I finally arrived at the apartment and slid my key in and listened to the lock beep. I opened the door and threw my stuff onto the bed and sighed, ruffling my black hair. I peered into a mirror and saw that this was one of those moments where my eyes could have revealed anything.

Not like there was much to reveal. I don't remember my past anyway.

I took Carth's holodisk and slid it into a player an listened as a soft acoustic song bled into the room. I smiled and took a brush, gingerly brushing my hair to undo the knots I had created during the course of the day.

"My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me

So won't you kill me, so I die happy?

My heart is yours to fill or burst

To break or bury, or wear as jewelry

Whichever you prefer."

I chuckled to myself as I faintly remembered this song from some time ago. I even sang along with the lyrics.

"The streets were wet and the gate was locked, so I jumped it and let you in. You stood at your door with your hands on my waist and you kissed me like you meant it."

I sighed and changed the song, scoffing at how corny Carth could be. I pondered the thought of more crappy love songs as I heard a crash in the bathroom.

"Who's there?" I called out nervously, not bothering to turn off the music player.

I grabbed my hairbrush as a weapon and carefully grabbed the bathroom doorknob and opening it and swinging wildly.

"Ow! Zerstoren, stop it's me!"

"Canderous? What the hell are you doing here?"

"Oh, the usual. Hoping to get beat with…a hairbrush?"

"I had nothing else."

"If I was a real attacker, you hoped to kill me with your hairbrush?"

I thought of the possible situation and chuckled, going back into my room and sitting on the bed, patting the spot next to me. Canderous sat down and put his arm around my shoulder.

"So what are you here for? And how did you get in?" I asked.

He forced me to lay back, so I placed my hands neatly on my stomach as Canderous played with my hair.

"I was lonely and wanted to know how you were doing."

"Well, I'm doing fine now, so you can leave."

"Why so soon?"

"Because if the Jedi Council knows you're here, I'm toast. Plus, you won't be able to see me again before the end of my training, which could be months."

"Eh, I could bear it." He scoffed and buried his face in my neck.

I tried to push him away, but that only brought him closer. I wanted him to stop, but part of me didn't. Part of me loved the risk I was taking with him, so I wrapped my arms around his broad neck and rolled him over.

"What if I say no?" I asked.

"No to what?"

"Doing anything with you."

"Then I'll leave."

"No you won't." I retorted and got up.

"And what makes you say that?"

"Because you're Canderous Ordo, the mandalorian who could anything he wants with a little brute force."

"Zerstoren, I don't get women with brute force."

"So what is it then? Your ravishing good looks?"

"As a matter of fact, yes."

I scoffed and changed the song again on the music player. This time it was a little harder, and I immediately recognized the lyrics as Bite To Break Skin.

(AN: Yeah, these bands didn't exist in KOTOR, but then it wouldn't be interesting.)

"Canderous, just go. I don't want to get in trouble."

Canderous stood up to go, but not before tracing my hips with his huge, yet somewhat soft, hands.

"Canderous, please go. I don't want to force you."

"Then don't. Let me do the work."

His hands began to slide up my torso, so I used what I had learned with the force and blasted him out of the room. I quickly ran to the door and locked it and heard Canderous pounding on the door, telling me he was sorry and other such nonsense.

"Mandalorians don't apologize!" I yelled through the door and turned the music up a little more.

"Bite to break skin

Don't give the secret

My stoic face, beating with passion

The phoenix will die inside the fire storm

I am the son, so follow my footsteps."

Eventually the banging stopped and I changed the song to first soft acoustic one and turned the volume down low. I climbed under the covers and threw the pillow they gave me on the floor and put my special pillow in its place. I curled up with teddy bear and eventually fell asleep, dreaming more dreams about Revan and Bastila.