and my eyes shot open and I struggled only to have him and Kahn hold me down.
He raped me Spock, what the hell are you doing? I only want you!
I will be here the entire time. I froze at that and Kahn pushed me on my back. Please, Thy'la?
I saw the lust in Spock's eyes and groaned, fisting my hand in his hair and pulling him down for a rough kiss while Kahn's hand slipped in to my pants. I tensed up slightly, but Spocks tongue in my mouth, mixed with Kahn biting my flesh gently while stroking me made me start moaning instantly. Then Spock did something I really didn't expect. He pulled away from me and grabbed Kahn by the hair like I had just done to him, and pulled him in, kissing him roughly. Why the hell did watching Spock make out with Kahn turn me on?!
"Jim, what are you dreaming about?" A soft voice whispered in my ear. My eyes shot open and I stared in to Spock's. His eyebrow was raised up in questioning and I had a raging boner that was pressing against him. I must have grinded against him…
"You." I whispered, blushing furiously. It wasn't a lie, he was very, very, present in the dream. His eyes narrowed and I knew I was caught. But maybe it was Kahn who gave me that dream, I mean, why else would I dream about him like that.
"Why are you attempting to lie to someone who has a bond with you?" He asked, his voice heavily guarded. But I saw anger in his eyes, worse, I felt his fury. He was pissed off.
"Because I'm not fucking sure what the hell just happened, because if you were watching my fucking dreams, which seems a little bit like an invasion of my privacy, you would have seen me struggling and YOU were making me. Are you sure it wasn't your dream that transferred over to me Spock?" I yelled, getting up. I didn't like the way he was being so damn possessive of me.
"James, do you think I would do anything like that with Kahn?" He said, a hint of ice appearing in his voice.
"After all he put me through, do you think I would?" I yelled, spinning around. He blinked slightly, like that never occurred to him. Slowly I felt his anger dissipate and become replaced by shame.
"I…. I apologize. I do not know why I am being so possessive of you. Indeed, I invaded your privacy and watched your dreams. It should have occurred to me that the dream was not instigated by you." He said quietly, averting his eyes. I groaned and flopped on to the bed, my back to him, and put my face in my hands.
"Don't make me feel bad for being angry, I have every right to be." I grumbled, but it was too late, I could never stay mad at him. Before I could even uncover my eyes, he was pressing his lips to mine and I sighed contently.
"I just told you I was angry Spock, how do you think that means make me want nothing more than to hold you and never let go." I said, kissing him back slightly. His lips felt… odd though.
"James." I heard Spock growl. My eyes sprang open and I cried out, kicking Khan in the chest and scrambling back until I was practically on top of Spock.
"You had to ruin my fun, Commander." Kahn said, though he was smiling.
"Then have your fun, I am through with this." Spock replied, shoving me off of him and standing up to retrieve his shirt. His words sank in and I paled.
"Spock, I thought it was you, I swear." I whispered, feeling like I was going to puke. "Don't leave me."
His eyes met mine and I felt the tears softly trickling down my cheeks. God I probably looked so weak to him.
"Captain, I grow tired of Khan and seemingly everything else coming between us. It is not working, we are simply incompatible." I closed my eyes and held back a sob. I wouldn't let him see me broken.
"What about our bond, Ashaya?" I whispered, praying he would come to his senses. Praying he could feel how strongly I love him. Needing him to stay.
"I will find someone to break it. I will also be requesting a transfer from the Enterprise." He said. I kept my eyes closed, I couldn't see his perfect composure.
"Don't bother, you're probably Captain now. I quit, I want nothing more to do with Starfleet." I whispered, clenching my eyes shut and clenching my jaw.
"As you wish. Farewell James." He said, then I heard his footsteps and the swoosh of my door closing. And then I lost it. I screamed, and cried, smashing every piece of glass in the apartment, not caring when shards of it tore open my skin. Not caring when I battered my fist against the wall, only thankful for the soundproof in the building.
Finally I started to collapse, exhaustion taking over me as I wailed. Arms caught me, I struggled for an instant before just collapsing. I gripped whoever's arms and just cried as they laid me on the bed.
"You'll be alright Jimbo, I've seen you bounce back from everything." Bones whispered softly. I heard a strain in his voice, opening my eyes as another sob ripped from my throat. He had tears streaming down his face as he stared at the broken shell of me.
"No I won't." I managed to say. "I'm quitting Bones. I can't do it anymore. I'm quitting Starfleet and moving back to Iowa. Mom is never home anyways, so I'll just stay at the house."
"And what will you do kid?" He asked softly. "It's killing me to see you like this."
"There's nothing I can do that won't remind me of him."
Alright, although it appears like I have one, all my carefully laid out plans were destroyed by the characters when they decided they would run the show. Hey, I like what they're doing, so I let them have free reign over the stories content! Thank you so much for reading! Please review!